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I was still for a moment, trying to process everything I learned whilst watching to their conversation, but I wasn't sure of what to do with that information. I wanted to refuse any further connections to them, to make sure I stay alive for the next few years to see my kids grow and become the beautiful and amazing women I know they will be, but I knew that would be asking the impossible, mainly because they were also targets to these creatures. That wasn't something any mother wished for their children, to become empty containers for them to kill to their own benefit.
The choices were limited, and I was still intrigued with the one that I was unintentionally hosting since I was 2 years old. He said he'd been waiting on me, if so, why did he wait 2 more years after my birth to take his toll on me? Why didn't I carry some kind of illness, or why wasn't I dead?
27 years, for 27 years I've been carrying something that's supposed to kill me and I couldn't feel a hint of disease, never did actually. More and more, some things were connecting and I could feel my guts telling me to trust it, to embrace it and let it guide me. But could I really?
- "You're upset, why?"
- "You're asking me why am I shaken after finding out that I have a deadly presence inside me since I was 2 years old?" - I asked sarcastically. - "I am only human, these things are a bit to much to digest."
- "You are one of a kind, you know?" - Andromalius was now getting close to me and it's hand reached out for my tied hair to set it loose. - "I can't promise you a long and safe life, but I can promise you that I'll be close for your children." - then he smiled. - "It's not like you need me to protect you anyway."
I knew he meant the one I just met, was he supposed to keep me safe? I just found out about it, and it wasn't really my choice.
- "Why?" - I asked, simply, sure he would understand what I was talking about. and he did.
- "I want to see the outcome of this story. I have a feeling it will be unique." - I wanted to ask more, but I felt the cold around me and the air getting thicker, meaning he was doing his time thing, meaning he was about to leave. - "I know you have doubts, but I am not the one to enlighten you, be patient for a little more time, and be safe." - he patted my head and moved towards the living room, leaving me alone (not so alone) with my thoughts and silence.
I saw this being kill people, I saw it being merciless and cruel, yet it was showing me some kind of humanity, for some reason. Stories tell us that there's good and evil, but they never prepared us for this, something so powerful yet so capable of sharing care and protection, even if it was spiked by curiosity. Right now I had the feeling I was facing creatures that could literally choose between being harmful or not; with me they were not, and that was kind of enough considering the situation I am in.
Andromalius was one to trust, he had multiple opportunities to harm us, he did not. I know that it wasn't right to live the way he did, but it wasn't like he had much of a choice since he needs to feed on humans to survive... To be a sadistic mother f*cker was another story, and I know he was, but no one's perfect, right?
'You are right to be scared.'
The voice startled me, resulting in me falling off the chair and land on my butt with a speeding heart.
- "I'm not used to this!" - I murmured to myself.
'Of course you're not, It all started today, at least that you know of.'
- "What I know it's that it started when I was nothing but a toddler, what I don't know it's why it took so long for me to notice it."
'I could've done it right after you were born, if that's what you're curious about.'
- "Then why didn't you?"
'I needed to be sure that you would be able to survive, I couldn't risk killing you.' - Because I was silent, he kept going. 'You were easy to locate, since your inner channel was open wide when you were born, but I could feel you were not an ordinary commodore; your nerves are built differently, and you have not one but three channels.'
- "Three?! That means..."
'That means you can host more than one of my kind.'
- "But how?..."
'Because you can host more than one, you were able to develope something unusual. The hability to control our power and our hunger, feeling so intensely that we can endure only on your emotions.'
That sounded out of this world, but it made sense since I was alive and healthy, right? I still couldn't wrap my head around being able to have three of these creatures inside of me.
- "You said that we can live longer, as in you and me, right? what about if I take another one of you, will that change?" - I needed answers, I wanted to trust him.
'I don't think your well being will be endangered, no. I also know that you cannot be taken, none of us can take you by force. We can manifest if you allow us to do so.'
- "But that's odd, isn't it?"
'How come?'
- "For all the eternity, you were used to take what you wanted. Isn't it weird to be at someone's merci?"
' I think it's fair. '
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