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I must confess I was scared as f*ck to even think of having something inside of me, but other kinds of thoughts were also rising... And I couldn't even believe I was worried about it in this way, like, why wouldn't he talk to me if he could? If this thing it's feeding off of me, shouldn't I be dead by now? These people hosting these beings don't end up well, and their lives end too soon, why didn't I feel something? This was all new and surreal to me, but shouldn't I feel some kind of illness or just something?!
- "How long has it been here with me?"
- "That's something I can't answer, because I do not know... But I do know that he doesn't just take anyone. The ones he take are meant to do great things, or so he chooses to. They also happen to die at a very early age..." - He tells me what I fear the most.
- "Well, I can't manage that, my girls need me. Also, I'm not Messias material, I'm just a single, ordinary mother of two."
- "Oh, but that's where you're wrong." - he wides that creepy smile again. - "There's nothing ordinary about you. Not the way you smell, walk, think, not even your voice sounds ordinary."
When I do not answer, he pushes it down on me.
- "There's a weight in being a Commodore. You are bound to meet us, one way or another; but on the upper hand, your fate depends on the choices you make. You were given a gift. To live in peace with the one inside of you, the one that kept you safe, even before you even knew it existed, since he apparently chose to let you lead the path."
I knew he was right, but I was also aware of how little I knew about these creatures. They lived amongst us for over centuries, and they'd been in contact with the human race longer than I did, there was nothing unpredictable for them that could come from us.
It was bugging me to think tha...
'Let me take over.'
A voice sounded in my head. It got me vulnerable and by surprise, but I guess something does live within me.
'I'll explain it to him,' - the voice was calm and low, almost like a whisper as to not fright me. - 'let me take over'
But how could I do it? Was it my choice?
'It has always been your choice, you are more than a recipient. Just let go for a little bit.'
That reassurance made me wonder about it's purpose to be with me, but it made me feel safe, somehow. So I did, I steadied my breath, as if I was to fall asleep, and I searched for it. I reached it.
When I open my eyes, I know I'm not the one in control. I see everything as if I'm behind myself. Even my breathing seems to come from the outside.
- "Hello, old friend."
- "At last, a friendly acquaintance." - Andromalius speaks, losing it's smile. - "You have been hidden for a long time."
- "No, not hidden, waiting. Following clues to lead me to the right path." - The words come out of my mouth yet the voice ain't mine, but I do notice the firm and certain of it now.
- "And did you find it?"
- "I did. After almost six hundred years of facing starvation and almost death, I found what I was looking for." - Inside me, pride and relief and joy were building, but why? Were these feelings mine?
- "What was it that you found, old friend?" - Andromalius wasn't trying to be nosy, his questions held interest.
- "I found a host that I can fully connect with. I can feed and not kill her, I can improve her body skills and enlarge her lifespan. We can be one. No one has to be put aside or take decisions alone anymore."
The other elephant in the room was dumbfounded and his eyes were about to jump out of place, out of pure surprise. I was curious as to why would it matter to him if I died or not, did it matter in the past? He's still alive, so he must have collected a few lives himself to survive this far. It did make me think about all he said, sharing my life with something beyond human understanding was a risk to me and I was worried about my babies. But there was a threat bigger now. Being without him and having to little girls available as hosts for these beings. I found two reasonable ones but, from what I heard from Andromalius, bad things walk these earth.
I would need to come to a conclusion soon. To trust them or not.
- "I thought that was impossible." - The wide eyed one said.
- "It is supposed to be impossible, but humans evolve, and so does the qualities of Commodores." - the voice still held that calm and serenity of before. - "I have waited for her all my life, I will do what I can to protect her will and emotional stability."
- "Why did you hide from her?" - he asked the million dollar question, I was dying to know that. - "Why didn't you manifest before? How long have you been with her?"
- "Like I said, this host it's different. She never knew I existed so, no matter how hard I tried to bond with her, I couldn't get her to hear me. That means, of course, I couldn't manifest in any form." - Andromalius's facial expression softens after this, in understanding. - "When you came up, I saw an opportunity to finally come to light, so I embraced it, but it wasn't until you told her about me that I could finally reach out to her. After twenty five years of longing."
- "Now you are one." - he said.
- "Not yet, I need to show her who I am and how to trust me." - And just like that, I felt a pull that brought me back to me, the physical me.
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