What have we became?

Nice to meet you, or not

Out of nowhere a 5.9, blonde, hot and perfect model with a perfect british accent and perfect red, sharp nails walks up to Nathan hugging him, squeezing her huge boobs on him.

What. The. f**k. Who. The. Hell. Is. She. I close my fists so hard that I can feel my nails digging into my palms. Breathe Katherine, breathe. I narrow my eyes as the British doll still holds on tight to Nathan and touches him everywhere, and I mean everywhere. He open and closes his mouth and seems to not being able to take his eyes off of her. Wow, really, good to know how he feels. I clear my throat and the model slowly scans me from head to toe, like I'm trash just laying around.

"Didn't know you lived here! I'm so happy! Who's this honey?" Honey?! I raise my brows and tilt my head, daring her with my eyes. We both look at Nathan that doesn't seems able to speak a word. She has this type of effect on him?

"Katherine, his best friend. And you are?" I snap, but still he doesn't look at me. And did I really thought that he could be different? Nah, he just managed to hide it for longer. The blondie looks at me with a disgusted face and then she winks at Nathan, caressing his arm.

"Oh yes Katherine! Nathan told me about you! I'm Victoria. I'm a special friend, we met in London at the beginning of July. Nice to meet you, by the way." She giggles in the fakest way I ever heard and leans her head on Nathan shoulder.

"I never heard of you tho." The words come out of my mouth like venom, before I can even think and finally Nathan glances at me. I stare in his eyes and lightly shake my head. How delusional. He's about to talk but a freshly manicured hand turns his face away from me.

"Nathan, baby, want to grab a coffee?" Baby. Ok, I think I had enough.

"Victoria I have to go home with Katie. "Finally! Did he manage do speak? A sarcastic smile creeps on my face as I take a step back. This is not my battle.

"No Nathan, I'm sure she can take you home later. " I try to fake a light tone but right now I'm just to pissed off and I just want to go the hell away from him. Nathan tries to reach out to grab my hands but Victoria steps in between and takes it.

"Absolutely! Come on, I didn't saw you for a week! We need to catch up!" A laughter escapes my mouth. 

"A week? Too much Nat, I've waited for months, I can wait another day." I pick up my bag from the floor and glare at him. He looks back at me and I can see that he doesn't know what to say. All I can think of is the word 'pathetic'. Him, that blondie and even myself. Because I am. How could I believe, even just for a moment, that he would be any different? Men are all the same.

"See you" He makes a step closer but I raise my hand to stop him. I look at him and I tear up, I shake my head and smile at him before taking off running. Stupid, stupid Katherine! 

"Katherine! Wait!" I don't stop, his voice mixes with all the noises in the airport. My vision is blurred and I'm running as fast as I can. We're not together, I've no right to be jealous. I run for at least an hour only to find myself in my favorite spot on the hill, finally catching breath. I look at the landscapes under my feet, the sun pouring liquid gold on the city. All the scene repeats in my head over and over again and I bet this is the thing that he wasn't saying me on the phone. I recollect my thoughts and wait.. did she said beginning of July? He had just arrived in London and we hadn't called things off yet. While I was here, waiting for him, he was screwing her?! Fine. I'm done. I scream at the top of my lungs and I wipe away the tears. f**k it. Him, her and everything. I close my eyes recalling myself under control, a few deep breaths and I'm calm enough to go back home.

****

"No. I can't believe that. I'm gonna kill Nathan with my bare hands." I'm sitting on the window sill, calmly admiring the stars above me. Maddie on the other hand, is raging.

"No Maddie. I'm fine. This is the proof that my dad was right and I've been so stupid, I didn't listen to him. Men are all the same" I hear her groan, she can be a pain in the ass if you get her wrong, but I don't want any more drama.

"You're not stupid Katherine. When you two you look at each other everybody can see the sparks and the s****l tension is indescribable! Why don't you fight for your man?" Maddie's voice is filled with exasperation and a small giggle escapes my mouth. She red one too many fairy tale.

"Why? You should have seen her. An angel. Compared to her I'm garbage. She was wrapped in this tiny purple dress, sexy as hell. Everything about her is perfect." As I recall her image I almost feel sick to my stomach.

"Who the hell travels for more than 15 hours on a f*****g plain in a tight dress?!" I burst into laugher at Maddie's comment and she goes on.

"And by the way she was sexy in that dress, maybe. But you slay even when you're all sweaty and in training clothes. I see the how he just want to take a shower with you!" my jaw drops. What?!

"Maddie! Stop it!" She giggles on the other side of the phone.

"Seriously Kate. Let him see what he's loosing. What do you say?" I sigh and look around. The almost full moon enlightens the gardens under my feet and I see the light still on in my father's office on the other side of the house. He always knows what's best to do.

"I'll think about it ok? Right now I need to think what I really want." Who am I kidding. I already know who I want. But I'm afraid of the consequences on his life.

"What are the options?" I head Maddie blowing, I bet she's painting her nails.

"Stepping back, let Victoria have her way and keep him safe from my life. Or jump on him, making him mine, kill her and risk to hurt him." I take a deep breath a step back inside, closing the window, the air is getting cooler every day.

"I choose the second one, except for the killing part." No! Why?

"Really?? It was the fun part!" I make a baby voice and a pouty lip, even if she can't see me.

"I say the fun part is the one of you jump on him and.." She laughs but I stop her as soon as I feel the heat coming to my face.

"Ok! Ok I got it! No need to go on!" Maddie is full on laughing at me, it's like I'm inexperienced when it comes to him.

"You blush and tight your thighs every time Nathan looks at you. And if he could rip your clothes off with his eyes I bet he would do it right away!" I smile and close my eye, falling on the bed.

"It's just.. and if he gets hurt because of me? Because of what me and my family are?" The worts scenarios play in my mind, every way in which he could get hurt or worse, even killed.

"Why don't you tell him?" I sit up straight and almost throw my phone away, she must have gone crazy!

"Are you out of your mind?! He would leave without thinking twice." The nightmares on him turning away from me, insulting me in every way possible hunt me even when I'm awake.

"Can I call you back later Maddie? I've another call." I look at the clock, 11:30pm. Who the hell is at this hour?

"No that's fine, we'll talk tomorrow, don't worry. Love you bestie, bye." I hung up with Maddie and answer the other call without even looking at the name on the screen.

"Hello?" Whoever it is must have a solid excuse to call this time at night.

"Katie.." I clench my phone even harder.

"What?" I almost bark out. I really am not in the mood.

"Can we talk?" His hesitant voice just makes me even more angry.

"You don't need to give me any explanation Nathan, it's all pretty clear to me. She was there with you when I was not." I'm ready to hang up but he talks back at me.

"Listen to me Katherine. It's not how it seems. I didn't cheat on you." His tone is suddenly harsh and firm.

"Nathan, we're not together, this is not cheating." I answer back in the same resolute tone. He won't mess with me, I'm the one in charge. At least I try to be.

"Then why we keep having this bond Katherine?! She was just a distraction, just like Marcus is for you right?" He spits out these words to me and I can see his face, his beautiful eyes frowning, the mouth open showing the teeth.

"What? How do you.." It takes me a few second to process what he just said. I walk in circles, trying to make ends meet.

"Maddie told me. " Oh Jesus f*****g Christ.

"I'm gonna kill her." I clasp my mouth. How could she?!

"So it's true?" I can reed discomfort in his tone.

"It's complicated Nathan. Listen.. I need time to think what I really want." I put my forehead against the cold glass of the window. I need to slow down.

"Between me and him?" What?!

"My God no Nathan. He is a jerk, like you said, a distraction." I laugh at his question, Nathan would win this with eyes closed.

"And then what? I don't want to loose you!" He's talking in a rigid voice, what has gotten into him? I should be the one raging, not him.

"And I don't want you to get hurt! I have to go now." I close my eyes and slide down against the wall. I feel exhausted.

"I want an answer by the first day of school Kate. No excuses." He hangs up and I drop my phone running my hands thru my hair, trying to wrap my mind around this.

*Two weeks later. *

I've been avoiding Nathan, after some unanswered calls he has stopped. Maybe he has given up and I feel kinda bad. I kick Marcus' ass almost every day, I pour all my anger on the punching bag or on the target at the shooting range. I'm not able to calm down or to stop thinking. My brain it's all over the place and still I don't have an answer. Tomorrow will start our last year of high school and after this, I'll work full time for my dad.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK 

"Come in." I'm stretching on the floor, doing my abs.

"Katherine?" My dad enters the room and I quickly get up.

"What's up dad?" He looks around and seems a little nervous.

"I just wanted to check on you. You didn't show up for dinner and in the last weeks Marcus told me that you've been training every day like crazy. Everything ok?" I swear, one day that boy and his f*****g mouth will be the death of me.

"Yeah dad. I was a little bit nervous for school's start, nothing more. It's my last year after all." I make this up a start to clean my room. This conversation is awkward.

"I know there's something else. In moments like this I wish your mother was here. She would have been the right person to talk about your "girl stuff"." My dad looks out the window, visibly embarrassed and I freeze in my spot. 

"My God dad, this is getting awkward! I don't wanna do this type of conversations with you, I'm sorry!" I raise my hands and shake my head, I feel the heat on my face.

"Me neither Katherine! I'm glad you have at least Maddie." My dad laughs and goes back to the door.

"Well, I'll let you sleep, tomorrow is a big day. Goodnight baby girl." He glances at me with a sweet smile but he can't hide the concern in his eyes.

*The next morning.*

"I can't believe it! Our last year!" Maddie is jumping everywhere, as exited as she can be.

"The calvary is almost over!" We laugh together as we take our books from the locker. I can't stop looking everywhere for Nathan. I'm not sure if it's because I don't want to see him or I just want to bury my head in his chest and forget about everything. I close the locker and  the familiar shiver runs down my spine and I know he's here, I feel it before seeing him.

"We can still make it if you want to go." Maddie tilts her head in the classroom's direction but I say a silent no. I can't avoid him forever.

"Hey girls." I make a little smile and with the corner of my eye I see Maddie raising her chin, and I would recognize that face in a crowd. 

"Hey Nat, I heard you've got yourself a friend." There it is. I squeeze her arm, glaring at her but she just shakes me off and smiles back. She's in the mood. Great.

"Yeah, about that.. I wanted to talk to you Katherine, before you see it." Nathan looks at his feet, rubbing his nape. I frown and he looks at me in total discomfort. As I open my mouth a high peach voice comes from behind me.

"Hey babe! Oh hey Katherine, nice to see you again!" I close my eyes. No, this can't be true. Not here. You have to be f*****g kidding me Nathan Walker. I give him a death stare as Victoria stops beside him and stamps a kiss on his cheek.

"Victoria.. what are you doing here?" I glance at Maddie, her jaw has dropped and I can see the anger building in her eyes. I take her hand in mine and she recompose.

"Well my parents sent me here to stay with my uncle, who happens to live near here. So this will be my school for the rest of the year. This will be so much fun, I promise!" In the last sentence she looks at me with a strange light in her eyes. Is she trying to scare me? Oh, I'm gonna make you regret it Victoria. An awkward silence falls on us while me and her still are staring at each other.

"Soooo, I don't believe that I know you. I'm Maddie." Maddie hold out her hand but Victoria deliberately ignores it, placing hers on Nathan chest.

"Oh I'm sorry, my bad. I'm Victoria, Nathan's girlfriend." Nathans jump at that word and looks frantically between me and her.

"G-girlfriend?" It's the last thing that I hear, Maddie's whisper. I turn right away, and walk the hell out of there.