The fight against all odds

chapter 18~ pure wanting

after we made our way to the enormous dining room, my heart was still beating a mile a minute. I decided to ask him to stay with me again because I just couldn't stomach the thought of him staying somewhere else. especially after that weird voice told me what Layla had planned.

we both made our plates and went to sit with the others. I noticed Kyle seemed to be in a worse mood than he was this afternoon. I don't know what's gotten into him, but it made me and my wolf uneasy. Ash was letting out deep growls in the back of my mind. she didn't trust Kyle. something about him was off..

we made our way to the head of the table and sat down. Alex immediately started talking to Liam about the extra training and drills they were planning on doing. they both agreed on putting a couple more people on border patrols as well. I decided to tune them out and strike up a conversation with Jessica.

"So what do you want to do tomorrow while the boys are out?"

she seemed to think about it for a moment before smiling.

"Do you want to go back to the mall again. there were a few more things I wanted to get before Layla intruded on us."

"Yeah, that sounds good. I have to go to the bookstore anyway. the lady got back to me about that job offer, and I'm super excited about it. I can't wait to read all the books there."

Jessica scrunched her nose up after I said that.

"You sure are a weird one. most she-wolves would be out trying on dresses and getting their hair done, but you wanna be cooped up in a bookstore. that sounds really boring."

I let out a small giggle. I mean, she's right, but I'm not other girls.

"Good thing I'm not like everyone else. I like being different. I've always been the voice for people who didn't 'fit in'."

"Well, when you put it that way, it sounds nice. the underdogs need a voice to speak for them. Layla was just a b***h to them because of it."

"That doesn't surprise me. I've been here for only a few days, and she's already starting stuff with me. I don't mind, though she'll eventually get over it."

we stopped talking after that and finished our meal. I noticed Kyle getting more frustrated as time went on. I really don't know what his problem is, but it's making me uncomfortable.

"Hey kyle... is everything alright?.."

he looked up at me, and just for a moment, I saw pure hate and malice in his eyes before he covered it up and smiled. it was just a second, but that second was long enough to know something fishy was going on with him.

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm just tired and frustrated with all the new changes. running the night shift patrol by myself has been rough."

"Oh, I'm sorry. would you like any help at all."

I mentally slapped myself for asking that. I don't know why I asked in the first place because I haven't even started training.

"it's okay. maybe when you are more comfortable and are joined with the pack, you could help out. it'd be nice having another higher up there with me."

"That sounds nice. I'll talk to alex about it sometime."

the conversation dropped there and we finished our meals.

no way in h**l was I asking Alex to do the night shift with him. maybe we could take turns so he could have a break, but I wasn't doing it with him. if he gives me an uncomfortable feeling in a room full of people, then what would happen if we were ever alone.

after we were all done eating, we slowly made our way to our separate houses. Jessica promised she would be over bright and early so we could spend quality girl time together.

soon it was just Alex and I walking back to my little cabin. I kept bumping into him because for the life of me, I couldn't walk straight.

it was another beautiful night out. the moon was high in the sky, and I could hear the frogs and bugs churping away. it felt so amazing up here, and I loved it.

I could see my cabin coming up quick and felt nervous. it was now or never, and I was so nervous to ask him, but I wanted him there with me at all times. I just wanted to be with him all the time.

"Hey Alex, I uh have a question.."

he looked down at me with one eyebrow raised like he was telling me to go on. I scratched the back of my neck and looked at everything but him.

"Would you uh like to stay at my place tonight..?"

when he didn't answer, I looked up at him. he had a s**t eating grin plastered on his face. his eyes lit up with joy that I haven't seen yet.

"I would love to stay at your place tonight. you don't have to be shy about asking. if you didn't ask, I was probably gonna sleep on your porch I wolf form."

it was his turn to be shy. he looked away from me with a slight flush to his face. oh my god, is he blushing.

"Is the big bad alpha blushing? awe, that's so cute. "

"Shut up."

"awee, look at you. Who knew -"

before I could finish my sentence, Alex lifted me up and spun me around. I let out a shreik, not expecting the sudden turn, but soon found myself giggling.

I clung to his arms like my life depended on it and just laughed. soon, he was laughing with me as he spun us around. it felt so freeing just being here with him, something I haven't felt in a long time, and I loved it.

after a few more spins, he sat me down. we were both still laughing at ourselves and again wanting.. no needing him overwhelmed me. I realized that I was utterly falling for this man, and there wasn't anything I could do about it, and for once, I was okay with not being in control.

Alex bent down and rested his forehead against mine. I felt this overwhelming feeling of need wash over me but pushed it down. for a while, we didn't do anything but stare at each other. his eyes held so many emotions that it made me a bit dizzy trying to dispatcher them.

"octavia, you have no idea how long I've been waiting for you. you have no idea how happy I am now that you are here. I'll always be where you want me to be. Don't ever be scared of asking me of something. for everything that I am, it's all yours, everything that you want I will get for you, anything you need. I will always be here to give it to you.. your my other half, and I'll do anything in my power to show you how much I love you and will always love you.."

my eyes welled up with tears. this man has no idea what he's doing to me. before I could second guess myself, I leaned forward and kissed him, and it felt like everything I've ever dreamed of.