Untreated desires

"You can lean your head on my shoulder", Hana did , closing her eyes like they are not in an award show and all camera focusing on them. The music was loud, the ground was shaking with the dancers movement still Hana was so close to be heard by Doremi so she asked as if she leaning her head on Doremi shoulder in a bus while nobody around like a normal conversation, but because Hana is tired she used short words which is a habit when tired, with time Doremi got used to :"so when it started?" "What? " "Your insomnia." Doremi was stunned like here in such an occasion, so she finally said :" can't we talk at home ?!" "Do I return home ?" "No ." "So, about what home you talk?!" .....Doremi didn't speak for awhile so Hana said: "We actually affectionate with each other because we train together and relay on each other and as a group we live with each other and like the little kids who try to understand their parents or their sibling they still choose love first which is human nature so I want to know more about you , so when it started ?" "When I was a trainee . Still when you joined the group I could sleep the same as before. I, myself sleeps five or less hours a week while you sleep from five to seven in normal days and four on busy days less than that and you turn into a drunkard state. When you return home I stop scrolling on my phone and put it out then you always tell me to come over and sleep in your bed I thought you know about my insomnia and tried to help but you didn't, it was totally the affectionate you. So we can say that you are my sleeping bills ." Doremi said with no obvious expressions. A faint smile on Hana face : "So why don't you come to my studio when I am not home ?. Since I am your sleeping bill. " "I actually tried, I went to your studio and stand there for 30min then I left. you couldn't see since the door has black curtain , I made it often though." Doremi said. Hana thought about the fact that someone would stare at her door for 30 minute but choose to leave what type of feelings they had standing there, she recalled how she, herself did that once standing in front of her parent's room with her pillow in her arms instead of a doll since she didn't have one, with teary eyes wondering at the dark hall she stood on from time to time, checking on ghosts. At that age who didn't fear ghosts! she wanted to go in and call her mama out to sleep with her on her room till she fall asleep, but she stopped knowing from the sound of the creaks that if she knocked the door now her mama would tell her to leave now, or her papa would shout. So she choose silence but silence was painful. The little light from the kitchen made the ghosts in her mind more furious, they enjoyed her pain, helplessness and pitiful being.Till now she fears ghosts but she sometimes is so depressed to care how badly the ghosts can harm her. Generally the ghosts were kinder than others at least at some point they felt like watching over her at time when nobody paid attention. Her mood switched, she sensed her anger and her sudden sadness, she has to control her emotions here, it is not home and people don't enjoy crying sences , to end the undesired flashbacks she said "Next time instead of irritating me can you just knock , I sense energy easily, so I felt like being watched" . the slightly frowned Hana said. Doremi tried to look the head on her shoulder, but couldn't see anything, only hair, and forehead. so she turned her head again to the front and said hesitatingly : "I didn't know whether that would be a good thing... I mean a thing I can do or not, but I do not understand how come you so close to the rest of the girls than me?!" "I worked with them ." "So short answer." "But illustrative short answer it makes you guess right" . Hana smirked .then she continued like she recalled something: "also you kind shy around me so I dare not to cross lines. " Doremi little blush could be senced even if Hana didn't look "I hate you" Doremi said "what?" Hanabi changed her posture facing her with her whole body looking directly in Doremi's face with astonishment "everytime you open your mouth, it sound like lovetalk". Doremi said "ah" Hanabi laughed putting her both hands on Doremi shoulders, leaning with her head over her chest "you scared me I thought you are serious " there was a sudden scream in the audience which freaked Hanabi out making her tremble slightly but leaning even more closer to Doremi who wrapped her waist and rubbed her back with her thump.