Infatuated With Denial (Blue Claw Beta Series Book 1)

Chapter 3

Adyson Pov

I totally wrapped my Uncle Derek around my finger, he would have shouted at anyone else. I actually really like Amber too. It takes a strong person to stand up in front of strangers and apologize for your mate. I want to ask her about the pack she came from, maybe I could visit there one day.

‘We are the future beta.’

‘Give it a rest Spartan, please.’

Once we leave the office I decide to jump on Jax’s back as I know he will head to his room. This was usual for us and he throws me on the bed. I don’t expect him to pin me down and tickle me though. I could not breathe and started begging him to stop.

He finally stops tickling me but does not move. I don’t know why but having him this close too my face in a serious manner is suffocating me. I can not help but stare into his eyes, I am lost in the mocha brown.

After a few seconds, he inches forward as if calculating my reaction. I should push him away, and break out of the moment. But I can’t, my body will not move. I have dreamt of this moment so many times. I close the gap between our lips, they slowly brush against each other as I suck in a shaky breath.

Then someone knocks on the door. It pulls us both back to reality. Jax jumps up and stands looking frustrated before he heads to the door.

I quickly sit up and grab a magazine from his beside table to flick through. I don’t know who is at the door as I can’t concentrate on anything but my heavy breathing. Jax goes into the bathroom and I hear the water running.

Shit! I think I might be having a panic attack.

My palms are sweating and I can hear the blood pumping in my ears. How could I let this happen? Sure Jax is attractive and we have an amazing bond, but I can not like him. I dated other guys the last couple of years to ensure I don’t catch feelings for Jax. I can’t lose Jax, I know that if I developed feelings and he didn’t reciprocate them or found his mate, I would be destroyed. I won’t lose my best friend to silly desires.

I manage to calm my breathing and wipe my hands down my legs a couple of times.

Just as I finally feel back to normal and shake my head ready to face him the bathroom door opens. Jax walks out with just a towel wrapped around his waist, water dripping down his chest. The room suddenly feels hot and I freeze in my spot on his bed. I stare at him and he stares back at me with intensity.

‘Jump his bones’ Spartan chants in my head. She is a real horn dog for Jax. All. The. Time.

‘Spartan please settle down. You know why we can’t go there.’ I try to reason with her and she pouts but doesn’t retreat this time. She is lingering in my mind, waiting for his next move.

After what feels like forever, he breaks his gaze and walks into his closet to get dressed. He comes back out wearing his gym shorts and his top in his hands.

“Would you mind putting some cream on my back before training?” Jax asks me and sits on the bed with his arm out for me. He hands me the cream.

“Sure.” I reply, trying to sound normal.

I apply a small amount of the cream and then rub it in. Every nerve ending in my hand is alight with tingles. Every move that I make now is going to be awkward and weird. I need to make sure our friendship gets back to normal. I finish rubbing in the cream and he doesn’t move. I lean my forehead against his shoulder and take a breath.

“Can we please just forget the awkwardness Jax? We were both just caught up in the moment earlier.” I want to get over this weird hurdle.

“Of course Ady, friends forever!” He exclaims and holds out his pinky finger for me. I laugh before wrapping my pinky around his.

“Good. As I don’t want there to be any excuses when I kick your a*s in training again.” I taunt and stand up with a chuckle. He puts his top on before letting me jump on his back to go downstairs. He carries me all the way out to the training field and Bethany glares at me as we approach.

“She can’t help but throw herself at him all the time.” Bethany complains to her Barbie clan. “She is just so shameless.”

I jump down from Jax’s back and stand next to him when he throws his arm around my shoulders like usual.

I shoot Bethany a little wink and a smirk which she did not appreciate.

“I thought we were meeting in the living area?” Lila asks as she approaches us. I look at her confused.

“What?” I ask her with a raised eyebrow. I have no idea what she talking about.

‘Me either’ Spartan adds.

“Sorry Lila, I forget.” Jax tells her flatly.

It must have been Lila who came to his room earlier. Why did he not let her in though. Strange.

I look up at him and he just smiles sheepishly before focusing his attention on the head warrior approaching the stage.

“Everyone find a partner.” the head warrior shouts.

I have partnered with Jax every day since we started training at age eight. However, I want the awkwardness to go away so I decide to change it up today.

“Hey Lila, want to partner up today?” I ask her and she smiles brightly at me nodding.

“But we always partner up?” Jax asks from beside me. He still has his arm wrapped around my shoulders. I turn to him with a smile.

“Exactly, we should change it up and partner with other people for a while. Don’t you think?” I raise my eyebrow at him and he does not look like he agrees.

“I guess.” he shrugs and drops his arm from my shoulders.

“I don’t think it’s a bad idea to partner up with someone different guys but I don’t want you with Lila.” the head warrior Matt tells us. “Lila you can partner with your usual. Jax go partner with Eli now he is back.”

I just start to smirk at the fact Jax was sparing with Eli until Matt speaks again. “And Adyson you can partner with Bethany.”

“What!” Myself and Bethany shout and eye dagger at each other.

“I am not training with Malibu Barbie!” I shout at Matt and he growls at me but it has no affect, I’m higher in rank.

“You can always take it up with the beta Adyson.” Matt tells me and shrugs. I roll my eyes at him before walking over to a mat.

“Come on then Barbie, I promise not to break your nails.” I mock sarcastically.

“Wow, thanks. At least you can throw yourself at someone other than Jax now.” She says before blowing him a kiss.

I suppress a growl at her, I would rip her head off if I lost control.

“Oh, come on, we both know he’s my best friend. Although I'm sure you are the one throwing yourself at him all the time.” I start to circle her. “Want me to check that none of your straps are coming undone like earlier?”

I then look over to Jax. “Hey Jax, you want to come and check that Bethany’s panties aren’t in a twist.” I mock Bethany, and Jax chuckled along.

“I would rather get a look at your panties.” he teases back and winks at me.

Oh lord, usually comments like that from him are ignored by me. Not today, the butterflies are flooding my stomach at that.

I turn back to a scowling Bethany and laugh to myself.

The training was fun today. Being the beta’s daughter means that I am stronger than most she wolves. Which means that I was able to kick Bethany’s butt and it was hilarious. As we were finishing up I spotted a groaning Eli on the floor.

“He deserved a good a*s kicking, it will teach him a lesson.” Amber says as she walks over to me.

“Are you training too?” I ask her and look at her clothes, she is wearing leggings and a top.

“Not officially until tomorrow but I wanted to come and see the special surprise that the Alpha told Eli about,” she chuckles as she watches him struggle to get up.

“I find it amusing that Eli is getting taught a lesson but you are okay with Eli right?” I was feeling a little guilty that his mate was giving him a hard time.

“We’re fine honestly, I told him that I forgive him but that he’ll have to face his Alphas punishment.” She shrugs before smirking at me. I can’t help but smirk too and chuckle.

“Well, I think your pathetic for pining after someone else’s mate.” Bethany spits as she finally manages to get up off the floor.

“Wow! I didn’t know Barbie dolls could talk.” Amber exclaims with fake shock.

Eli walks over to Amber and she checks he is okay. As I watch them and smile, I realise they are a good couple.

I am suddenly thrown over someone’s shoulder and squeal out. I realise it is Jax and he starts twirling me around whilst a couple of the guys laugh.

“Hey Jax, are you gonna tap that a*s anytime soon?” One of our fellow trainees ask, it was Mason. He was in our year at school, but no one special.

“If you don’t want her then I would sure like to take her for a ride.” another boy named Max adds.

“I’ve already had a taste.” Another one named Josh joins in and plenty more were laughing.

Jax set me down on my feet and looks at me with a frown. He then glares at all the lads who just opened their mouths to even dare laugh.

“I dare you all to say more,” he seethes through his teeth. His voice holds a warning and no one is crazy enough to upset the future alpha so they all look down at the ground.

“I don’t know why you defend her Jax, she is clearly a slut.” Bethany bravely speaks from behind us.

Jax instantly turns his glare on her and she wisely lowers her head.

“Apologise!” Jax roars to Bethany. “Now.” He commands sternly.

“I’m sorry.” she stutters out and then scurries away with her clan.

Lila comes to my side and pulls me away from the crowd and towards her house.

Once in the safety of her bedroom, she turned to me with a huge grin.

“The party decorations arrived this morning.” she practically squeals as she pulls out a big box. We start to go through the box ready for Jax’s birthday party.