The demon at my door

My legs could hardly move...my heart was heavy... I could hardly hear any sound of anything, I have never been this tired or exhausted but I kept moving holding back my tears just to get home and let it all out... could pity my pillow must times but what can I say? it's my comfort my friend which I trust. let me take you back to how it all started. I was nine when my Aunty came to the village to take me to the city, I wouldn't say that was my first time I hardly was with my parents but this time it was different. I came back from school this faithful day I remember the red Camry packed and curiosity hit in not for too long as I sighted my Aunt with Papa in the visitors hut outside, walked up to her and greeted. All I remember is my mother packing my things and next i found myself in a very beautiful house in the city with my beautiful room all for myself...it felt amazing I must three square meal different kinds that I find mostly at Christmas. I was enrolled into primary 3 one of the things my Aunt promise my father was school...to be honest my father never wanted me out I was his first daughter at old age....my mother was His third and life with him was peaceful...l liked the pampering the plenty meat I get😋 the shout when am being punished the beautiful names he called me as walked with pride. I was nine and childish, not long after I left I heard my father got ill and was in the city with my only step brother and luckily it was close to my school so during break I could run there gist with Papa peel oranges for him and run back after break. This faithful break I run to the house where Papa was and the atmosphere was different and I knew he was gone, my first heart break! it hurt so bad I wanted it to stop but it didn't so I cried till I ran out of tears... after his burial life return to normal.. school, house chores, errands, scolding and beating...I innocently saw it as training as much as it was difficult to accept. I remember my mother telling me on several occasions when I complained that she's the only hope you have for now so take it and aim for the reward of schooling so I took it till after secondary school.