The Girl They Judged

Chapter One

Vanessa's POV

This is it, the last day of junior year.

Just 6 hours more.

It should be easy I guess.

Oh who am I kidding, these people will find different ways to make my life hell.

As I walk into math class I clashed into someone else.

All my books fall out of my grip.

For heavens sake I bumped into f*****g Zachary

Even his name makes people shiver.

This is the guy who's been to jail more than five times due to the type of things he does, he's not really a great guy according to everyone in this school. Yet the girls in this school still like him, no matter how bad he is, they'll always like him.

That's how our society rolls. Girls are taught to love the ones that hurt them, I don't blame them as the childhood myth went- 'if a boy is rude to you they like you'. That was most definitely a lie, I guess that's why they like guys who hurt them.

Zachary Collins, he had tousled dark brown hair, which was thick and lustrous. His eyes were a deep dark brown, yeah he was what you would call attractive and what all the girls in this tragic high school fell for.

He was all thorns and poison. Nobody would try to talk to him, it was only him and Adrian his best friend- they were both similar in many ways.

I forgot to say that he is a walking Greek God. (What's a w*****d book without this saying?)

Holy flip I shouldn't have been looking at the floor the whole time.

I just don't like watching people give me looks of disgust.

"MOVE!" Zachary snapped.

I did as he said. I would've smacked him right on the face if I had the confidence but I lacked that very thing- confidence was one of my imperfections.

As soon as I moved he looked furious while walking out of the school with his best friend Adrian.

Jeez I wonder what happened.

I spaced out and I forgot that people were laughing at me.

I'm late for class as well, I honestly hate my life so much, people just love to hate on me.

As I entered my Math class, people are doing the usual, calling me names and trying to trip me.

"Vanessa over here." My best friend Jelissa shouted.

I don't know why Jelissa is still sticking with me. She's popular, pretty and has a body like a model.

Whilst I'm just fat, ugly and I wear baggy clothes.

This is what I call loyalty. Loyalty was what I thought that I had with her.

She stuck by me since middle school, My only friend in my whole life. Since people thought I looked like s**t. I honestly don't get it? I'm just a few pounds heavier.

As I walk over to the seat I hear people chatting rubbish about how Jelissa and I are friends. The usual.

"Why does Jelissa hang out with her?"

"She's too ugly to be hanging out with Jelissa."

"Jelissa's friends with her but not us, we have everything whiles the fatass doesn't."

It's alright, I understand. She's skinnier, much more funnier. She's prettier, I understand why they would say those cruel comments because I would do the same to myself.

I was worthless.

As soon as I sat down, Jelissa's tells me about our plans for the holidays.

"Nessa, we're taking a flight to New York today, my cousin Hali will be there in the airport waiting for us." Jelissa whispered.

"Then what are we going to do?" I responded.

"We'll simply go over to her place and start to help you lose weight, I mean you're not even fat: you're just a little chubby, you can lose weight easily." Jelissa advised me.

"I honestly can't imagine my life without you." I said as she grinned.

She really does know how to up my day.

"These fools we call our high school comrades are actually so stupid, judging someone because they have a few pounds of weight extra is completely childish." Jelissa rolled her eyes as she glared at some of the people looking at us.

They can't seem to get enough of me.

"I just want to make them realise, hurting others wouldn't take away their pain."

"You sure will Nessa."

Little did I know, this was my first mistake. I was being a hypocrite, I wanted to get revenge on people and make them feel my pain. That was wrong, I was becoming like them.

* * *

During school I faced a few more obstacles. There was more tormenting than usual, I couldn't understand why people would insult me and try to destroy me even more.

They're trying to destroy something that's not there anymore. Enough damage has been done, I was done with their bullying, their stupid games. I had enough.

"Oh look, Vanessa." I recognised that voice, my heart dropped as I started to walk faster.

Laura. The girl who's purely the reason why bullying even exists in this school. There were many sheep in this school, they would follow Laura and her horrible actions, Laura is the type of girl to cake her face with makeup and say it's natural, I frowned as I felt her silhouette like nails dig deep into my skin.

I yelped as she pulled me back, I abruptly fell on to the floor due to the fact I'm clumsy. Tears had already started to fall, I looked up at her with wide eyes, she looked down at me with power as she smiled sweetly.

"I don't understand why this girl hasn't killed herself already, she's useless and literally a disgrace to this school." Laura gazed at me as students around her stopped to listen to her, I found a lot of them laughing and holding their phones out.

Laura then grabbed me up, "I can't literally hold this girl, that's how fat she is!" she squealed as students murmured crude insults.

This school was the example of darkness, there was no light. The people here were not theirselves, they fed on darkness to find light. They try to be people who they are not, they try to convince themselves that they're good people. I could see through their lies.

I noticed my brother Tyler standing with his friends. Tyler looked at me sorrowfully, he's not my brother. Tears slipped down as I clenched my fists, if he were my brother he would've shouted at Laura. He would've defended me.

Laura looked at me once more. "I'd like to see you show your face in senior year, fatass." She slammed me onto a locker, I looked around as nobody walked up to me to help me. I dizzily fell on to the floor.

Shaking. I touched my head and felt a liquid, it was blood.

I will become a better person, I'll get back at each and every one of them. If destroying them is what I have to do, I was willing to do everything to get them back for all the pain.

* * *

"Vanessa! Get up, we have a flight to catch in three hours." I groaned as I struggled to open my eyes, I looked up to find Jelissa.

"What? What happened?" That's when I realised where I was, I was in my room. How? The last time I remembered I was at school.

"Nothing, you were at home sleeping and I was trying to wake you up." Jelissa told me as I looked at her confused as I got out of my bed.

Who brought me home?

I was still wearing the clothes from this morning. That meant the bullying did happen, Laura slamming my head into the locker had happened. I shrugged those thoughts away and I looked in the mirror.

I mentally cringed at the sight as I washed my face, gingerly I touched my head, pain was all I felt in that area.

* * *

Jelissa and I were currently at the airport.

We were waiting for her cousin Hali, I've met her a couple times before, she was a personal trainer- pretty experience if you'd ask me.

Jelissa was talking to her boyfriend Seth.

"Yup we're here." Jelissa smiled.

Jelissa and Seth have been dating since middle school, Seth used to go to my middle school; but then Jelissa and I separated from him as we went to a different high school, they still kept contact after going to different high schools. How is that even possible? You don't know when someone cheats on you, you don't know if something dodgy is happening. You're completely unaware of what your boyfriend is doing behind closed doors.

Tyler didn't take a lot of convincing to let me go to New York, but in the end I ended up convincing him; he doesn't really like Jelissa; apparently to him she seems really fake.

Honestly Tyler doesn't care about me, judging by the way he's annoyed with the fact of my appearance it makes sense where I stand.

On the other hand my mother took a lot of convincing , well my father; I don't care about him.

"Girls!" I turned around to find Hali, she walked towards us.

"Hey." I smiled as she looked at Jelissa.

"It's been a long time." Jelissa looked at Hali and hugged the day lights out of her.

"Let's go to my place, we have a lot of work to do." Hali winked as she helped Jelissa and I with our luggage.

* * *

"You ready?" Hali asked me as she placed a huge bag in front of me, I looked around the place and frowned.

So much equipment and things related to working out, I hated it already since I wasn't the type to work out.

"I guess?" I questioned myself, I'm not the type of person who's a fond of exercising. I just love eating and watching Netflix shows.

"I want you to last two minutes on the treadmill, but on the fastest mode." Hali said as I nodded my head. I walked over to the tread mill and tapped on the fastest speed.

Come on Vanessa, you want to help yourself.

As soon as it started I started to walk, then it went fast really quickly, which made me fall on the ground.

"Get a grip on yourself Vanessa, you have to try your best." Hali encouraged me.

"Okay." I said before going back onto the same treadmill.

"The key is to match the speed of the treadmill, try to keep up." Hali advised me as I nodded my head.

After a billion tries I was able to go on the treadmill successfully without falling over. It was quite simple.

"Well that's one aspect of cardio, let's try other methods." Hali said as I followed her into another room.

"Why?" I asked her.

"Cardio is good to help you lose weight, but strength training will also help you lose fat and build lean muscle." She said as she walked into a room full of mats.

"Twenty push-ups, go; I'm timing you." Hali exclaimed.

"How the hell do you do push-ups?" I questioned.

"Seriously Vanessa? You don't know how to do push-ups, guess we have a lot of work to do." Hali shook her head as she sighed.

"I should just give up." I said as I sat down on a bench next to me and sighed.

"Hell no, with me as your instructor; you won't." Hali said as she sat down next to me.

"There's no point." I muttered.

"Don't want get back at the people who hurt you?" Hali asked me.

"What will I gain from it?" I mumbled.

"You'll gain satisfaction." Hali responded.

"Nothing's working for me, I haven't shredded any weight." I said as Hali rolled her eyes.

"Because we just started." Hali said as she grabbed my arm.

"If you want to lose weight you're going to have to take me seriously, we can't just have those give up vibes; girl think ahead." She said as she patted my back.

"Let's do this then." I said with a slight boost of confidence.

* * *

After training with Hali for the period of two months I finally lost the extra weight I've been bullied for. Hali wanted me not to loose weight in a week because it's apparently unhealthy, so we took our time. After loosing the excess weight I had I realised that I wasn't even that fat.

People made me think that I was massive, it was inadequate of me to believe them.

"So you ready to learn how to wear makeup? You barely need it." Jelissa asked me.

This was my second mistake, I decided to change how I looked.

"I just want to know how to do simple tasks like makeup so I don't have to worry in the future." I said as Jelissa nodded her head as she dragged me along with her to Hali's bedroom.

"We've got a lot of things to do." Jelissa said as she grabbed a thread and some tweezers.

"Are you going to pluck my eyebrows?" I asked her.

"In order to have to have the perfect eyebrows we're going to have to do this." she said as she threaded my eyebrows.

Beauty hurts.

"Finally we're done." she said as she plucked one last hair.

"Oh my gosh my eyebrows look clean?" I said as I touched my eyebrows and hissed at the pain.

"It's red for now, it will get better." she advised me as she wiped my brows.

"We also have to go shopping for makeup, then I'll teach you how to apply it; that should take about two weeks." she said as I nodded my head.

"Two weeks? It takes that long?" I asked her.

"A average human spends 13 years trying to learn how to do their makeup, I'm going to teach you it within two weeks, so chill girl." Jelissa said as she grabbed her purse as we both left Hali's house and towards the mall.

After three hours of torture at Sephora we arrived back to Hali's house.

"Jeez girl, does it take that long just to find makeup?" I said tiredly.

"Yeah if you haven't touched it at all, literally we had to search for your foundation shade; concealer shade and some makeup that matches your skin tone." Jelissa said as she grabbed some of the bags of makeups.

"I guess, does it take long to apply makeup?" I asked her.

"Not necessarily, well if you struggle with eyeliner; then yes." She chuckled.

"Eyeliner seems easy." I said as Jelissa looked like she was going to die.

"My child, you have a lot to learn." She said as she patted my back.

* * *

Jelissa had taught me everything about makeup, well I'm not the very best but I could do my eyeliner.

It was really easy, even Jelissa was shocked when I applied it with ease; I guess you need a steady hand.

I was a pro and plus I could apply my wing eyeliner without messing it up.

For once in my life my wing eyeliner was on point.

I was now wearing a white crop top: paired with a leather jacket and black high waisted jeans: who could forget the black heels?

I forgot to say that I can walk in heels without tripping, hell I can even run in heels.

Why am I trying so hard? Why am I joining the clan of people who want to look like how society wants them to look like?

I want to do it for revenge, but I feel like I'm going to turn into someone different.

I had some wing liner on and a nude lip on, I guess I was okay. I didn't bother with foundation, it was honestly a waste of time. Jelissa said that my skin is really clear, that I don't need it.

Once we got our luggage checked we walked towards the waiting room for the passengers family members or friends.

My brother was standing with my mother. Since when did Tyler care about me? He never did, he never tried to care.

But before I could approach them I was about to slip but a pair of muscular arms had caught me.

I look up to see Xavier Jackson, one of the most popular guys in my high school.

How cliche? It doesn't make sense how he's here, possibly he's waiting for some family.

I coughed awkwardly as I got myself out of his grip.

However he stood there checking me out.

"I have somewhere to be, mind giving me some way?" I asked him politely, holding myself back from throwing a sarcastic comment.

"Hey I'm Xaiver, what's your name?" Xaiver looked at me with that typical playboy smirk.

He ignored my polite gesture, great! I realised Xavier was in on the bullying as well, I send him a quick glare before shoving my way past him.

"Don't bother." I said harshly as I walked towards my mother and brother who had an unbothered look.

My mother was holding a sign which said my name, I took a deep breath.

"H-Hey mom." My mother looked at me wide eyed, my brother on the other hand furrowed his eyebrows together.

Tyler scoffed. "You can't be serious, you left to New York to look like a stripper, unbelievable."

I bite my lip, my mother scowled as she looked at Tyler.

"Tyler apologise now." she muttered harshly as he rolled his eyes. "No, can't you see what she's become?" he retorted.

"Look at yourself Tyler, I thought you would've been different- it's hard to realise my own brother is just like other people, you're a toxin and people like you deserve the worst." I hissed barging past him, I thought he wouldn't say anything after that but he did.

"How hypocritical? You got a whole makeover for what reason?" he paused, "To become like everyone else, good for you Vanessa! You're not you anymore, you're someone else." he babbled, he's wrong. I'm not someone else, I'm still myself.

Tyler is just an inconsiderate jerk who only cares about no-one but himself.

* * *

The car ride home was silent, nobody spoke. Tyler avoided my gaze as I looked out the window. Tears were wanting to fall but I held them back, my own brother. My own brother never appreciates me for what I do, he doesn't like being around me.

I left the car as quickly as I could as I rushed towards my house and opened the door.

Home sweet home.

I walked upstairs into my bedroom.

I ran into my bathroom and removed my makeup.

After that I changed into my pyjamas and got into my bed ready to watch many episodes of pretty little liars.

iconic.