Secrets

Its night, I’m on the ground next to a lake, the lake we always drove passed to go home after work, I hear in the distance people calling my name but I can’t answer, it feels like fire in my throat and chest every time I breath, let alone answer them. When I try and move excruciating pain shoots from my head, shoulder, my side and my legs. I can feel my clothes are soaked but not from the water I was pulled out from, its soaked with blood, I can smell the blood and I feel very weak, sleepy. As painful as it is I’m trying to move, fighting my urge to just fall asleep, I know if I do I won’t wake up again. I already know the extent to my injuries, I just never thought I would be on the receiving end of it, I’m used to being the one rushing to people to save their lives. Which leads me to my next question, who saved me? And why save me from the water, just to leave me next to the lake to die? While I’m lying there trying to figuring out what’s going on, I hear something moving next to me, something BIG not human big but bigger, ‘S…t, I can’t remember if there's any wild animals in this area, or really dangerous ones for that matter’ I think to myself. ‘There is something here with me, and its close’ and just to confirm what I thought, that’s when I heard a low growl. I’m no longer tired and weak, my adrenaline kicked in fully, now my body is in its fight or flight mode. ‘If this is a predator, like I think it is, I’m going to have to fight and flight’. As painful as it was I turn myself around, I’m on my stomach now, trying to crawl away from what made that growl. I didn’t get far, that’s when I heard it again but this time I could hear its breathing, its circling me, I feel my heart beat in my chest, and then I saw it, a Big black wolf with shiny red eyes staring at me, teeth bared. I quickly look around for a weapon, anything will do at this point, I grab a long thick pointy stick to try and defend myself, ‘I’m NOT going to be dinner without a fight’ I think to myself. As I pull the stick closer to me, the wolf lunges at me. I place one end of this stick firmly on the ground and point the sharp end at the forward lunging wolf, I don’t have the strength to jab at the beast so I’ll just have to position the stick properly so the wolf will penetrate itself or hurt itself enough to leave me and go away, ‘I hope this stick is strong enough’ was the last thought I had, I moved the stick slightly to my left just enough to penetrate the wolfs shoulder, it yelped and pulled back, limping on its one leg, ‘It worked, the stick worked, now I just need to keep it away from me, and hopefully its pack isn’t close by’ as I’m in thought I notice the wolf circling me again, It lunges at me again and I position the stick between myself and the wolf, the wolf stops in front of the stick and moves back, like its testing me, and then all of a sudden the wolf bites down on the stick, ripping it out of my hand and throws it to the side, ‘S…T’ ‘no, no, no, I don’t want to die, not like this’ I think to myself, As if the wolf sensed my distress, it lunges at me, all I could do was cover my head and neck with both my arms. I closed my eyes and waited for more pain to start, at least I won’t suffer long with all the blood I lost so far. Before the black wolf could do anything I heard a big howl, ‘great, its pack is here, I’m dinner’ but to my surprise the black wolf hasn’t attacked me yet, it was retreating, I lift up my head to look straight into big golden eyes, this wolf was also black but it was BIGGER, way bigger than the other one, a wolf isn’t supposed to be this big. All this was getting to much to handle, I felt pins and needles around most of my body, I’m fighting to stay awake, I don’t know how much more I can take. That’s when I felt it, The Big black wolf with its golden eyes standing over me, I turn my head to look up at the wolf that’s about to kill and eat me, I feel petrified, ‘I’m done, I didn’t want to die this way, I wanted to do so much still, say things to my loved ones’ I think to myself, I turn back, facing the ground, trying to crawl forward away from the wolf towering over me, I still had a little fight in me. I heard a BIG howl and then I felt it, a sharp, burning pain over my shoulder, the pain caused by the big wolf that bit into my shoulder, I screamed in agony and tried to pull away but the beast put its heavy paw on my back and bit into my shoulder even harder. I muffled another scream by clenching my teeth together, I couldn’t take it anymore, I was going numb, my eyes falling shut. I felt the wolf remove its big paw from my back and it wasn’t biting into me anymore, it was just standing over me, staring at me. I heard the weirdest voice in my head saying “You my dear have a lot of fight in you, it’s a trait that will come in very handy, if you survive” It was the last thing I heard, I couldn’t fight anymore, I shut my eyes and I let the darkness take over.. I’m drifting in my darkness, I don’t want to wake up, ‘Come on you can’t stay here forever, you have to wake up sometime’ I hear a voice in my head, a voice other than my own talking to me. ‘what the hell!?, who said that? how are you in my head? what’s going on?’ I ask suspiciously. ‘Don’t be afraid, I’m a friend, I’m apart of you, and you of me, I’ve been waiting to be able to talk to you, my name is Logan, this might be a bit much to take in so I’ll try and explain as best I can without freaking you out but.. I’m your inner warrior so to say, I’m your wolf now, I’ve been with you for a while now and I was dying to talk to you, but you were blocking me, so I couldn’t connect with you till now, but as weird as it sounds I’m a friend, we are entwined, a lifeline, as you are mine, one cannot survive without the other. I know what you’re feeling and thinking as you can do the same with me, so I like to think of it as I’m your inner warrior that will come out when you need me too. Your/Our protector’ I was still drifting in my darkness, not sure I believed what I just heard, ‘I must be dreaming, this is weird, I’m talking to a wolf that is a part of me, in my head, ‘I’m losing my mind, I must be dreaming or, I’m actually nuts’. Logan shook her head and said ‘You’re not dreaming this and you’re not crazy, I know it’s a lot to take in but I’m here for you and with you, Always’. Even though it felt like I had an intruder in my head, how she said it, in a weird way, it felt somewhat comforting to know and I started to relax a little but the voice in my head, Logan, she kept quiet and gave me time to get used to the idea, which I appreciated. While processing the fact that I have a wolf in my head it dawned on me, I can’t remember much, I have memory patches from what happened the nights before but I also have weird memory patches of people, things and places I don’t know in between, It’s very confusing. Then it dawned on me, I don’t know where I ‘am, who’s here with me, why I’m here, or what happened. I’m anxious, but before I completely freak out Logan’s presence became stronger, she didn’t say anything but I knew it’s her way of trying to calm me, it worked a bit, “I can’t really remember what happened to me, or where I’ am at this moment, or what happened, are we even in a safe place, it doesn’t feel like it, everything feels so hostile, I need to get out of here.” “Relexia” she said in a very soft gentle tone, trying not to push me over the edge, “I feel what you feel and you can feel what I feel, your senses are heightened as are a few other things, this is all new, I get it, but you need to try and keep your emotions controlled, as our senses are heightened, so are the other wolves, so whatever you feel and sense so does the other wolves around us. So considering were in a disadvantaged situation let’s not alert the others just yet.” Her words made me feel defeated but I knew she was wright. “but I do agree with you, we do need to get out of here, were not defeated were just in a disadvantaged position, I know this is new to you but I need to come closer to the surface, I’ll move slow, but it will help with the nerves and to focus our heightened senses to be able to figure out our surroundings.” I agree and Logan starts moving closer, her presence is strong and is only getting stronger, I can feel her move and I feel weird, like I’m me but it’s not me, I have control but not complete control, I start to feel anxious again but Logan grounds me by saying “This is good Relexia, you’re doing amazing for your first mind shift, it will only get easier, you’ll be able to hear, see, sense and smell better now, your speed is increased, your stronger and you have better reflexes in this form.” I start to listen, smell and sense everything, everything is heightened like she said it would be, and it’s like were in a war zone, things breaking, people talking, screaming, fighting, metal clashing sounds, pants, and the smells, that was worse, ranging from sweat, things burning, to blood, it was all a bit too much and I was getting overwhelmed. Luckily Logan took over and she helped me focus on certain sounds and all the different smells more intently, first around us then moving out. I heard and smelled everything, Logan filled in the areas where I wasn’t sure, but I could make out we were with a pack of wolves, we were in a very woodsy area, secluded most likely.  “Relexia, concentrate and try and feel what’s around us” I tried to stay calm and focus on specific things more close to us like she taught me, it wasn’t difficult to concentrate on what was around us, the more I did it, the easier it got. To my surprise I didn’t feel dirt, sticks or anything like the out door’s as expected, I felt a soft, smooth surface underneath me, like a bed. I was warm and dry, but as I concentrated on things near and around me I started feeling pain over my legs, my side, my chest, shoulders and head, the pain was from my injuries, but I can’t remember how I got them, it was still a blur, until I remembered something Logan said. “Logan, you said you have been with me for a while but couldn’t communicate with me, why is that? And do you know what happened to me? Why am I injured?” Logan felt unsure but replied, “I can tell you, but if you’re up to it, I’d rather show you” I agreed and I’m not sure how she did it but she showed me what happened at the lake. “I can show you more but I don’t think this is the time or the place.” I had so many questions, but she was wright, this wasn’t the time nor place to go down memory lane. ‘So I have a ton of questions and you will answer me but for now, what do we do?’ As I ask, she looked at me for a moment, she then sniffed the air and instantly I felt her go a bit tens, “Logan? What’s wrong?” “Smell and Listen Relexia, let your instincts help and guide you.” I smelled the air and noticed wolfs scents, three of them, that are very close and getting closer.  The Alphas POV I'm standing in front of the bed where my new protégé is lying, just looking at her, a bit frustrated she wasn't woken yet but considering her injuries the transformation might take a while, last night I pulled her out of the water by the lake, she was in a big accident and ended up in the pack lake, I didn't need outsiders to snoop around my property and wanted to drag her where they can find her, but on land I saw all her injuries and knew she wasn't going to survive so I walked away. I did my part, but she was a fighter and when I smelled a rogue on our side of the border, close to where she was I knew she wouldn’t survive.  It would have worked out perfectly, the rogue would find her, kill her if she wasn't dead already, and police will come to the conclusion that her body washed out on land and animals started feeding on her body and stop the investigation on my property. I'll be able to cover myself with the pack by saying I smelled the rogue while on a run and wanted to defend my territory and found her body, it would have been the perfect cover-up when the packs patrolling party arrived on the scene, but my wolf wanted us to help her, she had a strong fighting spirit and there was something about her, he wasn't sure but she wasn't a normal human. I was curious by what he meant by not a normal human and considered to help her when I decided I'm going to try and change her, if she survives the transition from human to wolf, she will be my little project and maybe we can figure out what my wolf was picking up.  I privately linked with my Beta Mark to come to my location, while waiting for the Beta the rouge showed up, I hid myself and covered my scent, I wanted to see how this was going to play out, I was sure she wasn't going to make it but she was putting up a fight even with all her injuries. When Beta Mark finally arrived I instructed him to chase away the rouge and bite her with the intent to change her. He was hesitant at first but I’m a dominant Alpha so he didn’t have a choice. Now I'm standing with the pack doctor and his assistant nurse while they monitor ‘Her’ when Beta Mark walks into the room "Alpha Dominique, your son and his group just arrived back from their mission" He looks at the girl lying on the bed "Alpha, what are you going to do with her?" I knew he was curious, maybe even concerned, it’s not like an Alpha to change a human and then take them in to the pack house to heal, but then again I'm the Alpha, I don't need to explain myself to anyone. "She will remain here, until she is healed and wakes up, after that we can take it from there" Beta Mark looks at me, he knows I’m up to something but he knows better than to ask me and hesitantly continues to asks "Alpha, what of your son? Now that he is back what should I tell him? Where will he stay?" My so called son, he's strong, fast, a good leader but he is weak, of all the bad things that I got rid of, his care for others was the hardest to crush, he has changed, but not as much as I want him to, he needs to harden up, make hard decisions, be ferocious, feared by all, like myself, so until I know what this soon to be little wolf is, I can use her to my advantage, she might be what I need to change him completely. Who knew this little 'wolf' would come in handy so much, I start smirking "Well Beta Mark, tell him his room is occupied for the time being and his acceptance in this house all depends on his report back about the mission." The Beta left with my message and it didn't take long before my son barged into the house, I was on my way out of the room where my project was healing and closed the door just as he stood behind me, I turned slowly, with a board expression. He had furry in eyes but not the amount I wanted him to have, as expected. "WHAT THE HELL FATHER, you gave up my space and my room!! After everything I have done for you and this pack you still look down on me!!? and since WHEN do YOU, Alpha Dominique care and attend to the needs of another!!" He said that with much acid in his voice, not bad, almost acceptable, ALMOST. So I turn to him and use my Alpha voice " You will speak to me with Respect, you might be in line for my title but your actions and lack of action shows you are not worthy of such a Title, Hell I'd even let the Damn Omegas run the show before I let a weak wolf like you run MY pack, unless you step up boy you'll never get my title, until then I'm THE Alpha and YOU will do as I say" He looked at me with much hatred and furry, good, the boy is learning, maybe there is hope for him yet. "So Nick, follow me to my office I want a full descriptive report of the mission, let’s see how much damage you caused." I start walking to my office, when I notice him staring at the bedroom door, this might work out better than I thought. "Nick, I’m not going to wait for you all day, now get in my DAMN office before I disown you." When he looked at me I briefly saw a look of surprise on his face and then anger, not his usual angry face, he had an intense aura around him as well, an angry Alpha aura, Perfect. With my new protégé I'll get this boy ready for the Alpha Title sooner than I thought. He then started walking towards my office. I love it when things go my way.  Nicks POV The troops and I just entered our territory and thanks to our strong Alpha bloodline I sensed something was off, Alphas can sense things on their territory before any pack member, I knew my father had something to do with it, he always does. I look at my exhausted troops, we just had one of the longest, hardest missions on our records and now we have to deal with my father’s s@#t. I mind link my troops 'Gents, be on alert, something is off, I don't know what my father did but we have unexpected guests.' The guys looked at each other in annoyance, and then nodded to state the order is understood, it’s probably going to be a long night for us, like we weren't tired already. As soon as we got to the pack house, Beta Mark met me at the front door, he informed me what my father had done, which made me furious, not only have I changed myself and the troops into the most ruthless warriors on the continent, I was out fighting and defending our territory, and winning the senseless battles my father had going on. I was always the one cleaning up his mess and this is what I come home to. I storm passed Beta Mark to have a word with my father. I went up to my floor and saw him standing in front of my bedroom door, closing it as I came closer. I was angry at my father but it occurred to me he had just came from my room but kept my focused on him, my wolf on the other hand was restless but excited. After my father and I started having words I noticed an overpowering smell coming from the room, not in a bad way, in a very irresistible way, it was very distracting and it took all my strength to focus on my father. After he left the room I looked around, my eyes followed the smell and noticed it came from my bedroom, ‘What is the Alpha up too and why am I so drawn to this smell’, I inhaled as much of the scent as my lungs could hold and my wolf confirmed my suspicion, this is the smell of my mate. I needed to control my urge to go into my room, that's when my father made his pathetic threat, I walked to my father’s office, I could feel my wolf Volkan was ready to kill him and for some reason it’s taking everything I got to keep Volkan and myself calm, 'man this scent has a bigger impact on me than I thought and I don't even know my mate yet'. I enter his office and start to close the door. 'Volkan, we need to keep our cool, find out what his game is and what our mate has to do with this. After this, he's yours to do as you please.' 'Well then this game just got a whole lot better' Volkan replied. Relexia's POV I'm still laying on the bed, Logan masked our aura and made the other 3 wolves think we were still unconscious, I had heightened smell and hearing and Logan helped me focus and use all the abilities I needed at this moment, we learned the three wolves was a doctor, nurse and the Alpha of the pack, Logan said he isn’t the one that bit us, but he was there, and that something is off, he is the Alpha but he doesn't have the aura or that authority of an Alpha. I was still focusing on my surroundings when someone walked in, a wolf, first I felt the dominating aura of this wolf but then it was like it vanished, I heard them talk and then they left. It wasn’t long after I heard arguing outside the room, and then I smelled a scent that was so alluring I wanted to open my eyes and see what that was, Logan was surprised even taken back a few seconds, but I could feel her excitement growing. 'Mate, Relexia that's our mate' Logan said in contained excitement 'Mate? What do you mean our mate?' I asked suspiciously After Logan explained a mate is your soulmate, life connection, like how we are connected to our wolves we are connected to our soulmates, once you have your mate and the mate bond is completed, no one can replace that person/ wolf. You can die of heartache is you were separated. I was happy for Logan but I was freaking out, I can't mate with some random guy I don't know, I'm not like that, I had worked myself up, I had so much protests, questions, so much resentment for a split second Logan almost slipped our ‘unconscious’ aura. I felt her calm me and I gained my composure and so did she. I was still gaining my composure when I noticed the irresistibly smelling scent from our ‘mate’ fade a bit, the draw to that smell was so powerful it was like a magnet, I felt tingling all over my body but mostly around my wounds, what's happening to me, 'Relax Relexia, our mate is healing us, not at its full potential but enough to get us moving again' 'Who is this stranger Logan? I want to see him' Curiosity got to me what can I say, 'I wouldn't suggest it, if he noticed us, your idea of escaping from here won’t work. If he didn’t notice us already, which I’m sure he has, but I can tell you, he has a very unique, strong and powerful aura, we need to be careful of our mate, I can handle him but you, you’re not ready yet. We need to get you trained and strong physically' Logan said honestly. After our chat I slowly opened my eyes, I was lying in a big dark grey - black bedroom, everything was neat, big windows for natural light and a sliding door that leads to a balcony on the left, 'Mates scent is everywhere, this is driving me nuts' Logan said more to herself than to me. I giggle softly 'We need to get you out of here Logan before you do something I'd regret' I said teasingly. I sit up, I have pain but not as bad as I thought I would but I feel dizzy 'I thought you said 'mate' was healing us?' I ask Logan, "He was, but because we are not mated yet it’s a lot slower" Logan replied This might set us back a bit, but I’m getting out of here before my wolf wants to stay with Mr. Mate forever. Sorry Logan, I want you to be happy but I can't do this, not with someone I don't know. I slowly get up; it hurts but I know I have to get out of here. I look down and notice I’m wearing a hospital gown. WTF!! I look around the room and notice some clean clothes on the dressing table, a pair of black leggings and a black tank top with boots. The nurse probably put it there in case I woke up, “Thanks nursey”. I get dressed and surprisingly everything is in my size, I’m not big I’m average in height and medium built, I like to think of myself as a modern Amazonian woman.  'I think you’re over estimating yourself there a bit' Logan giggles at me 'What! Mrs. Googly eyes, I can be strong if I want to be" I give a failed snarky response, knowing in this place, I’m WAY out of my league. I move slowly to the sliding door; I make sure there isn't anyone outside. I try and be as quiet as I can, I don't want to get caught so I slowly unlock the door and slide it open. I'm standing on the balcony, the smell of the outdoors crashed into me like a wave, Trees, grass, mud, wild flowers, it’s all so intense but in a good way. I look for a place I’d be able to climb down from and find a spot, it’s risky but I’ll take it. I just got over the railing of the balcony when I looked up and my eyes were met by angry brown eyes. "S...t" I say in a very low whisper, but I'm pretty sure he heard me. "Where do you think you’re going!?" The Alpha half shouted while amused, probably trying the get the rest of the pack wolves attention.  'Relexia, if you want to try and escape, now would be the best time to make a jump for it, I'll help to soften the landing a bit' Logan said very curious to see what I would do. I look down to the ground, its high, I think I’m on the 3rd floor by the looks of it, I'm not sure if I can jump, I'm definitely not used to the idea of a wolf yet, 'Logan, would you jump?'  'If I really wanted to escape I would, don't be scared, you can trust me, I won't let you get hurt, Remember, if you get hurt, so do I, SO I'll always guide you, help you and protect you.' My stomach twisted out of nervousness, the same you get when you’re going on a crazy rollercoaster ride, so I got my guts together, I looked up and saw two new wolves joined the brown eyed wolf, all three of them looking at me, trying to figure out my next move.  Well that's my que. While looking at the three men, I step back, dangling my one foot in the air and push away from the balcony, I feel a rush of wind, my heart beating rapidly, it feels like all the nerves in my body moved to form a ball in my chest and I start to tense up. 'Logan' I said in a panic, while closing my eyes, waiting to hit the ground and feeling excruciating pain.