About running away, I'm not anymore.
879 Words
I make my way to first period and plop down in my normal seat.
"Hey Ray," Jessica says as she sits in the seat next to me.
"Hey Jess" I reply with a huge grin on my face.
"What's that face for?" she questions.
"What do you mean?" I ask her, clearly puzzled.
"You just have this light in your eyes right now, your smiles real, and you were on time today," she says.
"Let's just say that my life is about to take a turn and change completely, " I tell her.
"Do you have enough to run away? I don't know how many times I have to tell you but feel free to stay at my house whenever you want to" She tells me and I nod my head.
"I know, I know. About running away, I'm not. My parents so-" I begin but stop myself before I can continue my sentence. I know she'll kill me or take this matter into her own hands and go to the police or something like that.
"Your parents?" she tries to milk out of me.
Thankfully before she can question me more, Mr. Forbes my math teacher walks in the room and begins class.
Eventually, it was time for me to go to my Da- I mean Mr. Carter's class and I couldn't be happier.
I decide to sit towards the front this time since last time I couldn't see anything let alone the board. Plus I wanna get the perfect view of Daddy's butt.
Am I now a pervert?
I pull out the books that I need for this class as well as my computer and boot it up. After I have everything out I grab my 'adult' coloring book since I can't really have a 'children's' one in school. I take out my colored pencils and begin to color.
I color for about a few minutes and then start to feel myself slipping under. I look to my left when I see someone sit down, its Jessica. However, on my right is none other than the schools biggest player, Mike.
He's been trying to 'get with me' for a while now.
I bite my lip, begin to kick my legs back and forth under the desk, and twirl my hair around my finger.
Apparently, Mike thought I was trying to be 'seductive' so he put his hand on my thigh. I instantly tense up as the memories of when my dad would visit my room at night come flooding in.
"Are you okay?" Jess asks me, breaking me out of the memories that were assaulting me not even seconds ago.
"I not otay" I say and she realizes I'm in my headspace.
Usually stressful things can trigger me to fall back into my headspace, I guess now's one of those times.
Jess puts her hand up and waits to be called on.
"Yes Jessica" Daddy says from the front of the room and I smile.
I love daddy's voice.
"Can I go to the bathroom, please?" she asks and he nods his head.
She grabs my arm and pulls me up but is stopped by my daddy.
"Why are you taking her with you?" He questions her and she peers down at me.
"She's uhh.. not in the right mindset right now and she needs to take a break" she says and Daddy's eyes widen as he realizes what she means by 'mindset.'
"Okay, take her to one of the bathrooms or something like that" He shoos her away and I go to grab for him but he shakes his head, making tears form in my eyes.
Before I can let them fall Jess pulls me out of the classroom and into one of the bathrooms
Once were out of the classroom and in the bathroom, I cross my arms over my chest and glare at her.
She took me away from Daddy.
I want my Daddy
"Don't look at me that way!! You were about to go all two year old in there!!" she exclaims, throwing her hands up in the arm.
My glare turns into a pout when tears refind their way to my eyes.
"I wan go bawk" I tell her and she shakes her head.
"I don't think that right now is a good time. People won't understand and they'll tease you" she tells me and I frown.
"Why dey tease me?"I ask her.
"Because what you're doing isn't normal. If not everyone does it then it's not normal" she tells me.
"I no nowmal?"
"it's not that you're not normal it's just that how you act isn't normal," she tells me and tears begin to stream down my face.
"I no nowmal" I say again, my voice cracking.
"No, No don't cry that's not what I meant," She says panicky. She's not good at comforting people while they're crying.
"I wan Daddy" I say and she frowns.
"I thought you hated your dad?" she says and I shake my head.
"No I wan Daddy," I tell her and her eyes widen
"Well, who is your daddy?" she asks me and I smile.
"it's a secwert" I say while whispering.
"Can you tell me the secret?"
"No I no allow to tewl anyone."
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