Finding my true mate

Toxic Cycle

I stayed with Keith because I wanted to win this "game" so to speak. Was I insane? Probably. Did I care what others thought ? no.

Anna never even came up... much. Keith and I went ahead and went to prom together like we should. I found out later that Anna had asked him to go but he chose me. That had to count for something.

My sister went to prom as well. She went with Jordan. To say it was weird that she was at my prom was an understatement. We took pictures before hand together though, so it was fine. She stayed on one side of the room and I was on the other.

Keith and I sat at a table with a few friends. There was this girl Taylor there that I didn't really care for, but it was prom so I just dealt with it. I went to get something to drink and when I came back she was sitting right next to him and clearly flirting. I probably should have been able to control my anger at that time, and I tried. I think I did pretty well. I walked over and sat down at the table. I told Keit I wanted to dance, he was my date. My boyfriend and I wasn't going to let this s**t ruin my night. No way.

We headed to the dance floor and we were dancing together. Out of nowhere this guy came up and got in between Keith and I and shoved him back. It was one of the football players, the popular guy James was his name. I had no idea what was going on. I stood back and just tried to get them to stop. I didn't feel like seeing a wolf fight break out in the middle of prom. I couldn't hear what they said to eachother. James finally just walked off. I no longer wanted to dance. We headed back to our table. I kept thinking why would James approach Keith like that. The only thing I could think of is the fact that he was good friends with Ray.

FLASHBACK

A week or so before prom-Ray texted me while I was on the phone with Keith. Asked me to come outside because he was waiting for me. We had not talked in a while, so I was confused as to why he was there. I didn't feel like I owed Keith anything at that point. He had 2 girlfriends after all.

I had told Keith I needed to go to bed. I hung up the phone and went outside. I saw Ray parked across the way with some friends. He walked up to me standing on the front porch.

"Hi Kallie." I could tell he was either drunk or messed up on some kind of d***s.

"What are you even doing here Ray? haven't you caused enough issues lately?"

"I miss you. I needed to see you."

"Why though? After all the bulls**t that you pulled... you want me to do what? be with you ? not going to happen. I am with someone anyway."

"But... I love you Kallie..."

He almost had me with that. I however am not stupid. "No... you don't. you need to go. you're drunk..."

"Can I at least have a hug then?"

I wasn't heartless and when things were good with us I did have fun. He took me home from work when Collin bailed on me many times before things went wrong with his girlfriend and lies and so on.

"Of course." We hugged for a moment and then I let go. "I have to go inside and get to bed before someone wakes up. Goodbye Ray." I went inside but made sure to look to see that he had actually left. I went back to my room and that was that.

End flashback

I was irritated when we sat down because of what had happened on the dance floor. We sat and Keith tried to calm me down. I was talking with some of the others at the table and I turn and look and there Taylor was. This girl was getting on my last f*****g nerve.

"I'm sure she wouldn't mind. would you Kallie?"

"Sorry wasn't listening... mind what ?" I said knowing exactly what was going on.

"I was wondering if Keith wanted to go dance. that's what prom is about after all."

"Yeah you're funny that'd be a no. We are leaving for the after party fun. Do yourself a favor and go find someone else. Keep away from my boyfriend. thanks."

Keith and I left and went to the after party. It was at the school. We played games and just hung out and had more food and drinks. When we were tired we decided to go home. We had a friend take us home and we sat outside waiting for Keith's mom to come get him. We ended up having s*x across the street from the packhouse. The thought of possibly getting caught made it that much more exciting.

His mom showed up shortly after and we said our good byes. My dad couldn't stand him so he didn't want him in the house. He said he was disrespectful from the first day he met him. I was frustrated by this but I had to respect his wishes.

I went straight to bed. I couldn't stand to stay up any longer. Tonight could have been better. There is no doubt about that. In my mind senior prom was suppose to be a certain way and this was just simply not the way I wanted it or pictured it going.

When I woke up the next morning I went straight to shower. I didn't take my hair down or wash my make up off when I got in the night before, so I needed this shower. I had quit working at Kohls my this point but Lynne and I were still close friends. I only had a month left of my senior year and I always heard of people having this great senior year and mine seriously sucked.

After my shower I knew I was going to regret it because I would probably need another shower, but I decided to let Kristy out and go for a run. She had been bugging me recently so I was finally ready for it. I found out from Lynne that Collin and Roni had recently broken up and I really needed to get that out of my head. I had a boyfriend.

After my run. I indeed did need a shower but I decided a bath would be perfect for my sore and worn out body. I just relaxed for the first time in a while I was fully relaxed.

I had a shift at my new job at the restaurant tonight and I found out that Keith was planning on applying there and so was Lynne. I was excited to work with them. I was a hostess and I met some really cool people working there. One of the other hostess name was Louise and then the other one was Lauren. I hit it off with Louise the best though. I found out that Keith and Lynne actually got the job. Awesome, more time with my boyfriend and my best friend. What could possibly go wrong?

My shifts were always so much fun. I was really enjoying it there. Over the next few months nothing exciting happened. I graduated from high school and went out to dinner after with family and friends. Lynne was dating Cody now so I knew I would eventually run into Collin more than likely.

I noticed that at work Louise and Keith were a bit too close for comfort. I wasn't sure what was going on, but because of his past. I had a bad feeling. I asked him about it and he said nothing was going on and that they were just friends. I wasn't so sure but I had eyes on them when I wasn't there.

I spent my birthday with family and then I went and hung out with Lynne, Cody and Keith. We had so much fun together when we forgot about all the drama that surrounded Keith.

After my birthday is when the bigger issues started. I found out that Keith had gone to visit an ex girlfriend or current one I'm not even sure anymore. I was p****d that's what I knew.

I kept being the faithful person I was for some time. However, the last straw was when I was approached by a girl named Rachel at work. She was one of my set of eyes while I wasn't there to keep an eye on Keith and Louise.

"You really should break up with Keith or get him in check. The way him and her act is not okay. It's messed up because she acts like she's your friend and she clearly has and ulterior motive here Kallie."

" What did you see Rachel?"

"Kallie I'm not going to go there. You should ask the 2 of them. Check his phone. Something I don't know but it's just wrong. Everyone sees it around here."

I nodded and walked back to my work station. I finished out the night. I had been spending alot of time with Keith since graduation it was basically like I lived there. I decided I would deal with the Keith and Louise situation in the morning.

When morning came I called Keith and I straight asked him what was going on with him and Louise.

"I already told you Kallie. we are just friends."

"Hmm that's not what I am being told... but yeah okay."

I had a friend take me to his house. He was being so secretive with his d**n phone. He walked away from it and that was my chance. I opened up his phone. I had watched him put in his pass code enough to know what it was at this point. I walked down the street as fast as I could so I could find out what was going on. I saw everything I needed to know. Pictures between him and multiple girls, text messages, phone calls. I could feel Kristy stirring. Before in knew it I had shifted and was running full speed back towards the house with, Kristy had his phone in her mouth. He was standing outside the house terrified. When we walked over to him Kristy snarled at him and dropped his phone at his feet.

He gulped. I shifted back, I was naked but I didn't give a s**t.

"Care to explain who all these girls are and why you're sending out so many d**k pictures and getting full nude pictures of other girls including but not limited to f*****g Louise?!"

"I.... ummm.... well.... I ..."

"You know what ?! don't even worry about it because nothing you say is going to make any of this even remotely okay!"

"I'm sorry. Louise is a really cool girl and I just like her."

"Oh well okay you go and you be with her then!"

"I don't really want to. I just like the attention. I want to be with you."

"Prove it then."

"What do you mean? how?"

"Call her right now and tell her that you do not want to be with her like that and that you are still with me and that it was a mistake!"

He let out a sigh and he did just that.I decided it was time for me to go home. I stupidly stayed with him. Everyone that knew about what had happened was mind blown. I hated it but at the same time it started to be nothing but a game to me and it was about to get real interesting real quick.

When I got home. I sent a text to Collin to see how he was doing since Roni broke his heart, like he broke mine.

Hey Collin.... it's Kallie, Lynne told me about you and Roni and I just wanted to check to see how you were doing. are you okay?

-Hey wow I can't believe you are talking to me right now. I am okay. I won't deny it hurts. I loved her. But I will be okay.

If you need someone to talk to, I'll always be there for you Collin. No matter what happens.

-Thank you. I miss you.

I miss you too. have for a long time.

-Hey I gotta get back to work. can I see you sometime maybe?

text me later. we can talk then.

A few days later, Keith and I went to go to the club with one of my friends Lauryn, She was a flirty person, so seeing Keith being flirty around her rubbed me the wrong way. I decided to figure out what was going on. Keith and her ended up working part time together for a brief time at a hotel cleaning. This friendship was a lot of fun but super short lived because Keith told me that Lauryn tried to f**k him that night at the club. I believed him. No matter how much I knew he hurt him on his own free will I took it all out on Lauryn. When I asked her about it, she didn't give me a straight answer and that ultimately ended our friendship.

I had gotten so upset at the fact that Lauryn and Keith were so friendly that i said screw it, he wants to hurt me continuously and not care if there are consequences or think there won't be because he is stupid enough to think i wont find out. well I nothing is stopping me anymore. Karma is a b***h. I decided to text Collin. Is this a bad idea? quite possibly. Did I care? No. not one bit. Keith had hurt me one too many times. Now It was time for me to get my revenge on him and have some fun of my own.

-hey wanna come over? I could use some help packing up my stuff but also I could use some company.

Do I need to find a ride over there or can you come get me?

-l will come get you. See you soon Kallie.

Butterflies filled my stomach. it had been at least a year since I had seen him. I had to get changed and get super f*****g hot to see him. Show him what he's missing.

I went outside the house and saw him pulling up. I waited for him to stop and I went to the car and got in.

"Hi" I said shyly with a big smile on my face that I didn't even try to hide.

"Hey" he said and smiled back.

We headed back to his house. We did what I was there for. I helped him pack. He was going through some stuff and found senior pictures we had taken together.

I took it from his hand "you still have these?"

"Of course I do. why wouldn't I?"

I just smiled. He still cared about me. I don't know if he had feelings for me but everything he did and said showed that nothing had ever really changed between us. The chemistry between us was there and just as strong as it always had been.

He stood up from the floor and came over to the bed where I was sitting. He leaned down and kissed my neck. My body felt like it was melting. My insides were heating up. I wanted nothing more than to have him f**k me right here right now. He put his hand up my skirt and started to rub on my wet p***y. I was already dripping from just him being near me. He got down and pulled off my panties and put his head between my thighs and ate my p***y like it was his first meal in years. I came almost instantly. My legs were weak so I had him stand up and I took his pants off and he was fully erect. I licked his entire length and swirled my tongue around the tip. I could hear him moan with pleasure. I started pulling and sucking. Things were getting pretty steamy but next thing we heard was the front door open.

"s**t that's probably John and Jenny." he said. John is his brother and Jenny his wife.

We quickly got dressed and straightened up.

"Oh my gosh this is going to be weird."

"eh it's fine. just act normal" he said. I nodded and we walked out of the room.

John and Jenny looked at the two of us slightly confused. They didn't say anything though. Just talked to Collin and the other guys that were moving out. When they finished he looked at me.

"Do you want to go get something to eat Kallie?"

"yeah sure sounds good."

We said our good byes and headed out the door. We spent time just talking and enjoying eachothers company. I forgot all about my issues of the day. I didn't care about anything or anyone in that moment. I knew that me being the person I was I may feel some guilt later on. Once I was alone with my thoughts, but being there next to the man that I loved more than anything in the world at one point in time, the guy that made me the happiest girl in the world for almost a year, I didn't care about anything but being near him again. I didn't want this to end, but I knew that it would not stay this way. I was with Keith and he didn't want a relationship right now anyway, him and Roni had just broken up and he needed time. Had he told me that he wanted to be with me again I would have broken up with Keith in a heartbeat. I was hurt too many times by him. He didn't have my heart. It was at that moment that I realized, I was not over Collin and I didn't know if I were would be completely over him.

Collin took me home and I had a billion messages from Keith.

what do you want?!

-where have you been?

hanging out with friends why do you care anyway. you have a ton of girls to entertain! I'm about to get ready for work. I'll talk to you later.

I got ready for work and went to work. I saw Louise working. I instantly saw red. I didn't get to talk to her since finding out what was going on. I didn't care that I was at work. I didn't care that there were people waiting to be seated. I clocked in and walked right over to Louise.

"So trying to take my boyfriend huh? Knowing d**n good and well that we were for sure together acting like my friend but being a little w***e behind my back? You are trash Louise! I will never forgive you for what you tried to do. I can't believe you ! "

she didn't even say anything. she just hung her head and walked to the back. I wanted nothing more than to beat that b*****s face into the pavement. I continued working the rest of my shift and Louise stayed away from me as much as possible.

I saw Keith walk into work and he walked up to her, she stopped for a minute to say something to him but I could tell by her body language that she was mad at him. I could tell he was begging for forgiveness as well.

I walked up to him "That's a great way to prove it Keith. "

He looked at me "What did you do?"

"What did I do?! you have to be kidding me ! why do you care about her being mad or hurt!? you did this by clearly lying when you told her that we were breaking up! stupid f**k! " I said and stormed off.

This shift couldn't end fast enough. It felt like the last hour of my shift was dragging on and like it was never going to end. It did indeed end. I went straight home after work. I had a lot to think about that happened since I met Keith and we started dating and up to this point.

Should I stay or should I go? That was the real question.