Fate (GXG)

Chapter 4.2

Lexi turned to Jocari and looked at him with such repulse and disgust. He looked back at her with the same reaction I sensed their hatred towards each other. She smirked and without breaking eye contact with Jocari and finally she addressed me. 

“Domino, how dare the kitchen make a mistake and they claim to have the best food in town. They brought you something you’re clearly allergic to. I know you know that you’re allergic. Don’t you? You couldn't have forgotten something that could kill you ” Lexi said sarcastically with a big emphasis on the word kill. And of course, I know that, I knew what she was trying to do. She was trying to shame him for making a mistake after what he said to me earlier he definitely did deserve it but not from Alexis, because she wasn't going to let him live this down all night. Still looking at Jocari fiercely she said “Don’t worry about it, I’ll take care of it for you. You know someone who actually knows what she’s doing. Someone who really cares.” Lexi snapped her fingers and the waiter came. 

The waiter asked me what I wanted and I honestly had lost my appetite. I was trying to calm the energy around us from opening hells gates before our eyes. I waved him off quickly.  

Unfortunately, that didn’t help the situation; it may have made it completely worse. Jocari looked angry and embarrassed at the same time. He looked to me for saving but f**k that i was fed up with him from when he opened his mouth. Never has he ever been this disrespectful towards me. 

With no signs from me to help him and have Lexi back off for a second he finally responded cutting his eyes back to his plate. “I know what my girlfriend likes Alexis. Back off and get your own table away from our lovely evening. You’re ruining the moment here as always.” Jocari said while snarling at Lexi. 

She laughed out loud. She laughed so loud it made the other guest turn their heads as if they wanted in on the joke. She was trying to embarrass him publicly now..

“I’m sorry,” Lexi said as she leaned back into her chair. “I think I misheard you. You said you were having a moment with her? What kind of moment was that? The one where you are trying to kill her and give her an allergic reaction? That type of moment? Because when i walked in you were too gluttoned into your food to notice that she has f*****g seafood on her plate dumbass” Lexi folded her arms and chuckled loudly. 

Jocari looked at me for help some more. He wasn’t going to get any here. Because my face has turned red from anxiety and from the people staring at us. I still don’t feel bad for him but I know this damn near could end in a fight and it would become physical if I didn't stop her. 

I said to Lexi with a calm approach, “Alexis stop, it's not serious, I knew it was seafood right away...” She wasn’t listening to me, she was having too much fun agitating Jocari and enjoyed making him look like the shittiest boyfriend of the year. Since she's wanted me to break up with him for a long time now too she’s having a complete f*****g field day. 

“No Domino, don’t want you dying over your...” Alexis broke off as she was thinking of an insult. She continued “Well I would have said boyfriend but that doesn’t seem to be the case. Because no significant other male or female of four years would have a plate of poison in front of you. But I get it if you would want to eat it, I'd rather eat it than to spend another moment with this dick.” Instantly Jocari got up from his chair and so did Alexis, Both were close in height with one a little taller than the other and he had the height advantage. Though I knew Alexis could careless she hated this man. Holy f*****g s**t I had to stop this. She was going to tell him before I was and she had no idea. A part of me wanted to let that happen so I wouldn’t have to. But to truly take over my life I had to do this on my own. 

“Alexis that’s enough” I said as aggressively as I could my voice cracked a little, damnit. It caught both of their attention.I stood up with them and I looked at both of them. Jocari was more baffled than Alexis. Lexi was smirking, begging for him to put his hands on her. She finally gave up and sat back down in her chair and leaned back with acceptance over the situation. The table grew quiet, no one said a word which I didn’t think was even possible with these two. Lexi and her date's food arrived a few moments later. 

Lexi finally broke the silence that felt like it was going on for eternity. “Where are my manners? I must have lost them when I saw this sorry excuse of a man...” 

I shot her a cold look as if I was saying out loud ‘stop or I’ll choke you out.’ She cleared her throat and straightened herself up in the chair. She continued to speak “This is my date tonight-” Of course with Jocari around, Lexi wasn’t going to get away without an insult. He instantly cut Lexi off before she was going to introduce her date. 

“Wow, Lexi.,” Jocari said with so much sarcasm. “You had to pay someone to actually spend time with you. I almost feel sorry for the girl, woman, w***e whatever you call her.” He said with the sickest smirk on his face. It made me want to stand up and let them have it with each other. Not a second later after he finished his sentence... Lexi picked up her plate of food and smashed it all over his face. 

The room full of gasps and whispers made me turn red from embarrassment AGAIN. I was starting to get a headache from all the blood rushing to my face every five seconds with these two, if this continues i think i'm going to really need to go to the hospital. I felt the blood rush over my body and I felt like I was going to pass out. 

Jocari slowly whipped whatever Lexi was about to have for dinner off of his face. “You know what you b***h, that was the last f*****g straw. I don’t f*****g care who your parents are and what power they have. You’re barely a female you act like a man ill f**k you up like one. You dike slut b***h. So I’ll smack a b***h right now. In front of everybody in this DAMN RESTAURANT.” Jocari said with a bitter tone as he rose from his seat cleaning himself. 

“You know what,” Alexis replied “I’d love to see your p***y ass try. Because the only b***h in here is you.” She challenged him right back. Everyone at the table had their outfit on from the graduation. No one went to change. So we all looked fresh from a business meeting or an elegant prom. Either way, this situation was far from elegant and it was all because of me.

“So, pretty boy the real question is do you want to fight here or outside. Show me how much of a b***h you are.” Lexi stood in Jocari’s face again but this time things were getting serious and the talks of fighting were clearly on the table. I knew I had to get up and stop this but with the eyes of the whole room on us, I was already dying from the discomfort. I needed to do something. 

Jocari retaliated and attempted to push Lexi back to show his dominance. “Alright b***h, you want to be a man, well you better fight like one too.” Alexis was unfazed by the push and didn't move an inch. It didn’t even make her lose her footing. I could tell she was getting annoyed and for the sake of our friendship, she didn’t want to throw the first punch. Her hand was compacted in the tightest fist that I wouldn’t be surprised if when she finally released her grip, the inside of her hands would be bleeding. She was more than furious of the thought of him.

I stood up with every bit of courage again and began to beg Alexis to stop but I couldn’t stop the tears from falling from my eyes. And honestly, I don’t know why I’m crying because at this point I don’t care about Jocari. I just don’t want Lexi's future to be ruined because of my lack of strength to break up with this asshole. He’s in her life because of me. “Alexis, please you can walk away now. It's okay, I’ll take care of things here please just go home.” I said but I couldn’t help the shakiness in my voice. 

Alexis looked into my eyes and understood. She looked back at Jocari and gave him a fake smile. Her date, who never gave her name to us nor did Alexis, looked at me with a faint smile as if she was sorry for the ruining of our dinner. She quickly grabbed Lexi’s hand and they were gone in a matter of seconds. 

I turned to Jocari who was cleaning his very classic suit now turned napkin. 

“I’m ready to go to Jocari.”

“Well, Domino I told you she was always jealous of our relationship. Now, look at my f*****g suit. I have to get into my Camaro with this s**t all over me.” He paused for a brief second. “She f*****g got some in my hair!” 

Annoyed with his pretty boy antics I just want to break up with him and go home. I rolled my eyes bluntly. I mean is this man serious. I’m not going to lie, Alexis definitely crossed some lines of respect by throwing things on him and challenging him to a full on fight. But she was right based on the principles of the situation. I'm dangerously allergic to shellfish to the point if not caught in time I will die. Alexis when we were in camp saved my life without hesitation, if she had not noticed I would for sure be dead. And I’ve told Jocari this before only because of their relationship. Or I guess the part of bisexual Alexis saving my life and not him is all he heard and understood. 

I looked down at the table looking at the damage these two caused and he had his keys sitting on the table. I was half-ass tempted to steal his keys to take his car, and like a total f*****g badass say ‘oh yeah we’re over’. But I knew I never could get the balls to do it. No matter what though I have to break up with him tonight...

***

Twenty-minutes of driving and hearing him b***h about Alexis go by, and we finally end up in front of my house. He stops the car with the engine on and turns to look at me. I return his gaze and see his mischievous eyes with full intent to say something important to him. He’s been plotting something and unfortunately, he couldn’t say it at dinner because of Alexis. 

“Domino?” 

“Jocari, I...”

He interrupts me quickly. “Let me finish. Damn girl. You don’t need to get the first word every time. I need to say something and your friend ruined my dinner so at least you could let me talk first then you can go.” 

I held my tongue, and finally, let him say what he had been wanting to say all evening. 

He leaned back in his seat looking forward and began to speak. “You know, when I first met you.. we were freshmen and your parents had just become members at my father's church. I knew from that when I saw you that one day you will mine.” 

Oh no no no no no no. This sounds like a certain speech a person says when.. I just know he’s not about to... Jocari reaches his hand out for my thigh, I instantly scoot closer to the passenger door. I can’t handle this s**t right now tomorrow or ever. The spirit in my body cannot take this.. it just wants to run away from him and everything. I know the doors are locked so there isn't anywhere I can run or hide from him. I have to hear this speech, it's futile but I didn't want to hurt him this much. 

He clears his throat. “Domino, I think it’s time you accept my marriage proposal.”

I looked at him dumbfounded. I must be stupid because he hasn’t even f*****g asked me yet. 

“Jocari.. you didn’t ask anything yet and I don’t think.” I said as if it mattered at all we won't be together. I thought to myself ‘Do it now, it doesn't matter that he hasn’t asked Domino’.

“There’s nothing to think about, you will marry me.” he said with fury in his eyes just staring at me with such passion of anger.

“I don-..” 

“Your mother decided already, right? Planning our wedding and I already asked your mother. That’s why she agreed to let us go to dinner alone. Well until Alexis ruined everything.” 

I was in complete disbelief.. the nerve of my mother, she seriously accepted a proposal for me that I gave zero to no thought to. Then again she doesn’t listen to anything that I want either. I can’t blame her either, she's been planning my happiness to hide her loneliness that’s deep inside her heart. She truly believes I want to be with him no, not want that I have to be with him that there isn’t anyone else for me out there. Deep inside I know this isn’t love and, I knew that he wasn’t the one that there are plenty of fish in the sea. Still, I feel like my heart has been sealed to someone else deep inside, maybe that's why I couldn’t love him the way they wanted me to, even remotely develop feelings for him. I've been with him for four years now and I feel bad for letting this on or so long. I’m ending this now regardless of whatever mother agreed to. 

“Jocari!” I raised my voice at him for the first time ever in four years. He was shaken behind it just like at dinner his eyes were wide and showed a hit of fear in them. 

“I’m not f*****g marrying you. f**k you and f**k whatever plans and fantasies you and my mother have. I’m breaking up with you and honestly, I hope I never see your face again. Do not contact me just go away and never come here again. Remember you can have any girl in the world. Just not me I won’t allow it for as long as I live.” I unlocked and  opened the door without him even getting the chance to respond and slammed his car door. 

Then walked straight to my front door and opened it. I walked past my mother, my father, and his fiancé who were sitting in the living room as if they were waiting on me to come back. My mother was the first one to walk up and she was searching for a certain accessory that won't be there. As I walked past my mother as quickly as the wind blew. My father was now calling my name to grab my attention. I didn’t bother to answer him. I feel betrayed there’s no way that he didn’t know and he went along with the plan. That’s why he’s here waiting for me, him and mother do not like each other so what other reason could he still be here. I stormed to my bedroom, slammed and locked my door causing the walls to shake. Turned my phone on do not disturb. I didn’t want to hear from anyone, not even Alexis tonight. I needed to be alone or I needed a break, because I know tomorrow I’ll be anything but peaceful. I can’t lie though, tonight gave me a rush that felt so amazing... and after tonight taking control is going to be a piece of cake. Well if I make it past my mother's wrath in the morning. 

My summer break will be a breeze as long as I can survive my mother. Maybe I’ll just stay with Alexis.. I laid back on my bed looking up to the ceiling feeling the softness from it. I felt my heart pull as if I was saddened by the breakup no, it had to be something else as if something was missing there. There has always been a void there and it's been getting stronger and stronger the closer I get to leaving this place. Feels like a heartbreaking and pure emptiness that simply won’t go away. It keeps getting stronger and stronger as the days go by. Each day feels as if I’ve lost the only thing that was important to me, something that can’t be replaced. Ever since the graduation ended, I’ve been feeling this pull against my heart as if I’m going to die. I looked at my phone, I had at least twenty missed notifications most coming from the man himself. The rest were from Alexis and I could only assume she just heard about it or she was just checking in on me from the dinner we just had. Either way I still didn’t want to talk to anyone. Saying out loud I said the first thing that came to mind “At least it's over” I looked down at my chest looking towards my heart. “Whatever this feeling is, feels like this won’t be a thing that I can control now is it.” I said to my chest as if it could tell me the answer. Step one is finally complete, Grand Ridge University… I think I’m ready for you… at least I can only hope that I am.