Torn

Chapter 17.-The agreement

After I had pull myself together I fixed my hand, but it didn’t help with my heart. Now I know she never did love me, I was.. I mean I still am her ticket to gain the power she always wanted. I felt so alone and small sitting there and crying my heart out. What will I do? She will not stop at this I just know it. Maybe I should go to Azazel, but then again he hurt me too. I wiped my tears away and went outside, one thing at the time. Right now, I just want to crawl to my bed and cry. As I got out I walked fast to the dorms hoping not to see anyone on my way. I don’t want to deal with anyone now.

“Lilith”- I heard Lucifer calling me-

I didn’t answer him just wanting to come to the dorm building quickly. He landed in front of me.

“Are you avoiding me?”- He looked at me- “What’s happening?”

“Nothing, just leave me be”- I walked passed him to the dorms-

“Don’t think you will be getting rid of me that easy”- he pulled my hand-

I flinched scared.

“Come with me”

“I don’t want to”- I ran to the dorms-

When I walked to the room Kali and Ever looked at me confused.

“Hey”- Kali said-

 I kept silence and threw myself to bed, pulling a blanket over me.

“Lily”- I heard Kali walking over-

“I don’t want to talk, please leave me”- tears went down my face again-

I heard some noise but I really didn’t care enough to see what’s happening. I spent the rest of the day hidden under the blankets. I couldn’t bring myself to get up, what’s even the point? I got a sudden urge to run as fast as I can, as far as I can. To the place nobody will ever find me.

The next day when I woke up I weighted my choices and decided not to show up at classes. Instead of that, I will be here, under the blankets safe from the outside world.

“Lily”- I heard Kali approaching- “are you sick or something?”

I wanted to lie I am sick but something wouldn’t let me, then I remembered Nathans words >Angels don’t lie< and realised it’s impossible for angels to lie.

“Or something”- I said- “Could you just let me be?!”

“Fine”- I heard footsteps going away-

Soon Ever and Kali went to class and left me alone. After some time I got up and went to shower, when I finished I went back to bed and just laid there. Someone opened the door, I felt his energy and immediately knew it was Lucifer.

“Lili”

“Please go away”

I heard the doors closing and felt him sitting next to me.

“I never heard you asked something that polite”- He pulled the blanket- “what’s up?”

“Leave me Lucifer, this is none of your problem so just go”- I pulled the blanket back on-

“Well”- he pulled the blanket back down- “it kind of is, and you helped me yesterday”

“Maybe I can’t be helped”- I rolled eyes- “and since when do you even help anyone”

“I can try and you’re not anyone”

“That’s just the problem”- I sat up- “I wished I was anyone”

“What are you talking about?”- He looked at me weird-

“Nothing, you’re not supposed to be here”

“Fine”- he got up- “don’t tell me but I am not going anywhere”- he looked around- “thank you for yesterday”

“Don’t mention it “- I wiped the left tears from my eyes feeling embarrassed-

”Why did you do it?”- He touched books on the table- “Why did you help me?”

“I just did. Must there be a reason why?”

“I suppose no”

“What will you do about your father?”

“I will deal with him”- he seemed worried-

I thought about it, remembering how he looked yesterday. He will just get beaten up again. He is kind of in the same position as me, his father and my mother won’t stop until they don’t get what they want, so why not giving it to them.. The most brilliant idea just came to me.

“That’s it”- I smiled-

“What?”- He looked at me weird-

“I have the most awesome idea”- I got up from bad- “what if we pretended to date?”

“If you want me you just have to ask”- he smirked- “no need for all of this”

“Shut up”- I rolled eyes- “I am serious, we could tell your father we are dating, I think it might blow up over time and then we can go our separate ways”

“Why would you do that?”- He looked at me-

“I have my own reasons”

“So”- he got closer to me- “if we do this..”- He stopped- “it will have to be believable”

“It will”- I nodded looking at him-

“So you have no problem kissing me?”- He grabbed my waist-

“No, but lets get one thing clear, this is only pretending”

“Cristal clear”- he lowered his head trying to kiss me when the door opened.-

Kali walked inside and looked at us.

“O.o I will came back later”- she turned around-

“No”- Lucifer moved- “I have to go anyway”- he winked- “See you around”

“Yea”- I nodded-

He went outside and I leaned on the column of the bed.

“You got some explaining to do”- Kali closed the door-

I looked at her.

“I think everything is pretty clear”- I sat on the bed-

“Yea no chance you’re getting out of this”- she sat next to me- “What was he doing here?”

“He came to talk”- I flipped my hear-

“About?”- She raised eyebrows-

“Well… us”- I took a breath-

“Us? Are you two us now?”

“No “- I shook head- “We will pretend we are”

“Why?”

“It’s so complicated”- I lowered shoulders- “I’m telling you so you don’t freak out if you see us together”

“I don’t think this is a good idea”

“Believe me”- I shook-“This is the best idea”

“If you think so”- she got up- “So are you done hiding?”

“I guess I am”

“Then you’re going with me”

“Where to?

“We will go to Dorians room and watch a classic movie”

Dorian, Finn and Damian all had room together.

“Really?”- I got up-“You’re obsessed with movies”

“I am”- she laughed- “Well, go on get ready”

“Alright”- I went to the closet- “Can you do me a favour and not tell anyone about what you saw?”

“Don’t worry”- she winked- “I am extremely good at keeping secrets”

I opened the closet and took out a pastel blue simple dress. I put it on and fixed my hair while Kali was getting dressed.  After we were done we went to their room. We all got on beds and watched some movie, I wasn’t actually watching. My mind was spinning, I was thinking about an agreement I have made with Lucifer. Did I made a mistake? I probably did but this is better than us dealing with our parents. After the movie I got up, looking around Ever was making out with Damian while Kali and Finn were sleeping.

“I think I will head out”- I said to Dorian whispering-

“What are you talking about?”- He whispered back- “stay”

“Umm thanks but I really need some alone time”- I hugged him- “see you”

“Wait”- he got up- “let me at least accompany you”

“Sure”- I smiled opening the door-

I got out and waited for Dorian to close the door. I felt Lucifers presence, turned around and looked straight to him.  He looked at Dorian and then me.

“What is happening here?”- He came close to me and put a hand possessive around my waist-

Dorian looked at us shocked.  I shoot a serious look to Lucifer.

“Stop it”- I whispered to Lucifer trying to move away-

He only pulled me closer.

“Are you two?”- Dorian asked still in shock-

“I am asking the questions here”- Lucifer said looking mad- “Why were you in his room?”- He looked at me –

“Ok”- Dorian nodded- “so I will just go back to room”

“Didn’t finish with you”- Lucifer passed him a look- “Well who will answer me?”

“We watched a movie”- Dorian said clearly uncomfortable-

“Just the two of you?”

Is he actually doing this? I felt rage building up, we are not together and I can do whatever I want, but somehow it seemed that he has some other opinion. I am so sick of this. I looked at him angry and moved his hand away.

“I will be fine Dorian, see you tomorrow”- I said and walked away.

Who does he think he is? I knew this agreement was a bad idea. I walked over to my room, glad the girls weren’t here, I really don’t want questions right now. I sat on the bad pissed when the door started opening and he walked inside.

“What was that?”- I looked at him-

“Exactly”- He closed the door and walked towards me- “what was that?”

“I will say this only once so get it into your head”- I got up- “We are just pretending to date, not actually dating”

“Really?”- He grabbed my waist and pulled me to him- “you really want that?”

I ignored his questions. He smirk, lower his head and kiss me passionately.  I wanted to push him away but my body took over. I pulled him by his shirt and he seem to like it. I found myself leaned on one of the pillars of my bed. He pulled the strap of my dress on my shoulder moving kisses on to my neck. It felt awesome, and while I really did enjoyed it, I weighted everything in my mind. It ended up with me pushing him away.

“Well”- He laughed- “that was fun”

I picked up the strap of my dress back up.

“You really need to stop this”

“Why would I?”- He looked at me-

“Because we are not together”

“So what?” We can always have some fun”

“No”- I said serious- “And you can’t act the way you did in front of Dorians room”

“I can do whatever I feel like, and I don’t like others getting near you”

“Are you jealous?”

“No. I talked with my father.”

“Did you told him?”

“Yes”- he nodded- “He wants us to come for the weekend”

“To Hell?”-I blinked-

“Where else”

I took a deep breath.

“Do we have to?”

“Well even I can’t say no to Satan so “

“Dang”- I ran hand through my hair- “fine”

“Fine”- he pulled me into a passionate kiss again-

My breathing got faster, his hands were all over my body. Once the things got steamy, he moved away.

“I will go, unless you want me to stay”

I pushed him towards the door.

“Next time then”- he winked going out-

I closed the door after him and threw myself on the bed. So apparently, I am going to hell to meet the Satan himself, that’s going to be awesome.