Finding my true mate

Fighting the urge

I was laying in bed waiting on Collin to text me that he made it home alright. I was almost asleep when I heard *ping* from my phone.

I shot up too fast and got a head rush. I checked the phone and I see a message from Collin:

I had a good time with you tonight. Just wanted to let you know I am home now and I am about to crash into my bed. I am exhausted. Good night ! 😘

I felt butterflies in my stomach and it felt like my heart skipped a beat and was pounding against my chest harder than I could ever imagine it could pound.

Hey Collin! Glad you made it home safe. thank you for letting me know. I had a great time as always. Goodnight !

I laid my phone down on my night stand and plugged it into the charger. As soon as my head hit the pillows I was off to dream land.

When I woke up in the morning, I was feeling so refreshed. I immediately reached over for my phone to see if I had any messages from a certain someone. To my surprise I had 5 new messages.

what in the world ?! I never have this many messages. Being the Alphas daughter has its perks but it's not always about being popular that's for sure.

I open up my messages to see who was messaging me :

2 messages Christine

2 messages Chris

1 Message Collin

... okay I guess let's see what the best friend wants. I open the message from Christine

KALLIE? Are you dating Collin now ?? Did you ask him about what we talked about yet? if he has feelings for me ?(msg1/2)

I don't know what's going on but Cody broke up with me! Has Collin said anything to you? I'm so f*****g upset and p****d. Text me asap! please !? (might 2/2)

sigh ... I don't even know where to start with that one, but I do know she must be distraught over Cody so I will text her first.

- hey Christine sorry you had to wait for my response, I am sorry babe but Cody didn't say anything to me. I don't know if Collin knew anything, if he did he didn't say anything to me. As far as the kiss between you and if he has feelings for you, no I haven't asked him about it. Are we dating? not officially no... spending time together and getting to know eachother, yep! I am sorry about Cody though.. I am here for you love! ❤

next 2- Chris - ugh

- KALLIE ? WHAT THE F**K?!

- Look I know you were upset about what happened between us, but I sure hope that you aren't trying to get with Collin... My friend just to get back at me and make me jealous... IT WON'T.WORK!

I stare at my phone and just laugh for a moment. It won't work ? Well one Mr. I am not even remotely worried about you and how you feel at this point and no I'm not trying to make you jealous, but you certainly seem to be a bit jealous if you ask me. I close out of the text from Chris. I don't know if I even want to text him back. I feel like maybe the silent treatment will say it all for him. He can wait.

Collin

-Hey! good morning gorgeous! Can you text me when you are up please? I have something to ask you.

hmmm what could he want to ask. I guess I will text him and then hop in the shower to get ready for the day.

-hey good morning Collin! you had something to ask me ?

-Oh hey Kallie, yeah I do but it's not really a text thing can I call you ?

Weird but okay ...

- Yeah sure of course. I was about to shower but that can wait. call away!

**ring, ring, ring***

Deep breath- "hello?"

-"Hey Kallie, how did you sleep?"

-"Hey! good and yourself?"

-"better than I have in a really long time if I'm being honest. hey so I have a question..."

- " yeah of course. what's up?"

-"Well... I was just wondering if... you would.... be my girlfriend? officially?"

my jaw probably hit the floor, why was I so shocked I have no idea, but I was.

answer him Kallie! Before I do it for you!

yikes alright sheesh!

-"Yes Collin, I would be happy to officially be your girlfriend." I said with a smile on my face.

How sweet. Though he could have done it in person it is fine because he didn't get to see the shock on my face.

-"awesome, so can I come over and watch a movie with you tonight at the packhouse maybe ?"

-" that sounds perfect, just come on over for dinner at the packhouse around 6. see ya then. "

-"awesome, see you then babe.later! "

And he hung up. "I have a boyfriend!" I squeal.

you and Chris might as well have been dating officially the way the two of you were together. sure could have fooled me.

you had to bring him up didn't you Kristy?!

yeah well whatever. Don't get too clingy to Collin.

Is he our mate? is that why I feel the bond that I do with him already...?

I feel it to. I do not know why or if it is the mate bond... but he should know... he's 18 ask him!

yeah that's not awkward. stupid. I am getting in the shower. go away Kristy.

You and I both know I can't go completely away

she snarked as she drifted to the back or my mind.

I went to get into the shower and took my time washing my hair, my body and shaving every last hair from my shoulders down on my body. Once I was done pampering myself I got out. dried my hair standing in just my towel when I heard a knock on my door. I went to see who it was. When I got to the door I made sure that I was completely covered as far as n*****s and a** go. I crack open my door and before I can even see who it is they push the door open and push past me. It was Chris. He turns to look at me and closes the door and locks it behind him.

"ummm I don't know who you think you are but you can't just barge in my room like that, let alone uninvited and when I am basically naked! what do you want!? You have about 2 minutes starting now, to explain what the f**k your problem is!"

"Kallie, why are you dating Collin? and don't lie to me!"

"Woooow! seriously why do you even care Chris? it's literally none of your business and doesn't concern you at all!"

"I WANTED TO BE THE ONE TO TAKE YOUR VIRGINITY AND YOU JUST ARE GOING TO GO AND GIVE IT UP RIGHT AWAY TO COLLIN?!"

"First of all, not that it is any of your d**n business... but Collin and I have literally done nothing but kiss and hold hands Chris! Get the f**k out of my room!!!" I shout and unlock the door swinging it open gesturing for him to move toward it.

Chris sits and stares at me for a moment and then looks to the floor, gets up walks to the door and stops for a moment. He turns and looks at me once more and says "You know what Kallie? I hope you're f*****g happy... Collin and I don't even talk anymore. I don't know what lies you have told him, but whatever you told him.. he's avoided me every chance he's gotten and I can't help but think it has something to do with you."

"I didn't tell him s**t. Good bye!" and I slammed the door and locked it. F*****g a**hole I say under my breath as I go back to the bathroom to finish my hair and make up, and get dressed for my date later.

After I am finally done, I head down stairs to join everyone for breakfast. Dad and Gionna are there just giving me the strangest looks.

"Hi dad, Gionna- did I do something ? why are you two giving me those looks?!"

"why was Chris storming out of here angry?" my dad asks with his brow raised.

I let out a deep sigh. "Well dad, that would be because we aren't really even considered friends anymore and I am now dating Collin, who use to be friends with Chris and Chris is throwing a temper tantrum like a toddler.... that it in a nutshell anyway. the other details don't matter."

My dad and Gionna look at eachother and back at me.

"Okay Kallie, but did you know that Chris is leaving?"

my heart sank, he's leaving and this is how we are leaving things? ugh, I can't leave it like this.

"He failed to mention that dad... but I will talk to him before he leaves unless he's still acting like an idiot."

Chris ? I say through mind link

no response.

I decide to make it short and sweet.

I forgive you.

I cut off the link and went to eating.

"you good sis?"

"yeah. never been better. let's eat ! "

We finished breakfast and I decided to walk around the territory and just get some sun. It's been a while since I decided to walk just because so I think it would do me some good.

I walked and I found myself at the doors of the pack hospital. I don't know why I ended up here but here I was. I see Chaz and Alyssa walking towards me but they look to be arguing.

ugh, I don't want any part of this. I turn to walk away to avoid any awkward situation that may arise when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn around and it's Michael - Rickons brother.

"Hey what's up Michael? you okay?" I said as I studied his concerned face.

"yeah... I mean I think so? I don't know, can we go somewhere and talk?"

"of course. I am just walking so come join me." I say and we begin to walk the remainder of the territory where there weren't many ears to hear what was being said.

"Kallie, I have feelings for Mitzy."

I stopped in my tracks "Say what ?! I don't think I heard you right."

"You heard me right, don't make me say it again please."

"Okay fair enough but you know nothing can come from you two Michael... I mean she was so close to marrying Rickon... That's your brother.. that would ruin yalls relationship."

"What do I do though?"

"Honestly? talk to Mitzy, at least see how she feels... have y'all... you know... had s*x?"

".... yeah we have, a couple times. I just don't know if she did it to get back at Rickon or not."

I was hoping he wouldn't notice my eyes clouding over.

"yeah well you need to talk to her..."

"I don't know where she is."

"don't worry, I got you" I said and tilted my head up in the direction that Mitzy was walking toward us from.

"Really Kallie?! "

"Thank me later good luck."

I left the two of them to sort out that mess and headed back to the pack house. It was mid afternoon and I was hungry. I finally got back to the packhouse and I saw that there wasn't lunch being made.

"Hey Mrs. Nichols, no lunch today ? "

"No dear not for anyone unless they request it. did you need something to eat?"

"Just a sandwich will do thank you. Hey Mrs. Nichols? Collin is coming for dinner can you be sure to make extra of everything to make sure there is enough please?"

"Of course Kallie. No problem dear. "

"thank you."I said and headed up to my room to finish my sandwich. I was tired from my walk so I decided if I was going to be able to make it through a movie with Collin tonight, I needed some rest.

I finished eating and then laid down on my bed. I decided to check to see what was going on with Christine and Cody before falling asleep.

-Hey girlie,  how are you holding up ?

I waited a few minutes and there was no response. So I decided to leave it be. Just as I closed my eyes I got a mind link.

- you forgive me huh? why does that even matter unless you are going to be giving me a going away gift?

SERIOUSLY?!

-If that is all you see me as now, then I guess I never knew you after all and our friendship and... whatever else I thought we had didn't mean as much to you as I thought it did.  Chris just be careful where ever you are going. I hope that you are happy wherever you decide to go in life. I will never forget the fun we had together. I have moved on and you have too. good luck.

With that I cut off my mind link and put up a block so I could take my nap in peace.

I woke up an couple hours later to someone pounding on my door.

What the hell?! I get up and walk to my door, I crack it open to see who was there.

"Christine!! " I shouted and grabbed her arm and pulled her in my room shutting the door behind her. I gave her a huge hug because she looked like she really could use it.

"Hi, Kallie."

"Are you okay?"

"I guess so. I mean... Me and Cody were together a long time. I thought that he was my mate ya know? but he just couldn't get past certain things. It's not like he was perfect. But whatever. How are things with you and Collin going?"

"Well they're good so far, I mean we just started dating ya know? Taking things slow. "

"Have y'all had s*x yet?!"

"Oh my gosh! NO! "

She looked at me with her eyebrow raised. "why not? I bet he's got a big d*ck."

"Wow, yeah okay. moving on. anyway, I am about to freshen up my hair and make up and get ready to go eat dinner. Collin is coming to have dinner and then we are going to watch a movie later. You should stay for dinner."

"eh I will pass. I need to go meet up with my hair lady! I will see you later Kallie."

"Alright be safe. bye! "

She left and shut the door behind her, that was an odd encounter, oh well. I shrugged and went back to getting ready for dinner. I grabbed my phone when I was done and was about to head down stairs to the dining room when I got a text.

-hey baby!

-hey yourself! see you soon?

-yeah actually I am already here, I was wondering where you were. 

-oh I will be right down!

I went to meet with Colling and sat next to him in the dining room. The omegas brought everyone a plate. It was a really quiet dinner. something felt off. I was ready to get out of there! I quickly ate all my food and Collin finished his as well.

" where are you two off to?" my dad asks

"Oh we are going to watch a movie and don't worry I will not fall asleep in there again!"

I grabbed Collin by the hand and lead him up the stairs to the theater room. We turned on ' A walk to remember ' a chick flick but hey that's his fault for telling me to choose. I love this movie.

I grabbed a blanket to put over us while we held hands. Collin turned to me and gave me a deep kiss on the lips. oh.my.gosh. There was those intense butterflies again. This feeling is like an adrenaline rush and I am addicted.

compose yourself Kallie you got this I thought to myself. I looked and him and smiled and got back to watching the movie. We talked off and on and just got to know more about eachother. I had to ask him about Christine. So here goes nothing.

"Hey, I have been meaning to ask you something but, I never know how to bring it up. Christine told me that you and Cody have been best friends for a really long time and that he kind of is holding a grudge because you and Christine kissed? is that true?"

"oh..that." he said and sighed.

"she needed a ride home so I was being nice and went to pick her up. Well, she took it as something more than what it was and I walked her to her door and she turned around and kissed me. it meant nothing to me. I don't even know why she did it but, yeah Cody holds onto s**t too long sometimes. it gets annoying at time really."

" Oh wow okay well you gave me more information than she did actually haha."

"I don't like her Kallie. She is a w***e. seriously be careful what you say to her."

"Oh okay. well she's been a good friend to me so far so I mean... I have no reason to think that she is going to betray me some how."

"I get it." and he kissed me on the cheek. I smiled at him and we went back to our movie.

Once the movie was over I could barely keep my eyes open so I walked with Collin to the front door of the pack house and walked with him outside. He held my hands and looked me in the eyes.

"I have such a good time with you." he said

"I have a great time with you too."

"good night Kallie."

"goodnight Collin"

I went to turn to go inside and he pulled me back to turn around and grabbed the back of my head and pulled me into a kiss. I thought it was just going to be a normal kiss goodnight but this turned into a full make out session. My insides were heating up and it was like fire in my veins and it felt so good. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I put mine around his neck. I never felt this intense feeling before. Not with Chris. Not like this.

We finally came up for air. We looked and eachother and hugged once more and went out separate ways.

F**k, how am I suppose to last until I find my mate when Collin makes my insides melt?! This is going to be harder than I thought to control these urges to let him take me whereever and whenever.

I gotta get ahold on myself. This is not me. Get it together Kallie! I ran up to my room and got into bed replaying the events of the night. I didn't regret a single thing. I wanted more. I wanted it now.

I reached over for my charging cord on the side table next to my bed and plugged in my phone. Within about 2 minutes of doing that I got a text on my phone. I reach over to check to see who it was, but I was pretty sure it would be Collin.

-Goodnight Kallie, I love you.

oh my gosh.... he loves me ?! so that feeling I am feeling between us isn't one sided and it's real. It's there. There is a deep connection between us. I knew it.

-I love you too Collin. did you make it home?

-Yes I did and I am not going to be able to stay up much longer. Text me tomorrow.

-Same I am fighting to keep my eyes open. I will or you can text me. goodnight. ttyl

I sat my phone on my side table and sat there thinking about everything that had happened and within a minute I was drifting off into the most peaceful sleep I had ever felt. I am loved. I am in love.

I woke up the next morning, and instantly reached for my phone.

-good morning baby! I miss you already! can't wait to see you again!

A minute or so passes and I figure Collin is sleeping so I get up brush my hair and teeth, redo my messy bun on my head and head downstairs to grab something quick to eat.

When I get to the kitchen I run into Mitzy.

"Hello sister!" I say to her

"hey.... why are you so d**n happy ?!"

I snatch a muffin from the tray on the kitchen island counter and just smile at her. "I can't be happy?"

"Well of course you CAN be but that's just not been you here recently. what happened?"

I decide to mind link her so nobody over hears us talking about the things that I am about to tell her.

Collin and I are official for one.... but he also told me he loves me last night.

she nearly spit out her drink and I could hear her coughing to catch her breath and keep from choking.

He told you he loves you?! you two haven't even been together long... omg did you say it back to him Kallie?!

I did and before you question me yes. I do love him and I am inlove with him. He makes me feel a way I have never felt before.

be careful.

with that our link was cut off and I looked at her nodded and smiled.

",So what is going on with your uh... situation ? " I say raising my brow.

"yeah nope. my room. NOW!"

I giggle at her antics and follow her up to her room. We walk in and sit on her bed.

"So spill! " I say.

she let's out a deep sigh "Michael told me he had feelings for me and I just don't feel the same. I wasn't trying to use him to get back at Rickon but I mean it wouldn't hurt. Then I thought about it... only after the fact and realized what I had done, I could hurt their relationship as brothers. I don't want to do that. I told him I'm sorry but that I don't feel that way and maybe we need to go back to being just friends." .

"Ah, Well good job sis. I am glad you got to that before it got any further... I have a confession to make. you can't say anything promise!?"

" yeah of course! what's up? "

"I am having a heart time fighting the urge to let Collin f**k my brains out."

The look on her face was that of pure shock. It made me laugh out loud.

"Wow well... okay but.... you have been wanting to save yourself for not only your mate but for marriage as well... did that go out the window all of a sudden?!"

"... well no... I mean not yet anyway. I want it to be special if I do decide to lose my virginity to him and I wouldn't be the only one that is losing my virginity, Collin is a virgin too..."

"Oh wow well okay then. I mean that's awesome and nearly unheard of!"

"Yeah I know. so I think I want to wait at least until my 17th birthday... then I can always change my mind when that time comes."

"Do what you need sister, I will be here for you no matter what."

"Thanks! that means alot." I say and get up off the bed to head out of her room.

"Wanna go play pool?" I say before walking through the door.

"Hell to the yeah I do lots go!"

We made our way down the stairs to the first floor and went to the pool hall. When we got there to our surprise it was full of people. The first floor had alot of stuff for everyone to do. All pack members were allowed on the 1st floor but nobody was allowed to go on the ranked member floors unless invited up of course.

I scan the room to see if I know anyone that is in there and sure enough

"KALLIE!" I hear two girls voices.

"Hey Jessica, Hey Nicole what's up? it seems like it's been forever!"

"Well it's pretty much been almost a month now since we hung out and you decided to pick Collin over us..."

"Oh shut up its not even like that. " I say rolling my eyes. "yall wanna play?

"Yeah sure!" they both grab a pool stick and we play a few rounds and decide to go sit down and just talk about what everyone has going on in their lives.

"Okay so I really like Jackson, but I'm so scared to even say anything to him! " Nicole says.

"Well he can't read your mind so you should just tell him! or at least ask to hang out with him." as I finished saying that I feel someone come up behind me. I turn to see who it is but before I could even turn around the most wonderful smell hit me. It smelled like cactus and white tea. That's when I realized it was coming from... Collin?

mate

whoa what Do you mean mate Kristy?

I can feel it Kallie this is our mate.

wow. okay then. but I'm not sure I'm ready to have a mate I am not even able to shift yet, I can't even be marked until I am 18 any way. ugh!

well it doesn't hurt to know that he is THE ONE. Jump his bones right here or I will.

oh my gosh no!! go away.

Kristy snickers and goes to the back of my mind and I look around and see everyone staring at me.

"What!?" I ask with an annoyed tone.

"were you arguing with your ... wolf?" Nicole asks.

"Oh well... yeah... I mean no... not arguing she is just telling me that I am... oh nevermind. it's fine. " I say remembering Collin is behind me.

I stand up and turn to face Collin.

"Can we go talk... in my room?"

"Sure Kallie," he says and kisses me.

"Later you you guys!" I say and waive and walk with Collin hand in hand to my room.

"sooo are you going to tell me what you and your wolf were talking about?"

"nope not at all." I say and giggle

"what?... no fair!" he says jokingly.

I shrug and we sit on my bed. I scoot closer to him and rest my head on his shoulder and start to kiss his neck. I can hear him starting to breath harder and let out a growl. I stop what I'm doing and I look at him. I place a kiss on his lips and I feel his tongue enter my mouth. Next thing I know he lifts me up and lays me down on the bed. He places himself on top of me but without all of his weight and we lay there for a moment making out and getting very familiar with eachothers mouths.

We break free and I look at him and scoot to where I am sitting up. "Collin, you are making this so hard to not let you take my virginity right here right now."

"I know, it's very hard... " he says with his brow raised and a slight smirk on his face.

"Oh my gosh Collin." I say covering my face as I turn red as a tomato. "that is NOT exactly what I meant.." I giggle.

"Haha I know. But I do agree it is becoming increasingly difficult to ... keep it in my pants. So what do we do?"

"Well I want to wait at least until my 17th birthday before we have s*x."

He pauses and looks at me for a moment and says "That's fine with me, I don't want you to think that we even have to do it then though. we can wait as long as you want to."

"Well if we did that then we would be having s*x right here right now." I say and laugh.

"Truth. okay we will wait and see what happens on your birthday."

I nod and give him a kiss which of course turned into another make out session. We finally stop and he tells me he has to go spend some time with his parents for the day. I make a pouty face at him and he says "awe don't do that to me, you're breaking my heart. I will come by tonight after dinner and we can hang out for a little bit.... or wait actually, why don't you just come with me ?"

"Uh, and meet your parents ? "

"Yeah why not? I met yours already."

" okay well, I need to get dressed so you can stay in here but don't peak! I am going to change in my closet wait here." I say and go to my closet and crack the door.

Meeting his parents. Wow this is moving fast... but at least there is a set special date for us to finally lose our virginity to eachother and we will cross that bridge when we get there.

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