Bane of my existence

Chapter 9-Luna

Many days had passed since I last met Bane, I had no way of contacting him although I knew where he lived , I couldn’t just drop by unannounced. Meeting him felt almost surreal now and going back to my mundane everyday life felt like I was forcefully snapped out of a beautiful dream. Tonight was no different.  I reclined onto a chair, in the balcony of my room, gazing into the sky above. The moon was high up in the sky and the moonlight pouring gently onto the earth illuminating whatever lay in It’s path. Few clouds lined the sky but there were barely any stars to be seen. The night air was crisp and cool, blowing gently, carrying with it the scent of the roses from my mother’s garden and the wet scent of the forest beyond our house. Somewhere in the distance I could hear the shrill sound of the cicadas along with the occasional hooting of the night owl. The sounds were interspersed with an almost deafening silence in between.

I loved nights like this. I liked sitting out here on my own with my thoughts. It was times such as these that allowed me to gain perspective of the things going on in my life. I was grateful for moments like these because I’ve always felt like I was being left behind. My friends and everyone that i know have been doing something with their life and moving closer to their dreams each day, but here I was , an adult , and i had no idea what i wanted to do with my life and therefore it always felt like the world was moving forward but i was stuck in the same place. This fear of being left behind, not knowing who you really are and what you really want, was engraved in my heart for as long as I could remember. But it was nights like this, which provided me solace from everything .All my fears and my worries faded into thin air and I felt truly at peace. The feeling was inexplicable.

I had always been a very private person and I rarely opened up to people except for a few closed ones, but with Bane, I’d felt an instant  connection, almost  as if we’d known each other for ages. I wanted to bare my soul to him and It felt like he wanted to do the same. But the truth of the matter was, we’d only really met, so why was I feeling this way? What was this intangible and inexplicable feeling ?  I was left perplexed and in a daze since the day I met him and I wanted nothing more than to get a grasp of my own feelings but didn’t know how. So here I was confused, my mind in a frenzy and my stomach in knots for I didn’t know where and when I’d meet him next.

My reverie of thoughts was broken by a sound, faint at first and slowly becoming louder. It sounded like the crunch of dry leaves and the snap of twigs like as though someone was walking on it. I got up startled and tried to discern the source of the sound. Everything fell quiet for a moment and all I could hear was my soft breathing and nothing else. I stood there frozen for a moment, straining my attention, when I heard it again. The soft crunch of the stones and the leaves underneath someone’s feet while walking, it was unmistakeable. I figured out where the sound was coming from and looked in that direction. There in the shadows of the woods it stood, green eyes, gleaming in the moonlight, staring at me. I could feel the tension slowly rising in my body as I stared into those sinister pool of bright green. It was a wolf, but bigger, almost about five times bigger than a normal wolf. From where I stood, i could see the silhouette of it’s body merging with the shadows of the the trees behind. It bared it’s fangs and snared almost hissing. I wanted to scream but no words would leave my lips.

I stood there frozen, both awestruck at the magnificence of the creature and frightened at the same. The wolf inched closer as if wanting to approach me, but another minute passed and it turned and retreated as suddenly as it had appeared, slowly and stealthily fading into the darkness before disappearing completely.