Love me or Leave me

Chapter 15

*Sean POV

It has been the worst few months, I craved for her touch, I longed for her body, she is my drug, and I am addicted.

I'm a complete mess I can’t focus, eat, sleep I out of my own control how does she undo me like this - why can’t I find her

I've been to that club every weekend with longing of hope, that I'd get to see her again, but she never showed, no one knows who 'Tiana' is they asked for a picture and unfortunately, I never had one except my mental image of her that hasn't left my brain the club did not even have footage because of them being new they didn't have cameras up yet

'How is that possible? - I can never get her image out of my mind - her light brown hair till the middle of her back, her green eyes, her adorable, cute - very kissable lips, her body' yes her body

I've had a few women after that night, trying to fill that hunger - that void that lays dormant, waiting, hoping to feel something anything, yet I'm still left empty, I don't feel anything that I had felt with her and I have slowly lost my touch with reality. She consumes my thoughts day in and day out I'm struggling to focus, sitting behind my desk looking at my monthly sheets

"f**k" I mutter quietly to myself my head leaning against my hand and elbow on the desk with a pen in my other hand trying to see where I can fix things, I've left things to crash down around me and failing miserably to stay afloat, I was running on over drive, I was letting everything fade away even my own business (I.T company).

I've made up my mind I can't keep on like this I need to get my s**t together, should the time come, I'll find her if our fates are meant to cross paths again and this time I won't let her go

I had one of my best guys searching for any sign of Tiana but we always came up empty handed, it was as if she never existed if only I knew her last name not even Andrew could find his girl and he is a tech genius

Suddenly pulled from my thoughts as a hard knock pounded on my office door

"Sean I'm sorry but there is no sign of her you don't know her last name nor do you have a picture of her " Jimmy said as he sped walked to the front of my desk

"how does a person just vanish" I asked Jimmy sighing

"Sean, I honestly don't know what to say my friend, she's gone and there is nothing else I can do I have search high and low" he says walking around my desk laying his hand on the top of my shoulder squeezing slightly I breath out harshly sighing again

"Jimmy, I need help I need to focus again look at these figures, I've slipped I-I I've f****d up everything" I say handing him the page in front of me.

"s**t this bad my friend" he mutters to himself looking at the documents, but I heard him

"yes, Jimmy it's that bad how did I mess s**t up this bad" I say

"Sean you need to focus if it's meant to be you'll find her again but right now you need to pull your head out of your backside this is your reality check" he reply's handing me back the pages

"I know, I know listen I have a meeting tomorrow and I need you to come with me please" I say looking at him

"Fine but you owe me and I know what the payment can be" he says,

I raise my eyebrow knowing it's a date with his sister for some reason she always asks him to ask me

"mmm and what would that be...... a date with your sister" I said sarcastically looking at him but the sly grin on his face told me that was it, he just nodded his head

"fine, fine I'll do it but don't come running to me if she tells you all the details of what happens" I say putting my hands up in surrender, he starts to choke then cough

"please bro whatever you do keep it to yourself and just by the way she know about this girl you had me search for you were a real jackass treating people like s**t so she always asked what I was searching for so I told her" he says and my mouth hangs open in disbelief and he still wants me to go out with her

I seriously need to rethink this but she will be a good distraction keeping my mind off of the one that slipped through my grasps while I pick up my company again, rebuild it to the way it once was..

"close your mouth dude seriously I don't even want to know what's going through your mind" Jimmy says pulling me out of my thoughts once again

"No, No it's not that Jim I was just thinking about this meeting tomorrow if we pull this off we will be A for away I'd get us out of this situation and back on our feet" I say with a serious look on my face

He turns to walk out of my office

"be ready by 9.30am then we can go and get things done" I say he nods in understanding but quickly reply's

"your date with Gabby will be tomorrow night so you can't back out" I look at him with a small smile on my face

Laying my head against my chair just thinking about her the image of her body, her face, her eyes, and I'm lost in my own little world...

The next day the meeting went great, I signed sealed delivered and got the contract I require to get things back on track sitting in the car while Jimmy drives us back to the office.

"Jimmy we did it bro....... any chance of backing out of tonight I doubt I'd be good company" I say looking into the review mirror I can see his smile on his face as his eyes meet mine

"oh no you don't, don't you dare do this to me I already told her and you have to stick to your side of the deal dude, she'll have my balls cut off if you cancel and I don't want that, you have to go" he says

"yeah yeah OK fine I'll go but I'm doing it for you so you can keep your balls intact, you'll need them one day" I reply laughing he starts laughing to

"thanks now keep my balls out of that mind of yours and focus on your own, you going to need it" he says smirking at me...

I look at my watch in the restaurant waiting for her to show up, I hate people that aren't on time the waiter walked over and asked if I'd like to order another

'whiskey on the rocks please' he nods and heads off the door opens and I see this women walk in blonde hair tight red dress and my mind runs straight back to that night that I saw Tiana the same height just different curves and hair colour.

I slowly remove my hand off the table and place it on my pants underneath the table as I feel my manhood rise up

Why on earth would she wear a red dress I didn't even notice her standing and the table giving a small cough for me to notice her presence, I shake my head from the images of Tiana going through my mind I gesture her to take a seat

"Hi, I'm Sean" I say taking her hand for a hand shake then gesturing for her to take a seat

"Hi, I'm Gabby, and before you say anything I know about the deal with my brother" she states

I'm already at a loss for words I clear my throat,

"Yet you still showed up after, is there some hidden agenda behind this date" I ask with a smirk on my face I hope she says yes because right now I'll do her in that dress, her cheeks go red and she grabs the bottle of water on the table,

"mmm lets get out of here you can have me for dinner" she says looking right into my eyes.

Darn this chick gets to the point and fast she doesn't have to tell me twice.

"Sure, why not" I say while standing, I leave cash on the table for the drink I ordered and the one I have already had......