The girl in black

I woke up to the sound of screaming and the sheets being pulled off my body. I smiled and looked at my two siblings. I looked over at my alarm clock and I groan “ why are you up at 5 in the morning you guys don't get up tell 6 for school” they shrugged and said in unison “I'm hungry”. I looked at them and then my torn-up mattress. I brought the twin better mattresses while I took them they should have a bad back since they are too young. I looked over at them while they stared at me. I waved them over and they climbed on my bed into my lap “you know I love you right” they nodded their heads and smiled “don't ever forget that okay” I say hugging them and they hugged me back. I told them to go to the kitchen while I get dressed. I wore my black long jacket and jeans. I only have two pairs of clothes because I spend more on the kid's clothes. I got down to the kitchen and saw them sitting in one of the chairs. I looked through the cabinet and mumbled “ I should go to the store later. I could get some more cereal maybe some mac and cheese for lunch and dinner same chicken. I can't spend that much I only got paid five hundred. I already paid the bill so I'm down to a hundred dollars tsk that not going it work”. I don't get food stamps because my unknown parent has the cards like where do they even go they are gone for half a year and came back for one day to see if we are still alive. At 5:30 the kids are dressed and feed and wanted to go to school early so I walked them to school it only takes 8 min on their feet so it wasn't that draining. They ran up to the front door and waved at me telling me bye. I walked back so I could get my work uniform and I just drank water and eat a piece of bread not wanting to waste any food that I could simply let the kids eat since they are more little them. I work day and night and when I don't work it's for lunch so I could get the kids from school and to my neighbor's house. They don't mind since they are in their elderly years and they don't get to school with their grandchildren that much. I felt guilty not having to spend any time with the kids but they said they understand so much but I feel like I'm failing them. I left to go to the direction to work and that is just 20 mins on the walk so it's fine since I walk all day anyways. I saw the high school now and saw the kids my age talking to their friends and walking inside. I always wanted to have friends and get yelled at by teachers. When the kids turned one and my parent took me out of school made me work and watch the kids so they could do whatever that they do. When I kept getting older I knew every direction in this city my parent wouldn't show up anymore. I learned that they wouldn't take care of us anymore. I saw some of the kids look at me like I was a strange old lady. I mean I always have my ragged hoody on and never showed my face around here. I can't wear my hoody when I'm at school and people still wouldn't even recognize me. I heard a group of girls talking about how to never take an apple from me say something about me as the old lady from snow white. Why couldn't they say I looked like little red riding hood instead of like I'm not even old. I arrived at work just to start my day with people yelling about not saving enough money for gaming gift cards for their kids