April 20th, 2022
363 Words
How strange is it when you are no longer in control of your own feelings? At the same time, I want to stay as far away from that person, but on the other hand, the moment he calls I am unable to ignore him. More than my feelings and my wants, I am there for him no matter what and I don't understand why. How strongly I want to say goodbye to him but instead be there with him all the time.
It has been more than 1 year dating him, and we still have endless talks and endless emotions. We talk about so many things, whether it is business or work or life in general. Maybe the thing they say is true - " Love never meets". We cannot be together, we both know it, but we are there for each other in any situation, how difficult it is to love someone without any conditions or without any expectations in return.
After his hints, I decided to go in for it and get destroyed. I asked him to go to Lakeshore, Toronto for a trip. But I wasn't aware that it was our first date till now. It was so cold as always in Toronto in Dec 2019 and it was raining a little as well. We went to the shore and there were seats but all were wet due to rain. He cleaned one of them and sat on a chair and I was thinking about cleaning the other one unless he asked me to sit on his lap, as the other chairs were very wet. I gave it some thought and I was so shy as he was my boss, but I just thought that I was single, so f**k it, and I sat on his lap.
We talked a little and decided to leave as it was so f*****g cold. After standing up, I hugged him and, as a matter of respect and care, I kissed him on the forehead.
He was surprised and I was so shy and dumb. Maybe he didn't like it or was I too fast or stupid to do that. But I was wrong...
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