the life of the spoiled youth

it was a nice evening like heaven was making a blessing on people down there, i was wondering around town with my headphones plugged in thinking about my boring and dragged life. since my childhood i was really a spoiled child, and trust me by spoiled i really mean spoiled.My parents never allow me to act on my own to any of the outdoor activities i don't know why but this make a real lazy and disgusting personality who was hated by everyone . since kindergarden i was always mocked over my laziness and good for nothing physical abilities. As you can say it hurts me too, i don't want to stay like this orr actually i want to replace myself with anything better but me. you can say that i was depressed. i never had any friends or real friends if i say. many people came to my life trying to make me a tool as their free atm. so eventually i learned to stay alone and got mixed in my dull and black lazy pig like life. i started to not to trust anyone no matter who,friends,classmates,even my parents i was always thinking myself as a failure which can never be anything. its not like that, that i never tried i tried to be active in sports be something someone can see as a ideal but I don't know how but i got massive palpations whenever i try something hard physically. my hearts looks like it going to burst soon. gradually i came to know that its because of my heart diease which happens through a accident when i was born, but despite that i have a mind which you can reffer as average . but now i m managing my life well i don't interact with anyone more or less or like this i was thinking that my life is going well but then on that day. it was really sudden, everything turned in dark .its struck me like meteor and the next second i was unconscious and when i opened my eyes i was............