No Strings Attached

April 15th, 2022

After all these hints from his side, then I have to decide whether to go on with this or not... because there was a thing in this love affair which was not common or usual for any relationship. I had to decide at that point whether to be a good person or a bad b***h who is crazy about him all over. I don't know what the definition is of being a good person. Maybe I am still a good person or selfish. I would say someone who can't control her feelings mixed with care, lust, and the need for touch.

Yes, I was single for a year, and in this new country, you are vulnerable to support me in any way. I tried hookups earlier, but it is not my thing, because I don't feel like walking away after s*x like I need that kind of physical emotion in my love life. So yes, I ditched my doubts and thought about f*****g up my feelings just for casual. We started off with we both needed someone to talk to and share and understand each other's things. We agreed we wouldn't get too attached and it was just a temporary presence.

He was going all down as a person, he needed morale and support to boost him enough in life. I provided him with all of that and I got someone to care about me in this new country. Fair enough deal unless our feelings got involved...