Finding my true mate

Karma is a b***h

I made my choice to stay with Keith. He had hurt me, but for some reason I felt like I needed to stay. I had moved into the house with him. To say that I never realized how hard he had it was an understatement. His mom was a drug addict, she had different men over all the time, didn't work to pay the bills so they were constantly without electricity, food and water. This I found out is why he spent so much time with his neighbor Tiffany at her house, because there he was able to eat, and shower and enjoy electricity. Tiffany was seriously so sweet. Her and I became really close.

I told Tiffany about everything that had gone on with me and Keith, he was her friend first but she didn't like what he had done to me. So to say that we became better friends than they were would be accurate.

When I moved in with Keith and his mom, things were going okay to start off with. We hadn't had too many issues for a little while. I hadn't seen Collin much since that one day when I was helping him pack, maybe once or twice but that was it. Him and Roni had gotten back together so I went back to leaving him alone.

Keith's friends and him all wanted to go to this apartment complex that was down the road. It was near a park so they wanted to play football and basketball. I typically would go with them but sometimes they told me to stay home or would leave before me to walk up there and Tiffany and I would meet up with them later or stay home and talk girl talk aka boy problems.

Tiffany liked Greg and they had dated previously from my understanding, he also really liked her but his friends have him crap about it so he acted like he didn't care about her. Boys at this age were so d**n ignorant.

I had a feeling that Keith was going to the park to meet more girls to cheat on me with, so Tiffany and I were determined to find out all his secrets. We worked together to hack into his f*******:- f*******: was pretty new at this point. I did end finally hacking into it and to no surprise he was talking to many girls. I decided not to confront him or the girls about it and just pretend I knew nothing.

A few months later after I had left the restaurant I started working closer to Keith's house where I was living. I walked to and from work everyday. I was working at a daycare. I really enjoyed it but the management was not great. I got sick one day and was not able to get to work. I had no medical insurance so I couldn't get to a doctor and my boss told me you can't come back to work until you have a doctor's note. So that ended that because I didn't have a note so I didn't get to go back to work. I was so upset about it but nothing I could do.

After a few months living with Keith things got messy again and one day out of the blue Collin texted me.

-Hey what's up?

I decided to pretend I didn't know who it was, to see how he would react.

Sorry who is this? I don't have this number saved.

-Really? It's Collin.

Why are you talking to me? I thought you weren't allowed to talk to me because of your girlfriend.

-Yeah well I broke up with her, for good. She wanted to change me and I'm not trying to change myself for anyone.

I see well, I don't know what to say. I'm still with Keith. Things are s****y though. But my dad has thar b***h Gionna back at the house now so I don't want to be there anymore. So I'm living over here.

-we should hang out sometime. Seriously. I miss you.

Yeah okay, we can figure something out I'm sure. I will text you later okay?

-sure. talk to you later.

What do I do here Kristy? I know that cheating is wrong. But Keith has treated me like s**t.

Look, Kallie no judgement here. It sure would be nice to have some fun with Leo. I know that much.

Kristy! this is not the time for being a complete hornball. seriously!?

Haha okay okay. follow your heart Kallie. really tune into it. it will lead the way. But also think clearly through this. this is your choice to make. I do not feel a connection between Keith and I or his would Jamie. So do whatever it is you want. I honestly don't care either way. However you must be careful no matter what choice you make. Be careful Kallie.

That's your big advice!? ugh okay. whatever thanks I guess.

I sat and thought about it. I never did anything without thinking it through. I never did anything spontaneous. It was time I did things differently and stopped worrying about every little thing. I am only a teenager once and these are suppose to be my fun years and instead I'm stuck in a miserable situation with someone that doesn't give two f***s about me. Time to do things a little differently.

I texted Cody's ex girlfriend in that moment and asked her if she could take me to see Collin. I needed out of here. I needed to see what was going to come of me and him this time around. She took me over to him with no judgement what so ever. Told me to be careful and if I needed to be picked up then to let her know.

I walked up to the door and knocked. Collin came to the door and opened it. We immediately hugged and it was like no time had passed since the last time we saw eachother.

We literally sat and watched movies together. Specifically one of our favorites 'Southpark: bigger, longer and uncut ' it was one of the ones we use to watch all the time, what was funny about this was that every time we watched it, we ended up naked somehow with his d**k in me.

Sure enough we ended up naked with me on top of him riding him while on the couch and then he turned me around and f****d me from behind. I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss this. S*x with Keith didn't compare to this. This connection me and Collin had was seriously unmatched. We were drawn to eachtoher I wasn't sure why, but I didn't care either.

When we got done doing our thing, I decided to text Keith and tell him I was staying the night with Lynne. I stayed the night with Collin and we just had fun. No strings attached just friends with benefits. The fact that I was sneaking around made it that much more fun too. Was that wrong? I didn't care.

We woke up early the next day and he took me back to Keith's house, he dropped me off down the street so that his car wouldn't be seen dropping me off. I walked into the room and there Keith was with his friends playing video games. "Hey you're home. "

"yup" I said and kissed his cheek. I was tired so I decided to lay down and see if I could get some sleep. I had showered at Collins to cover my tracks just incase Keith suspected something. He either seriously thought that I was staying faithful to him and didn't suspect a thing or he just didn't care what I did. Either way, it didn't matter. If he found out, maybe he would break up with me and I wouldn't have to do it. I didn't like the idea of having to break up with anyone, I knew how that felt and I didn't want to be the cause of someone else's heartbreak. The question was though, would it even break his heart at all? It was hard to say.

Tiffany's friend Ellie was in town apparently Keith had some crush on her at one point or she had a crush on him. She came over and Keith and I had just got done having s*x so we were laying in the bed together. She walked into the room and Keith sat up.

"Hey do me a favor, turn around" he said to her. I sat there wondering what the hell he was doing. Then I realized he was checking out her a**!

"hmmm nice. okay you can turn back around now. " She smiled at him and he smiled at her. What the f**k was that s**t about !? For her to do as he said at that and be proud of herself.. right infront of me none the less. These mother f*****s had some d**n nerve.

"Okay well I'm going to go see Tiffany now, you should come over and hang out with me" she said to him with a smile.

Was I f*****g invisible or something ? Now given this b****h was bigger than me in every way. I was only about 100 lbs, 110 on a good day, but get me mad enough and there's no telling what I would do.

"Okay yeah I'll be over in a bit"

She finally left and I glared at Keith. "What the f**k was that s**t about?! right in front of me at that ? checking out another girls a**!? do you think I'm stupid or something!!!???"

"Huh what ? I was just looking I don't see what the big deal is. let's go over and hang out with them at Tiffany's. "

"yeah I don't f*****g think so. I am not going and you are not either with your disrespectful b***h a** self. hell no!"

"seriously?! I want to go!"

"too bad! you go I'm leaving! that's not a threat it's a promise! "

He looked at me "whatever" and stormed out to go sit on the porch. I was so enraged. I wanted to punch him and her and not stop until they were unconscious. I knew that wasn't okay to do however. So without thinking I turned around and punched out the bedroom window shattering glass and it flew out towards the front yard. I was so mad I didn't even realize that the glass had cut my hand pretty deeply.

Keith came running into the house. "what happened?!" He said looking at me concerned. "What happened ?! why do you even care I punched out your window because you weren't within reaching distance!"

"Oh my God Kallie your hand!"

"Yeah well that is what happens when you punch a window. I am fine."

"Doesn't look fine. we need to clean that and make sure there is not any glass in it and get a bandaid to put on it."

"Yeah whatever I'll clean it myself. thanks for caring." I said rolling my eyes and going to the bathroom to clean it up.

We got it cleaned up and then we had no choice but to go see Tiffany and that s**t to ask for a bandaid.

Tiffany lead me to the bathroom of her parents house and got me a bandaid.

"What did you do anyway?" she asked.

I went over the events that lead to me punching out the window. She was shocked but glad that it wasn't any worse than what it was. We went back to where Keith and Ellie were and she was d**n near sitting on his lap. I walked towards them and she scooted away from him a little. I raised my brow and looked at the two of them. F**k this. I need to see Collin.

hey what are you doing right now?

-I'm just sitting at home working on the cars, what's up?

Can you please come pick me up at Keith's? I am so done with this s**t today. I need to leave.

-yup give me a little bit and I'll pick you up at the park down the street from there. see you soon.

perfect. thanks!

I decided to ask Tiffany to shower while I was there. Keith and his friends decided to go to the park and I told him I was going to stay back and was going to be staying with Lynne tonight anyway so I would just see him when I got home. Keith leaving to the park was good because Collin was going to be there soon and I needed him to leave. I quickly got ready to see Collin. Right when I finished I got a text from him.

-Hey I'm down the street.

On my way!

I walked right over to his car hopped in and instantly kissed him. He was just so easy to talk to. So easy to be around. I enjoyed every moment with him. We decided to just drive around and for a bit. I was going to be gone for the night with Lynne she would pick me up from my dad's house later that evening.

While we drove around I scooted to the middle of the front seat and started kissing him on his neck. I reached over and could feel his rock hard d**k through his pants. I always got a sense of accomplishment knowing that I could make him harder than a rock with one touch. I probably enjoyed it a little too much if im being honest.

I leaned over and unzipped his jeans and pulled his d**k through, I started sucking and pulling and licking him. He pulled over to an empty parking lot and I sucked him until he came. He took me to my dad's where Lynne picked me up. Her and Cody were still dating, so when I was around her I saw him occasionally and they both were around me and Keith occasionally as well.

Keith started saying that Lynne was trying to flirt with him and this and that but that didn't make sense to me because she was with Cody and they were happily together, I let his lies get to me and instead of breaking up with him like I should have done a million times by now Lynne and my friendship started to die off.

Collin and I met up pretty often to have our fun. After I found out that Gionna was there to stay at the packhouse I never returned. When Keith's mom kicked me out I went to live with Mitzy and Jordan in a one bedroom apartment. I had Keith over occasionally but we mostly went to get on the computers in the apartment office. I started working at a fast food place, a friend of Mitzys had gotten me the job. I didn't work in the restaurant as much though, I did catering events and I had a blast doing that.

I also had Collin over but he was welcomed into the apartment. We did many things in that apartment. Mitzy didn't appreciate it, which I understand, it was her couch We did them on.

I had been with Keith for about a year at this point. S*x was fine. Though we didn't really have that much s*x, so who knows how many other people he was having s*x with. I decided I needed to get away from Texas. My mom had bought tickets to Califonia for me, my brother and Keith. It was suppose to be just a visit for the summer but after things got worse with Keith I asked my mom and step dad if I could come live with them. Of course they said yes.

I decided that if I was going to go out there and start over, I would come clean with Keith about cheating on him repeatedly with Collin.

It was the day that we were getting packed for California, Keith was being his normal self and I was annoyed with him. I decided to tell him before we left so that he could stay behind if he decided to.

"I need to tell you something. "

He looked at me concerned "Okay... what is it?"

"Well, for quite some time now... I have been meeting up with Collin and ... well I have cheated on you... a lot."

He looked at me and to my surprise there was actually hurt in his eyes. I didn't know if they were genuine or not, but seeing him start to cry made me feel a little bad.

"You don't get to make me feel a certain way about it Keith, you have cheated on me who knows how many times."

"I know. It's just I never thought you would do that to me. "

"What is it with you guys? Collin when he broke up with me, got upset at me for sleeping with someone else, even though he was doing it... I was a w***e for it and he couldn't believe I would do that because that wasn't the type of person I was, and now you can't believe for a second that I would do what you have been doing to me since day f*****g one?! how stupid can you seriously be?!"

He looked at me shocked. He didn't say anything. Just went inside to sit down. I decided to text Collin.

I told Keith that I cheated on him with tou.

-Why did you do that though?

Well I'm moving to California so I figured I needed to get it all off my chest.

-you are moving? when do you leave? why are you going?

There's nothing left here for me. my relationship is s**t. I need to be away from Keith to see if I can end this with him. I am sorry. I just can't stay here anymore.

-Well that sucks. Can I see you before you go?

Yeah. I leave tomorrow though so you will have to do it soon.

-Can I come get you tonight ?

Yeah let me figure out how to get away from here and I'll see you in a bit.

I decided to tell Keith that I was going to go spend some time with my family before I moved away for a while or for good, I wasn't sure if I would stay there forever or not but I knew it would be for a while. He didn't question it. When he was busy playing his game I told him I would be back later.

When I got in the car with Keith, we decided to just go to eat and then just spend some time together before I left in the morning. We went to his house and watched some movies just like old times and yes we did have s*x of course like always. This was goodbye. We didn't know if it was for good or not, but we knew we wouldn't be seeing eachother for a long time.

When it was late, he took me back to Keith's to drop me off. We hugged for a moment and I kissed him goodbye.

"Don't forget to text me okay?"

"I won't. I am going to miss you..."

"I know, I will miss you too."

With that I shut the car door and walked the rest of the way to the house. Keith was waiting outside the house for me to get home. I walked up to the porch.

"Hey" he said and hugged me.

"hey..I didn't think you would be waiting for me out here..."

"Eh the electricity is off inside again and no water so I decided to spend some time out here."

"Oh okay. I see. well I'm going to go to bed. goodnight. "

With that I headed inside to go to bed. Tomorrow would be the start of a new life. I had to get through a couple of weeks with Keith being there and then it would just be me, my mom and step dad. I was nervous, anxious but also ready to move forward with my life and start this next chapter.