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This is a story about a boy who secretly falls in love to a top student. Well obviously everyone does..It is a story wherein the boy don't even know that the girl she adores also love him secretly.So find out and let's start..

It's a new day ,a new year, a new life,and a new environment. I am entering now the last year to proceed in college.I am now a grade 10 student.First day of school, I was so very excited and also nervous to go to school .I don't know who would be my classmates and what are they, I was thinking tiff like are they very terror like a tiger and so on.

So the class started. We are now having a sitting arrangement.By any chance I was assigned to sit on my most hated part of the room, at the front.I can't even chat to my friends or ask an answer if I don't know it.But even if I resist it won't do anything.So I just got with the flow. Problem comes one by one. I got sitted to an tip honor student.I always sleep at my desk, I can't even talk to her cause I always feel uncomfortable and aside from that I can't asked her if I don't know the answer when a test came. It 's not like she don't know the answer but I can't asked cause she's a honor student you will get embarrassed if you ask a goddess.That's the worst first day of school I ever experienced.

Second day, nothing important happens.As always, I'm just sleeping at my desk during break time, Im always taking care of my movements so that I can't disturb a honor student beside me.Speaking of evil mmm I mean speaking of the top student beside of me.By any chance she suddenly talk to me.Feel very nervous like it was the end of the world ,don't know how am I going to answer her,what should be the proper way to face a top student.But all of those feeling just sweep away.She just talk to me like where besties like friends like a normal person.She is very nice and kind.After that we always chatting in break time and after school.On the next day I mess up, I forgot to do my homework plus I didn't know how to solve it.I went to school early so that I can copy to my friend but unlucky of me their not there.So I use DIY "Do it yourself " method.But I never solve 2 problems cause it so very hard.By that time I didn't notice that our top student my seatmate watching me.So as usual by her kindness she when to me and help me on my struggles.She told me and easiest way to solve and some reminders.So that day thanks to my savior I got a perfect score on my assignment.

When I go home I took back what I've said in my first day that having a top student seatmate is worst.Little by little, day by day where getting closer and closer to each other.We always laugh, cry not me but her she's cry baby.She sometimes pulled a prank on me cause she find out that Im easy to get shock as a revenge for that I tickled him and I love to see her face become red like a tomato. Thats how happy the day if she was there. Sometimes our classmates get suspected if we are together.When I heard that question coming from them we automatically denied in a second. But when I go home and later in bed, I come up with an question why I am happ?,why I am comfortable?why I won't be what i like when she's not around like what I use to be when shes there around?.Do i fall inlove?Many questions in my mind but I just don't mind it.But then in the past week, I realized that I fall in love to her in a long time.I just to naive to realize that it was love.But then after realizing that ,how I act around her has changed. Little by little I slow getting an anxiety of what I feel.I know into my self that I love her but I just couldn't say to to her like jokes.But even if I tell her I don't even have a chance to her.That's why I just keep it from inside on me.Plus I know that one of my classmates is in love to her.Im just like a ant and she's a goodess we don't matched.After that I made a plan to make me escape form the burden inside my heart.I decided to stay away from her and out distance to use.I bearly get a conversation to her not like before. During break time I always focus on reading stuffs like mangga and watching anime sometimes. I just nearly sit to my assigned seat.But I thinkcshe know al of my doings, I noticed that she was also avoiding me.So just think that its for the good but inside of me its like I am trust in the heart.

Its about a week passed still avoiding her.There comes and event its a traditional event wherein our school was participated.We went to avenue to perform a dance.Girls and boys are separated.We always go home late like 11 to 12 midnight.At day we always reherse make it perfect.But you know even though I avoid her deep inside of me I really really want to talk to her.Then their comes the time that I myself just can't help to talk to her.So I talked to her secretly.As always when I wanted to meet her I always hide at the corner and suddenly comes out.I just love to see her scared face and red face.zi said I missed you, how are you?then we got a long talk.