Loving the Obsession

14

"Well then, mind your own monkey business with s**t of a man." I said back and wipe my mouth with napkin before standing up. And walk out.

I go to the garage and roared my baby to life.

Agad kong minaniho ang sasakyan at bumusena para pagbuksan ako ng gate. Di nagtagal ay bumukas din ito at agad kong pinasibad ang sasakyan ko.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta basta nagmaneho lang ako.

Hindi ko namalayan ay napadpad ako sa isang lugar. Maliblib na lugar at may isang bar akong nakita.

May bar sa ganito ka tagong lugar?

Interesting.

Is all I said and park my car.

Agad kong nilock iyon at pumasok na sa loob. Magulong mga tao ang nakita ko sa loob. At mukhang ako lang ang babaeng napadpad dito.

Iba't ibang kulay ang pumailinlang sa lugar kasabay ng mga usok ng sigarilyo, maingay na tugtog ng musika, at mga lasing na nakaw gulo.

Pero talagang parang ako lang ang babaeng napadpad dito.

Agad akong nag tungo sa bar counter at umupo sa stool. Nilapitan naman ako ng bartender at binati.

"Good evening, beautiful." he greeted playfully at me.

Tumango lang ako sa bati niya. I'm not in the mood to be nice. "Three shots of tequila." I said.

Tumango lang naman siya at agad na inasikaso ang order ko. Seconds later ay nailapag na ang tequila shots sa harapan. Agaran ko itong nilagok at umorder ng panibago pa. Hanggang sa nag tuloy tuloy iyon.

I don't know how long I've been here and how many shots of tequila i drink because my head is a bit throbbing. And I'm dizzy. I felt like my world is unstable.

I felt a hand in my waist and a man sit down to the stool beside me.

"Hey gorgeous." he said.

"Get your hands off me before I cut them." I said in a warning tone.

But he grin instead. "Feisty. I like that."

"And I don't like bastards." But he never removed his hand from my waist.

I really don't like repeating myself.

Humarap ako sa kaniya at hinawakan ko ang braso and painfully press my thumb to his arms muscle. Earning a groaned from him and he suddenly grip my hair.

Urg! Ayaw mo talaga akong bitawan ah.

I grab his collar and smack his head in the counter and give his vital parts a hard punch.

Hinablot ko ang dagger na ginawa kong pantali at sinugatan ang mukha niya.

Bumalik ako sa pwesto at inayos ulit ang buhok ko na parang walang nangyari.

Pero hindi nagtagal ay may lumapit saking grupo ng mga kalalakihan. Agad kong kinuha ang dalawang baril ko sa likuran at tinutok sa kanila.

"One more step, and all of you will die." I said in a cold voice.

I don't want to consume too much energy because I'm a bit drunk. I can't fight with the same force. I'm somehow weak in my state.

My mind that filled with a lot of questions, what if's but I never get the answer, and thoughts of regret.

And my body being weak because I feel dizzy. And I feel pain in my heart everytime I think of him finding out to what I did to his lover and his supposed to be heir.

In short, Im fragile at this moment.

They looked behind me and stop on their tracks. Because the man behind me is peacefully resting in silence. Paralyzed.

I lowered my gun when they didn't move even an inch.

Not a minute after Kratos step in and the bunch of men in my front give way for their boss.

Wow. Akala ko magiging tahimik ang gabi ko.

I return my attention to the bartender and order another three shots of tequila.

Agad naman itong tumango and place another shots in my front. Agad ko itong nilagok at nung pang huling shot ko na sana at may pumigil sa kamay ko.

Tinignan ko ang may ari noon na mariing nakatitig sakin.

"Dont. Touch. Me. " I said in a cold tone.

"You already drink too much. That's enough." He said.

I scoffed. "And who are you to boss me?"

"Kratos Muller."

"Yeah. And?"

"The owner of this bar."

"Well, news flash. I. Don't. Care. So fvck off!" I said and drink my last shot and order another shot. The bartender debated whether to give me another shot or not. I looked him straight to his eye.

Mas nanaig ako kaya binigyan niya ako ng panibagong shot ng tequila.

"Let's go." Sabi ng lalaking nasa tabi ko.

"Umuwi ka mag isa."

"Athena, you're drunk. Let's go."

And that's when I snapped. "Ano ba?! Can't you understand? Kung gusto mong umuwi, umuwi ka mag isa. Pakielam mo sakin at sino ka ba?! You're just a man whom I gave a wonderful blowjob. Nothing more and nothing less. Now, fvck off. I don't need you here."

Nakita ko pang nagtagis ang panga niya tanda ng matinding pagtitimpi. Wala naman akong paki dun.

Pare-pareho lang naman silang hindi marunong makiramdam.

Iyong parang ginawa at ginagawa mo na lahat pero kulang pa din. Hindi ka pa din sapat.

Aminado naman akong malaki yung kasalanang ginawa ko pero tratuhin akong parang wala pa din pagkatapos ng lahat ginawa ko. Ayon wala pading improvement.

Mag iisang buwan na akong naghihintay eh pero hanggang ngayon naghihintay pa din ako. Ilang taon na akong naghihintay, napapagod na ako.

Karma ko na ba 'to? Dahil sa ginawa ko? Ginawa ko lang naman yun dahil sa labis na kagustuhan ko sa kaniya.

I don't care what kind of person he is. Dahil wala naman akong magagawa kung iyon ang nais ng puso ko. I know I sound so cheesy right now. Such a clichè.

Akala ko titigil na siya pero hindi pa naman umaabot labi ko sa shot glass ay bigla na lang ako nitong hinablot at hinila palabas.

Dali dali kong hinablot ang mga baril sa counter at nagpatianod sa pag hila niya sakin palabas.

At umiikot na talaga ang paningin ko.