Good Daughter

'Sara .. sara are you there' my therapist says to me looking vividly blur.I'm in my house seating on the couch when my mom combs my hair humming her favourite tune she alway combs my hair before bedtime I love that she tells me I'm beautiful daughter but then the humming stops she grabs my hair with her fist.. 'Sara you okay' Mrs. rothfield seeing with concern ' here drink water you will feel better ' she said while handing me glass of water. I take a sip of water and put it back to the desk in front of me 'Feeling better' mrs. rothfield questions me 'yes I just I'm tired that's all' I said looking at her dark circled eyes she is in her mid 50 and my therapist for almost five years I like talking with her to deal with all the crazy things which are running my head my childhood my past, present and my mom. 'okay we will start this conversation from here next weak until take the medication I Prescribed' my therapist said to me while checking her watch she's in hurry I see that so I just smile at her and grab my bag and turn the knob of her office door. 'Sara you're sleeping normally right without panic attacks' Mrs. rothfield said to me like she know what I'm hiding and she can go to depth of my hidden demons, "Yes no attack till date " I said looking behind her the frame of her family it would be a nice thing to have someone to call family. I unlock my apartments door but the only thing which is playing with my head is the dream I saw at Mrs. rothfield office me seating on couch my mom combing my hair the song she was humming it feels she is with me till now after nine years never letting me go far away from her like she is haunting me, chasing me like in my old house I suddenly got surprised by my phone's incoming call I picked up the phone "hello" the person said from the other line "hello who's this" I said "Mommy love's you Sara" "do you love me? " the person said and the humming of song hume hume hume I dropped the phone and I got Statued their looking at my phone's blank screen the phone ranged again this time my boyfriend I picked it up with shaky hands but it turns into voice note " hello Sara gonna be late today don't wait for me love you bye " he said while lot of laughing came from behind him. I ate the dinner and sat on couch keeping my meds to table so I take them before bed and started scrolling through the work in my laptop I have early presentation tomorrow I did the work for like half and hour and then I fell a sleep on couch I opened my eyes with a sound of utensils in the background I saw someone in rob cooking something mouth watering I got up and sat on the half side of couch processing the moment the person looked with side eyes and creepy smile "Are you up baby good let's eat dinner I made your favorite chicken today" my mom said while cutting something she Turned her body and I couldn't move by the site of her cutting fingers and the blood dripping on the rotten chicken " come baby let's eat" she said holding the knife I couldn't process I just ran to my bedroom and locked the door their was instant silent and then the bang on the door one hit two, three they were not stopping I my eyes got filled with tears "open the door baby mommy love's you let's eat dinner will get cold " "don't be a bad girl you know mommy hates when you don't obey me open the gate later I will comb your hair " she bangs at door again and again and then I started crying she started singing song " mommy love's you in the darkest night never let you go even when you cry " " open the door Sara or I will kill you and she started laughing in a menace way . My eyes opened with the alarm it took me plenty of time processing what happened where am I it was a dream a worst dream. I hate my mom and her memories sometimes it feels like I'm stuck in that house for forever with her shouting and my crying but the only thing is that no one is listening.