Infatuated With Denial (Blue Claw Beta Series Book 1)

Chapter 6

Jax’s Pov

I cannot believe she left me. As I felt her cross the border I thought I was losing my mind. Echo was howling in my mind and wanted me to go after her. I ran to my motorbike, ignoring the shouts of her father behind me. I jumped on my bike and sped off after Adyson. Once I passed the pack border I managed to get my phone out of my pocket. I dialed her number but she didn’t answer so I tried again. This time she answered and her voice was quiet and sad. I begged her to come back and talk to me, I would do anything for her. I wanted to understand why she was leaving. She finally admitted that she did not want to lose me and thought I was going to be someone else’s mate.

‘Adyson will be our mate, I can feel it’

My heart was breaking that she even thought I wouldn’t be her mate. I was so confident that we were destined for each other that I didn’t stop to think about her thoughts. She is clearly scared that I am not her mate and will forgot about her. She is so ridiculous if she thinks I will ever want anyone else. I push my accelerator harder and follow her scent. Within fifteen minutes I spot her in the distance and pull my bike over behind her. As soon as my bike stops I jump off and rush to grab her into my arms. She runs to meet me half way and jumps into my embrace. I breath a sigh of relief as she hits my body and I bury my head into her neck. She sobs into my neck as she holds onto me tight with her arms and legs.

“I will never let you go Ady, I love you.” I breath into her neck and feel her sobs easing. After a few more minutes she pulls back from my shoulder and tries to get down. My grip on her only tightens though as I walk back over to my bike. I set her down on her feet and hand her my helmet.

I sit on my bike whilst still holding her hand, afraid to let her go. I then pull her to me and she climbs on my bike but straddling my lap. I pull her as close as possible and then start my bike, she wraps her arms around my torso and buries her face in my chest as I drive. I was going to head back to the pack but I decided that we need to talk so I head to a nearby motel. Once we arrive I park and turn off the bike, Ady looks around and notices we aren’t at the pack.

“Where are we?” She questions as she looks up at me.

I smile and unclasp the helmet before taking it off her head.

“I wanted to talk to you, in private.” I place a small kiss on her forehead and she smiles at me. Once sorting a room we head inside and I shut the door and lock it. I pull my phone out and send my father a message explaining what has happened and that myself and Adyson will be back tomorrow. He will let Adyson’s father know that she is with me and safe. I then order some take away food to be delivered to the room.

“You can use the bathroom if you want to freshen up whilst we wait for the food,” I tell Ady and gesture to the bathroom. She pulls out some clothes from her bag and heads into the bathroom. I set the food down on the bedside table and Ady comes out the bathroom in pj shorts and a T-shirt. She is trying to kill me, I need to concentrate for this conversation and she is making it hard.

‘Control yourself i***t, you need to fix this’

‘I am trying Echo’

We sit and eat the food with the television on low for background noise. There is a comfortable silence but we both know what conversation is coming.

Once we’re finished I clean all the food away and sit back on the bed next to her.

“When I was six years old, I was in the classroom and remember a boy named Mike teasing me for being the Alphas son. He said I was dumb but all the teachers had to like me because of my father. I remember feeling like such an outsider, like I didn’t belong. Before I could respond I saw you step past me and smash your palm into his nose.” I giggled at the memory. “You told him that the only dumb one was him for being beat by a girl.”

She smiles at me, “I hated that guy.”

I take her hand in mine. “I knew in that moment that one day I would make you mine. I have always loved you Adyson.”

She sighs and squeezes my hand, “kids were teased all the time but you were my best friend. I only defended you because I felt this overwhelming dread that you were upset.”

Her confession knocks the breath out my lungs. I grab her hands and pull her onto my lap, she straddles me naturally.

“I can’t believe that all this time you have felt the same way. Why did you not tell me?” I ask her whilst caressing her face. She is looking down and twiddling her hands.

‘I wish our birthday would hurry up so we can confirm she is our mate’ Echo sighs.

“I had all of these intense feelings and I suddenly panicked and thought that if I told you and you didn’t feel the same way, I would lose you. How could I possibly think you felt the same. You are my best friend Jax, I wanted to love you as a friend so desperately. I was terrified that if you knew how I felt, you would be disgusted by me. I had this nightmare of you and your mate laughing in my face.” A tear slips down her cheek and I catch it with my thumb.

I tilt her head up to look me in the eyes. “Never. I love you. I want you. Always did.”

She smashes her lips to mine and the tingles shoot across my mouth. She moans into my mouth as our tongues wrestle and my d**k is immediately hard. She runs her one hand through my hair whilst the other slides down my chest. She puts her hands on my chest and pulls back from the kiss panting.

“Why didn’t you say anything?” She asks me whilst catching her breath.

“I wanted you to realise it yourself when I turn eighteen next week. You may not be eighteen yet but you will feel the pull to me next week.” I explain whilst holding her tightly.

She seems to think for a minute before leaning forward and whispering against my lips. “Please don’t leave me.” I collide my lips with hers once again and flip us so she is under me on the bed. My hand travels up the inside of her thigh and she moans into my mouth.

After making out for a few more minutes I finally pull away and roll onto my side before pulling her to me. We fall into a peaceful slumber in each other’s arms.

-

The next morning I wake up with a huge smile on my face until I feel the bed next to me. Adyson is not there, I sit up in panic just as the bathroom door opens. Ady walks out with a towel wrapped around her. Her beautiful legs and arms on display, glistening with the shower water. She notices that I am staring at her and clears her throat.

“Sorry, I forgot to take my clothes inside the bathroom,” she mumbles.

“Come here,” I ask and she obliges.

I move to the edge of the bed and she stands between my legs. I put my head on her stomach and wrap my arms around her. She starts to run her fingers through my hair and I think I am in heaven. I slowly move my one hand to her leg and run it up the back, i hear her breath hitch. I run my hand under the towel and over her perky a*s. I lightly squeeze and a moan leaves her mouth. I slowly use my other hand to unwrap the towel and let it drop to her feet. She is stood in front of me n***d now and she is so beautiful. I look up at her face and she is smiling nervously. I lean forward and plant small kisses across her stomach.

“You are so beautiful Adyson,” I tell her in between kisses.

She pushes on my shoulder to lean back and then climbs onto my lap. She runs her hand down my chest and then pulls my top over my head. Then she leans forward and kisses from my neck down to my chest. My eyes roll back in my head. She works her lips back up to my neck and then sucks my skin leaving behind her marks. I like this idea so I do the same to her neck. I flip her over so she is lying flat on the bed and I am hovering over her. She runs her hand over my abs and then runs one finger under my waistband. She then uses both hands to push my shorts down.

My hands are roaming all over her body.

“I want you,” she states. “Now.”

I push her hair back away from her face.

“Are you sure baby?” I ask her with concern. I want nothing more than to do this but I need her to be sure.

“Yes, I love you Jax.” She tells me and I can’t hold back any longer.

“I love you Adyson,” I manage to breath.