Fate (GXG)

Chapter 4.1

Dominos POV

Are there rules when it comes to breaking up with someone? I know there’s the ‘you should just do that in person’ rule, and ’you should never do it in person.’ But how does one break up with someone face to face? Especially over dinner right after graduation. I’ve seen so many cheesy movies with this same scenario that I’m in right now and not once did I think this is how it would end. I always feel bad for the guy in the movie, not saying feel too bad then again I’m not happy about why. Even though to him the relationship is perfect and ideal. To me it doesn’t feel right and feels like I’m trapped in between a choice I didn’t really want to make. Either way I need to take over my life. And what I do know is that I do not love him nor do I feel that way in any form. For me to let this continue while we both are away for college is foolish. 

We arrived at the restaurant and were seated quickly. Looks like Jocari had this planned from the beginning since the line was long to even be seated. Why did he want me to be alone with him so badly that he made reservations and convinced my mother to break off the family dinner? A dinner that my father and my mother purposely planned for weeks. That part of convincing my mother wasn’t hard to do but I’m sure he has to have a reason for doing this, right?

Speaking of Jocari, he isn’t a bad looking guy honestly, he's a handsome guy that you would assume is a child actor or a poster child for some company . However he’s your typical pretty boy. He’s about 5”9 with an athletic build, you can definitely tell he lifts weights, has a head full of dark curly hair, and his eyes are almond-shaped and are brown. His skin is flawless like his other features. He’s light-skinned as if he had a biracial background. I can honestly see why he has a bunch of women that literally chase after him and they treat him like the god he thinks he is. With the endless line of women boosting his ego, he turns heads as soon as he walks in and knows it. Yet I still do not understand why we are dating but that won’t be for long. Well until I can get the confidence to break up with him. 

We sat down at a round table looking as if it could seat two more. And I could feel my mind vastly drifting in between the real world and the scenario of breaking up with Jocari. Do I do it now? Is it too soon? We just sat down and I feel like I’m in a different universe, still my mind is coming up with different strategies as if I was planning a war. It’s not like I can just get up and leave, drive myself home and be done with this whole charade. I didn’t drive, my father took my new baby home with my mother. If I go home now my mother will never leave me alone about it and I’ll be back outside with him. I needed to waste time, but I didn’t want to prolong the process. Unfortunately, with the position I'm in I’ll just have to bear him for at least an hour. As I’m sitting here suffering from my brain overthinking I didn’t notice that Jocari was calling out my name desperately trying to get my attention. 

“Domino, babe you okay?” His voice nearly turned me pale as if you could even tell I was pale. I honestly forgot he was here, I was too busy breaking up with him in my brain . He tried to reach out to touch me. I quickly withdrew my hand and placed it on my lap and answered him quickly as if I wasn’t deep in thought. 

“I’m fine, look I need to talk to you about something...” I said but I got interrupted by the waiter. 

“Hello my name is Cameron and I’ll be your server this evening. I’ve gotten the request that you guys ordered ahead so there aren't any menus with me. I’m here to take your drinks down. What will we be having?”

I looked at the waiter with confusion. I didn’t order anything yet nor did I even know that I would even be here. What is he talking about? The waiter looked at me back and he could tell that I was confused, and that I was completely out of the loop. I could tell the puzzled look on my face made the waiter uncomfortable. He started to get confused. 

“Um.... do I need to get you a menu ma’am. I was told that this was a special request made for this table.” He said in an awkward tone. Everything about this dinner is starting to become awkward. As I was about to speak and answer our waiter. 

“No need I’ve ordered for us. She’ll have lemonade with the entree sir.” Jocari answered very sternly. I don’t know if I should be slightly impressed or concerned because now I’m a hundred percent sure that he brought me here for a reason. Jocari isn’t the romantic type even though I’m sure his female groupees are sure he’s Prince Charming all the time. I stared into his eyes vigorously, studying them trying to get some answers for why I’m here. Because it had to be a specific reason other than gradation. ’What are you planning for tonight, Jocari?’ I thought to myself as I stared in his deep brown eyes and they stared at me with an overload of confidence. He just stared back into my eyes as if he thought I loved his dominant controlling characteristics. 

A smile crept onto his face with pride and happiness as if I should be impressed, which I’m slightly impressed. It does suck that I’m going to break up with him however I knew that I needed to. I think I mean at this point I don’t see how I can at this moment or even at the end of the night. He’s a great guy and he’s trying so why can’t I? He’s attractive and I don’t have to worry about my mother liking him nor do I have to worry about my father. He’s here and he clearly has his mind set on me. To why he does I have no clue. 

“Baby, I’ve been thinking a lot about us and I’m so happy we both will be going to school in California although you’re attending my rival school.” He said with such pleasure. He smiled revealing his perfect white teeth shining like the sun on the perfect summer. If I was a normal girl I would just melt for this man completely and foolishly in love with him too. But clearly normal I can’t be because my heart nor my mind is invested in him. Makes you feel even bad for this man and makes me look like the villain or a complete b***h. I can’t tell you how many Jocari fans tell me how lucky I am at school. He continued talking “You know many people are saying that you don’t deserve me, that isn’t true and even though I can have any woman I want. I want to be with you.” Jocari said with his devilish grin. And there it is finally the truth behind the smoke and mirrors he’s been putting on tonight. 

“Um..... thank you. I don’t really know what to say to that...” I’m in complete shock but not surprised this is who he truly is. Nonetheless, did this self righteous asshole just seriously say this s**t out loud? Now I remember completely why I don’t want to be with this cocky son of a b***h and don’t want to try to stay. 

I could feel myself fuming as if my rage was going in overdrive. f**k waiting on a right place right time. Forget explaining this to my mother on why I’m home so early. I honestly want to smack the s**t out of him. I had half thought of giving him a good slap across the face everyone adored so much. Suddenly the food is brought out and placed on the table but our waiter. 

“Is there anything I can get for you guys, maybe we want to order the dessert now?” The waiter says to both of us looking to make eye contact with one of use. Unfortunately I was still in rage and he happened to catch my eye. I shot the waiter a dirtiest look to warn him to get the f**k away from this table or this wrath I’m about to unleash will bleed in his direction too. Without hesitation, it was like he read my mind and ran away while he could. I turned my attention to Jocari who didn’t wait to eat and smothered his face with his food.

“Jocari,” I said assertively with a whisper I didn’t want everyone to hear me but he couldn’t hear me himself. He was focused on the food and only the food. I let out a sigh and leaned back into my chair. I looked at him for a little longer and felt disgusted, disappointed, and now out of rage.. How did I let myself date him my entire high school career with not a break up or anything? Why did I bend the knee when my mother set this thing that we call ’us’ up? Why did I wait so long to break up with this piece of s**t of a human being? He has options, remember so why even bring me here?

I looked down at the food he ordered ahead of time without my consent. It was shrimp scampi pasta and sadly I can’t eat it because I’m highly allergic to seafood. I’ve told Jocari this 100 times and he never fails to remember because it was his favorite food. Apparently, there are things we both don’t remember about each other. Clearly, he doesn’t remember my shellfish allergy and I must have forgotten that he’s a selfish prick. 

As I’m searching for the waiter, any waiter that will change my order. To no surprise our waiter clearly won’t be back because of the wrath that I was about to set free, all because of this asshole who I’m sitting in front of. if he kept up this ‘I’m the best and you should know this act I think I might stab him. Who am I kidding, I knew this is how Jocari was since we were acquainted back then I didn't really have any choice of whom I dated. Tonight that ends but for now I need to change my order. I was still searching for a waiter, any waiter, when my eyes caught on to a familiar woman instead of a waiter. I saw my bestfriend and her date walking in and they were coming towards my table. Flawlessly and without any effort as if she was walking on the runway. 

My body went cold and stiff from the instant shock of her even being here because I knew what would unfold. Alexis couldn’t have known about my plan of breaking up with Jocari. I only decided while during graduation that this was what I wanted no need to do inorder to move forward. I never mentioned it to her but she definitely knew something was up during the ceremony. She had thought I should rid myself of this arrangement years ago when it first started against my will. She was walking straight to me with a look that she knew how terrified and stunned I was and didn’t care; she wanted to make Jocaris’ life especially this night much harder than it was about to become. It felt that she and the entire room was moving in slow motion and the room was only focused on her. As if it was movie scene where the characters are about to f**k s**t up. With the look she was giving definitely she did come to f**k s**t up intentionally with no regrets. 

“Oh my god. Hey guys!” Lexi said as convincingly as she could as if she had no idea we were here and this was a total coincidence. Alexis knew that I knew full well what she was doing of course she couldn't get anything past me. Since Lexi walked in and caught my attention, I’ve had my eyes glued on Lexi that I didn’t get a chance to see Jocari’s reaction to all of this. Nonetheless, I could guess he was fuming at the fact she is not only here but she’s sitting at our table and I was about to hear his reaction soon. 

Alexis thanked the waiter for the extra chairs for the table and ordered quickly for her and her date. She looked at me and smiled with her award winning smile for best friend who is going to make breaking up with your boyfriend much harder than it should be award. Then suddenly both of our eyes looked down at my plate and that smile she had quickly disappeared. f**k, the hell gates are about to open and Alexis had the keys. After seeing her face turn from happy to cold it was about to spark their petty feud that they've always had and couldn't seem to let go of. Alexis is my best friend and has been there for me whenever I needed her. It’s safe to say that she cares a lot about me and will protect me. If you show her that you don’t care about me and you lie and say you do care about me, she'll make your life with me a living hell..