Chapter – 157
Being loved. All I've seen is how suffocating love can get. How it just makes me hate myself for being me and not a better me. He is not any different.
It’s funny how something happens that devastates you so deeply and your feelings for that person evaporate like smoke rings. I can do it too.
Love is supposed to be sparkling and exciting, like stars in the night sky, always shining. I don’t even know what love is anymore. All my thoughts and definitions have fainted to the dust. All I've thought about how being in love would be, I might, just maybe, feel any less pained, but it all feels like a bullshit joke. It all painted the expectation. How things should be, how they shouldn't be. But at least Emmi is sorting things out for himself. I'm happy for him. At least one of
