Loving my Former Enemy

Chapter 4

Tristan POV:

“Sir, we had a lead….but we lost the connection just a few moments ago.” My investigator informed me.

It had been about a day or two more since she had left from California. Exactly at the same moment I got that note, I left tons of calls and texts to her phone.

They all went straight to voicemail though, proving that she had turned her phone off. Ever since, my investigator has been trying to get a lead on their location but nothing.

When I heard him tell me there was news about where she could be, hope formed, but quickly died down as he finished his statement. But I was still not going to give up.

”Tell me everything.” I said hardly and focused all my attention on what he was to say next.

”Sir, her phone had been turned back on recently and I had tracked her from there. It was far from California, I’m sure….but I’m not sure where. The moment I was to find where she currently was, I lost the connection of her phone. Either it’s dead, unconnected to a network or server, or she had turned it off again.” He told me.

I furrowed my brows. Why would she turn it off though? I was wondering by any chance if she had gone willingly and this worry was all for nothing. What if she didn’t really want to be found? Then how was I supposed to find her?

I sighed in defeat, my shoulders slumping slightly. I never tried to show any weakness in front of my men, but today I somehow did.

Seeing my pathetic state, Charles rested a hand on my shoulder and gave me a slight sympathetic smile.

”Don’t worry boss, we will find her and make sure she gets back to you safely. That’s a promise.” He said and I smiled back.

”I know.”

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Alina POV:

Lucas was currently in the medium sized kitchen currently fixing whatever breakfast recipe he learned from his family.

I was too kind of a person to pull him down and make him feel like I was….unappreciative. I know I shouldn’t feel like that, but I did. So I let him cook for me despite my raging heart and stupid conscious telling me not to.

While Lucas added different seasonings and ingredients, I observed him carefully and watched the full attention he had set on cooking the food.

I felt genuine thankfulness for him helping me, except something felt extremely odd. I was too taken off guard to really think about things and including the situation with me trying to stay as far off the radar.

Now that I thought about it, the energy and his presence around me gave me an odd feeling, as if something was off and I could sense it.

His intentions felt genuinely real and helpful, but every single moment I have time to think deep into things, I get extremely anxious and I overthink things.

I didn’t want to make any conversation and tried to keep as much distance around us as possible, though not fully so it wouldn’t feel like I was avoiding him or something.

My head wasn’t at rest, not one moment I didn’t have different thoughts over what all this could mean.

How long was I planning on staying here? How long was I gonna hide?

I tried to figure out what I was actually going to do and how all of this was supposed to help me. At the time I accepted his offer, I wasn’t exactly thinking. I was just making decisions that I felt was right at the moment.

Sighing, I took a seat and closed my eyes for a second. Just to calm myself and relieve these tensed nerves of mines.

Sensing my discomfort and nervousness, Lucas spoke. I opened my eyes when I heard his voice and looked at him.

”You good? Seem a little, tense.” He said, his tone concerned and curious.

I shook my head in a nod. “Yeah….I am fine. Just, thinking about things.” I said and sighed again.

”Yeah, you have a lot to think about for your future. But whatever happens, don’t you worry. I promise that I will fulfill in helping you out.“

Running my hands along my scalp, I redirected my attention. Though I started to think again.

”Why did Ms. Kathy assign you here to help me?” I couldn’t help but ask him.

Lucas shrugged. “She seemed really concerned for you and just wanted to help. She told me about everything…and felt like I could do something to get you….around for now.”

I still didn’t understand. “But why?“

He shrugged again. “Katherine is a very kind-hearted and compassionate woman. She makes arrangements to help others and make sure that they are healthy and happy. This seemed to be the best way to help you, so she told me to make sure that you are both of those things.”

Even though I appreciated her thoughtfulness and concern, I didn’t feel like she had to do this. I didn’t have an actual plan as of how I would get away from him, but I would have never thought of doing this. And even though they could keep me healthy throughout this pregnancy, I’d never be happy with my actions and decisions. I know that there was so much I left behind that made me happy. Without those things, I wouldn’t be fulfilled.”

”But how is all this going to make me happy?” I spoke my thoughts.

He gave me a small smile. “I know what you’re feeling at the moment, you’re far from happy. But you should know that what you’re doing for your baby will give you the most happiness. Just live each day one by one and try to be happy as much as you can allow yourself. It won’t be easy, but everything will work out.” Lucas assured me.

I didn’t feel his words, but I forced a smile and tried to convince myself of what he was saying. I hoped he was right.

”Yeah, I guess so.” I said back.

He gave me another smile and turned back to the food making. I looked around the place, but found no interest whatsoever. So I brought my attention back to observing him.

My thoughts clouded with doubt the moment I looked at him intently. There was no doubt something was wrong here, but I couldn’t make it out.

Inhaling deeply and exhaling, I calmed my nerves and turned my thoughts off for the time being. I looked down at my hands and just assured myself that everything was good. Everything was fine and would stay that way.

After a long time of counting to 1000, I was at 621 when I was snapped out of my thoughts by Lucas’s voice.

”Foods ready!” He smiled brightly.

I looked up and saw that the food was already served on two plates. The moment I inhaled the aroma of the food, I instantly became fuzzy and my stomach growled in hunger.

”Thank goodness, because I don’t think I could wait any longer.” I said, attempting to get up and grab the plate.

He stopped me before I could get down off the chair. “Hey, no need to get up. I’ll bring it to you.”

I nodded and gulped down the nervousness I was feeling. After a few moments, he grabbed both plates and settled one in front of me, with a glass of juice.

“Wow, thanks.“ I said and picked up my fork, cutting through the eggs.

”You’re welcome.” He said back and picked up his own fork.

For the first few minutes, we both ate in silence until he broke it by speaking.

”So, what do you like to do for fun?” He asked me.

I looked down, not making any contact with him as I thought deeply. There was many things I loved to do for fun, but most of them all led back to one person. Tristan.

”Uh….nothing much, really. Can we not talk about this?” I said and filled my mouth with food to restrict myself of saying anything else.

”U-yeah sure….we don’t have to speak on it if it makes you uncomfortable.” He said and I nodded, still looking down at my plate while chewing slowly.

After a few more moments, he spoke again. “Well, is there anything you would like to talk about?”

I started to feel irritable at his questions, because I honestly didn’t want to talk at all. Especially not with him.

Finishing off my food and swallowing, I looked up at him and responded with calmness, but inside I was annoyed.

”Look, I know you’re trying to make conversation and all, but please stop for now. I don’t feel like talking.” I said.

He gulped and nodded slowly. I….I get it. It’s fine.” Lucas said back and finished eating in silence.

Without any more conversation, we finished our breakfast in complete silence. It was unnerving and extremely uncomfortable around him, but I didn’t say a word.

After he finished, Lucas got up with the plate. Setting it in the dishwasher, he came back and held out his hand for mine.

I ate the last piece of meat with the eggs and gulped down the juice in the glass. Once done, I handed him both one at a time.

He came back and held out his hand for me to take. I shook my head and got down myself. ”No need to be all gentlemanly with me. I’ve got this.” I told him and sat down on the couch.

My annoyance was at a high peak the moment he came to sit beside me. I looked over at him with a questioning expression.

“What, are you just gonna follow and watch over me all the time?” I said, my tone coming off very bothered.

He sighed. “I apologize if you feel like I’m doing too much or am trying too hard. I’m just trying to make you comfortable here and to let you know that I’m here if you need me.”

I narrowed my eyes. “Thank you, but no thanks. One, you are doing too much and trying too hard and it’s very bothering to me. Secondly, I get that you want to get….I don’t know, closer to me, but please stop. It’s frustrating for me and I am trying my best to feel comfortable here but I can’t if you keep doing this.” I said loudly.

“Alright…..I won’t disturb you with my pestering questions and annoying presence unless you ask me.” He said.

I sighed. “Thank you, can I please get a moment alone?”

He nodded. “Sure, Lynna……I meant Alina.” He chuckled nervously and walked away.

My eyebrows furrowed together and my heart started to beat fast in my chest as I remembered a memory that brought back pain.

FLASHBACK:

I was currently in high school, walking down the halls and stopping by my locker to grab my textbooks for the next class. My favorite class, which was english.

I hadn’t seen Louis all day since yesterday. We had been a couple for almost nine months now. He was such a sweetheart and always made my heart thump with happiness. I loved him so much.

I was a little worried and curious as of why I hadn’t seen him today. He was literally everywhere I was.

But today, I didn't see him. It was the last period for the day, and he hadn‘t been in class all day. We had the same schedules. Like literally, it was the exact same except for the afternoon when he went to the gym for practice. Yes, my man was the captain of the football team.

Sighing, I closed my locker and walked to class with my textbooks held tightly against my chest.

Before I could make it in the classroom, I felt arms wrapping around my waist and pulling me back to someone’s chest.

I gasped and turned immediately. It was Louis. “Oh my god! You scared me.” I held my chest. “Where have you been?” I asked him.

He smiled and gave me a deep kiss. “Hey lynna, sorry I wasn’t in class today. I was practicing with the guys, you know.”

I narrowed my eyes at him. “Lynna? Haven’t I told you to stop calling me that, my handsome rule-breaker?”

Yes, we both gave each other weird names. I decided on a handsome rule-breaker, because he was both handsome and rebellious. I was the exact opposite of him, but somehow we fit perfectly. Our relationship lasted so long despite our differences.

He had picked out this weird nickname that I found completely horrible. Lynna was the nickname he gave me, and I hated it. Just why? It wasn’t even close to my name.

”I’m sorry baby, but I love calling you that so much. I have no idea, but I just do.” He said and kissed me again.

I sighed. “But still, I don’t like it. Pick something else.” I said.

He looked at me intently. “Fine, I won’t call you Lynna anymore.“

I smiled and kissed both his cheeks, then his lips. “Oh, I love you so much. Now let’s get to class before we’re late. You’ve already skipped too many today.”

He gave me an equal smile back and rested his arm across my shoulders, holding me tightly against him.

”I love you too, Lynna. Now let’s get to class.” He said back with a smirk.

I glared at him. “DIDNT WE COME TO A CONCLUSION NOT TO CALL ME THAT!” I said loudly.

He shrugged. “Sorry again, babe.”

I shook my head, making him chuckle. “I won’t talk to you for a whole week if you do it again.” I told him with seriousness.

He widened his eyes. “As if you could actually stay a week away from me. I know how worried you were that I wasn’t here today.“ Louis smirked again.

I hardened my glare on him. “Try me.” I said, hoping he’d not test me. Honestly, I didn’t want to spend a second away from him.

”Fine babe, consider me warned. I won’t do it again, I promise.” I smiled the moment he promised me.

”Good.“ I said back the moment before we walked into class.

He gave me a wink and a quick kiss on the lips before going to sit in his assigned seat.

Mines was in the front while his was in the back. We had assigned seats because everyone chose to sit wherever they wanted and cause disruptions.

Sighing heavily, I took out my pen and textbook, including my English book and looked up at the teacher where she greeted us and started her lesson for the day.

FLASHBACK ENDED

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Hearing Lucas call me Lynna, brought back so much. Louis used to call me that all the time and I hated the name.

Louis was the one who broke me for the first time and crushed my hopes on men. He was mostly the reason I couldn‘t ever open up and share my feelings with Tristan.

It was just too risky and I didn’t want to make any more mistakes that I did in the past.

As they say….fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

I couldn’t have my heart broken again because the next time, it would be officially broken beyond repair.

I was scared to let him in for that very reason. Because I was already too broken. I didn’t want the rest of me to be completely shattered.

My thoughts went back to what Lucas called me. Why did he call me that?

I would understand if he would have called me a common nickname for my name or made one up, but Lynna? It wasn’t at all common for me.

Only one person called me that and he broke me. Why would he Lucas then call me that?

I tried to convince myself that he didn’t know and it was just a coincidence, but it wasn’t easy.

Ever since we encountered, everything was weird and his presence seemed….I don’t know how to describe it but it was disturbing me.

This was my fault. I should have gave more thought into what I was doing before I accepted this offer of his, but I wasn’t in the right mindset at that moment.

Groaning aloud, I punched the cushion of a red pillow beside me and rested my head on the arm of the couch.

All I knew was that I had to keep my distance, as much distance away from him as possible until I cleared all this suspicion I was feeling.

Something wasn’t right about him and him calling me Lynna….it officially made him suspicious to me.

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