No Strings Attached

March 31st, 2022

So I went to meet him. I wanted to meet him because that is what my heart wants. I love him and like his company. But I know I deserve better, I deserve someone better than him, not because he is not good. Oh, he is perfect, but not for me.

His company means everything to me in every sense. He is there to guide me about everything in my life, whether it is how to grow, how to self evolve and how to be productive in life because he is a businessman. With him, I know I cannot settle for less in life. I have to do something more because he inspires me a lot.

On the same hand, he is there for me for everything, talking to me, guiding me, and motivating me about my body. I like to be fit when I am with him, he makes me feel so perfect about me, about my body. He sees me as fit in as a fat girl. I see myself fighting for my life, for my goals and he is there to support me.



But after all of this, I know I have to leave him one day and we cannot be together. I know deep down that I have to be selfish one day and have to think about my life and not him to leave him. It is very devastating to love someone without wanting anything in return and he is that someone. But I have to choose myself over anyone else and I am waiting for that day to come.