Who Am I?

It's so hard to grow up like everyone else and be in a time to shape up for society. The most common word at this time: act like a girl, you are a girl! I couldn't say "f**k off! I did not choose this gender and this is my life!" and that is how my adventure began. I mean the bad joke that my destiny has played on me. Even my birth! I was not wanted by anyone and I can not say that the situation is diffirent now, but God still sent me to the world. The woman who gave birth to me did not want an abortion because she had cancer and she knew that the baby would help her heal, but she still sent me a signal with medicines that she did not want me. She did everything the doctor said was harmful to the baby. As always, I misunderstood all the signals and was born healthy. I was smarter than other children, but that was officialy a mistake. Do you know why? Because once people realize you do not need them, you become an unwanted and smarty kid. I had imaginary friends and a world of my own because I was not wanted by people. Luckily they respect me in my dreams. Even though I was smarter then others, there were things I did not know. For too long I only knew my parents name as mom and dad. We have weirdness in our blood like everyone else. Am i ashamed to show it? Or am I still not aware of it? No, it's all wrong. Weirdness is always natural. There is no perfect person, if there is then that person is just pretending. I could swear that perfect people are serial killers, but i can never prove it. There is a perfection created by mistakes and truths, beautiful and ugly and other existing opposite poles.