Torn

From the day I was born, I felt different from the others, from the outside, everything was all right and on the inside, I’ve always felt like outcast. Classical line, right? Somehow it always felt like something was missing, or maybe someone was missing, I’m not sure what is it anymore. I grow up in LA and I live here with my parents. I've got lot of friends but mostly I hang out with three of them: Victor, Steph and Seth. I am currently studing at prestige collage of Fine art. Things couldn’t get better or at least I thought so. One day everything changed, my parents were starting to act differently and just like that my life just changed overnight. But I am going way to fast, let’s start from the beginning. My name is Aideen but everyone calls me Aide and I am nineteen years old, well almost. It’s kind of a different name, right? You have no idea. My parents, Tamiel and Celeste told me that they wanted a different special name for me so they gave me the one that means little fire, or jealously depends on how you look at it. Anyway, they both work as lawyers and are both very pretty looking, which I guess runs in the family. Both have very bright blond hair and bright blue eyes. My hair color is red and my eyes are blue as theirs. When I look back in the past and think what would be the day that brought me to where I got, it would probably be a few weeks before I meet him. You see everything was usually fine but lately my parents started acting weird. They been whispering around me, keeping something from me. Both of them also started being jumpy all of the sudden. Like they were waiting for something bad to happen. In adition to that they started keeping an eye on me more then usual and soon the arguments started. I guess the turning point would be the day I met him. It started just as any other day except when I got up that morning something was in the air. I could not exactly put my finger around it but I knew something would happen, that is the thing about me. I always had those kind of feelings, call me intuitionally or whatever. I rolled out of bed and went straight to bathroom to shower. When I finished, I changed into a cute blue mini skirt and a black blouse, put on my black ankle boots and went downstairs to grab a breakfast. On the way I took my phone checking message. Stephanie, sent me a message that we are going clubbing tonight. I walked downsters smiling. My parents were sitting and talking about something, when they noticed me they stopped talking, again. I looked at them narrowing eyes. “Please don’t stop because of me” – I’ve said while kissing my father on the cheek- “Morning darling, I’m afraid it would not be interesting for you” – he looked at me – “so any plans today?” “You are right father” – I’ve said while kissing mother too- “actually yes, I am going out tonight” “Out?”- mother raised her eyebrow- “with who?” “Stephanie” – I sat next to father- “is that a problem?” “no”– she looked at me- "Aideen we were just thinking.."- she looked at father- "about ?"- I poured myself coffee- "maybe we could go out of town for a week or so"- mom said nerveously- "why?" - i took a sip- "is something wrong?" "no"- dad took moms hand- "we want to spend more time with you" "I am not a little kid"- i narrowed eyes- " and I can tell something is happening..tell me" " It's .."- mom got pale-"we need to talk but not like this" "mom"- i started to get frustrieted-" tell me" "maybe we should leave this for another time when we are not in a hurry"- dad shifted uncomfertably- "Now you got me intrigued"- I looked at mom- "you're right Tamiel.. better leave it for another time" "so you're not going to tell me?"- I asked raising eyebrows- "Later honey"-mom caresed my cheek-"gotta go now"-She got up- "I'm not going to let this go"- I shifted in my seat- " but ok we'll talk later are you both working today?" “Yes, you know that divine works cannot wait.” Yes, mother calls her work divine work. I got used to it a while ago. “Well then good luck” “One day you might even check it out for yourself” “Wouldn’t be so sure about it father”– I took an apple from the table- “you know I am all art, not interested in law really” –said while drinking coffee- “I think when you try it you will love it” “Mom you know my mind is set on art” – I bit an apple- “Anyways”– I got up -“I think I’m just going to go to studio and work some, don’t wait for me tonight” “Ok” – father got up too- “Don’t come home too late” “I will try not to, but no promises" – I laughed- “Bye honey” “Bye mom” – I bit another bite of an apple - I took the keys of my car and went to underground garage eating the rest of the apple. I took the car and drove myself to my art studio. Yes, my parents got me one as soon as they saw I love to paint. The rest of the day went in blur, as they usually do when I go to the studio. I was working on something great at the moment, it was a painting of an angel. It just came to me and I knew I had to paint it. Afterwards I went home and got ready for a night out. I put a black short tight dress and high heels and let my hair down. My hair was medium curly and it went down all to my waist. I’ve put on some make up and called a cab to take me to the club. As I came to the usual club I went inside. My friends are individuals made of very rich but smart persons, I dare to say most desirable persons in LA, and we know each other for years. So there are Stephanie, Seth and Victor. Stephanie has long black hair and deep green eyes, she is like a black Barbie. She looks so good that if she wasn’t my best friend I would probably be jealous of her. Seth is her boyfriend, well they are typical Barbie and Ken. And the last one is Victor, who is my on – off boyfriend. Actually, we are not dating, it is purely physical thing, not that my parents know because I think they would freak. So Victor is this gorgeous guy that moved from Great Britain, he is tall, black haired guy with amazing blue eyes. Tonight it was a girls night so just Stephanie and me. Drinks, then dancing, a bit flirting, and everything would be the same if he did not showed up that night. I was dancing with Steph when I felt his gaze across the dancefloor. Usually I just ignore gazes but this time it was different. I turned around and looked at him. He looked so good, he was a tall dark haired man, and I swear he was the sexiest man ever and was well aware of it. I stopped dancing and watched him, he dominated the room he was in, and I had a feeling about him, a feeling that told me he was trouble. He started to move toward us slowly through the crowed. I sipped a bit of my drink watching him move. He had deep black eyes and was all dressed in black, the clothes fitted him perfectly, and they outlined his body. “Hey, why aren’t you dancing?”- Steph looked at me-“what’s happening?” “It’s nothing” – I’ve said looking around because I lost track of him- “sorry… I zoned out” “Fine” –she smiled and continued dancing- We were dancing for a few minutes when someone bumped into me. I turned around and meet his gaze. “Looking for something?” – I asked boldly- “Actually yes”- he checked me out and smirked, than he just went forward - “Steph darling” – he pulled Steph into a hug- Wait ..they know each other? “Ed “– she hugged him back- “what are you doing here?” – she kissed him on the cheek- “Well we came out and when I saw you here” – he smiled grabbing her waist and showed his friend which stood behind him- “This is Chad” "Pleased to meet you"- Steph smiled checking him put- "The pleasure is all mine"- Chad took her palm and kissed it and than turned to me- "Well hello there"- he winked- "Hi"- I smiled- The guy was obveously a charmer unlike his friend. Don't get me wrong I was way more intrigued by that Ed guy eventhough they both look amazing. “I am glad you did”– she blushed looking at me- “well this is my friend Aideen” Is there something going on between them? “Aideen”– he articulate my name sensually but without even looking at me- “Interesting name” “Actually, it’s just Aide” – I’ve said irritated- “May I join you?” – He asked looking at Steph- “Yeah of course” – she answered almost immediately- “mhmm”– I have started coughing – “Can we talk?” She turned around and looked at me angry. I gave her my most irritated look. “Fine” –she touched his elbow- “I .. we will be back in the minute don’t go anywhere” “Don’t worry about me” – he kissed her quickly- I turned around and started going out hoping she will follow. When we got outside, I leaned on the wall and crossed my hands. She came out in few seconds. “What the hell was that?” “No” – I put my hands down-“I am asking that question to you? Who is that guy? “ “ I’ve told you, its Ed.” – she smiled- “And how do you know him?” “I don’t have to explain myself” “No, not to me you don’t. But there are two other people out here who maybe don’t want him to join us amongst them is also your boyfriend Seth who you do have to explain yourself to” “I know”- she squeak- “you are right, I am so sorry.” “Its fine” – I took a breath- “so what are you going to do?” “Well I really want to hang out with him” “And what about Seth?" -I've raised eyebrows- "ugh"- she pouted- "just don't tell him about what you saw and it will be fine" "alright but he will figure it out if you continue behave like that" "It's fine Aide"- she rolled eyes-" we had a fling but I am with Seth now" "That guy is a bit aloof, don't you think?” “No, he really isn’t. It just seem like that you will see. Come on lets go back.” “Fine..” – I rolled my eyes- She took my hand and we went back inside. He was standing right were we left him, the only difference was a glass of whiskey in his hand. I walked right passed by him to the guys and set next to Victor. “What is happening love? “– Victor pulled me closer- “Nothing “– I hugged him- “Are you sure?”- He whispered in my ear- “Yeah” – I kissed him- I spent time chatting and making out with Victor when suddently I felt his peering eyes on me. I moved away from Victor and looked at him. The rest of the evening past while we were exchanging looks, everyone seemed to like him, it felt like they accepted him right away and it seamed I reacted too quickly, Steph seamed to like him only as a friend. I on the other hand, was intrigued and also very irritated by him. At one point of the night we were the only one left at the table. Victor went somewhere and Seth just pulled Stephanie to the dance floor. Ed looked at Stephanie walking away with Seth. "You know that Seth is her boyfriend right?"- I asked taking a sip of my drink- "So what?"- he looked at me and smiled- "so what?! No boundaries I get it"- - I took another sip- "you're that guy" "That guy?"- he chuckled-" and what kind of guy is that?"- he shiftted towards me- We were sitting opposite of each other with the table between us. "I told you ...the one with no boundaries that goes after what he wants no matter what" He raised an eyebrow "Fine, you got me"- he smiled-" what about you?" "what about me?"- I moved towards- "what are you like?" "what does it matter what I'm like?" "Humor me"- he started checking me out- "I guess I have some kind of boundaries" "So you wouldnt go after what you want?" "No.. I would most defenitly go after what I want"- I turned my head left- He chuckled and lowered his eyes on my cleavage. "So do it" "What?"- I lowered the glass on the table- "You know what I mean"- he winked- "You're unbelieveble" - I got up- The guy is seriously messed up if he thinks that I would hook up with him after he spent the whole evening ogling Stephanie eventough she is here with her boyfriend. I moved away from the booth thinking about where could Victor be when he pulled me back. I brushed against his firm chest and felt a wave of warmth spreading against my skin where he touched me. I took a big gulp looking up to him. Damn, up close he is even sexier if that's even possible. "Don't touch me " - I've said as soon as my mind clouded trying to free myself from him- "Really? Because your eyes are telling me something else the whole night" Sh*t. I need to get away from him. Fast. "My eyes?"- I laughed- " wow ..didn't know you knew what other person eyes are saying.."- I pulled my hand away-" also eyes can talk?" - I chuckled- "beat you get a lot of girls with that" I didnt wait for his responce as I walked to the bathroom just to escape him. As I walk in I leaned on the wall feeling my heart beating so fast. I felt heat taking me over. He is hot, so damn hot. I went to the sink and washed my face trying to cool down. He must be a royal as*hole to try to hook up with me not longer after he tried getting with Steph. And I am actually really attracted to him. I never felt that warmth I just felt when he touched me. It felt all-consuming, like a fire burning everything that comes to its way. Damn. I shook head. Stop thinking about him, stop it. I looked myself in the mirror. You are not like that Aidee, you have boundaries. He was with Steph and seems like he still wants something. But on the other hand Steph has Seth now so maybe I could just...No...I stoped my though. I will not even think about it. He seems like he gets bunch of girls and I cant allow myself to be his one night stand. I am not that girl. I pulled myself together and walked outside. I want to the bar and ordered myself a shot as I drank it I felt someone watching me. I turned around and meet his gaze. He just sat there looking at me. A shot gave me strenght I needed to face him so I went over to him. “What is your problem?” “I don’t have any”- he smiled- “but you seem to do” – he winked- “Whatever” I was ready to leave when he pulled me by my elbow. When he touched me I felt that warmth again. “What are you doing?” “Why wouldn’t you stay?” Is he making fun of me? What the hell does he want? “Why should I?” “Answer a question with another one” –he raised eyebrow- “let’s say you could benefit if you would stay” “Benefit?” – I moved closer- “How could I possibly benefit from you?” He pulled me towards him and kissed me. It was a demanding, kind of passionate kiss, I never felt anything like that before. Honestly, I liked it but it didn’t feel quite right. Not only because of Steph and because of whatever they have, especially not for Victor. It was because I did not trust him, and something about him felt off so I just moved away. He started laughing. I looked at him weird and then I did what I felt like doing the whole night I slapped him, took my stuff and walked away. I could hear him laughing as I was going out, it felt like the whole club was echoing with his laugh. When I was out, I leaned on the wall biting my lip where a minute ago his lips were. I find myself thinking about that kiss, about his lips, about him. No, I shake those thoughts out of my mind.. why the hell am I thinking about him.. He is so arrogant, so aloof. I need to stop it, right now. What kind of game is he playing? It feels like he just wants to provoke me, but on the other hand… No, I need to stop it, right now. I took a few breaths and pulled myself together. After that, I took a cab home. When I got home mother was waiting for me outside in our yard. “Aide” – she called me while getting up from the bench- “Yes mum?” “What happened?”- she looked suspicious- “Nothing” – I lowered my shoulders- “just want go to sleep “ “Fine, we will talk in the morning” – she came and kissed me on the cheeks- “night sweetheart “ “Night mum “– I hugged her and went inside- When I was finaly in the bed, thoughts about him invaded my mind. For some reason he invaded my mind and my dreams. That was the first night I dreamt about him.