My Mystery Man

A Reason To Live

At this point, I was already frustrated! With uncertainties hovering over my thoughts.. I couldn’t seem to comprehend why he was acting like this.. this is the second time he is leading me on and stopping halfway.. but what could be going through his head? Why is he torturing me?? Why won’t he just take me or leave me the heck alone?  What type of man tortures a woman like this with no valid reason? what could be the problem.. he seems to be so much into me but he’s obviously stopping himself.. is this still about not wanting to be too forward with me? If so then I don’t mind at all.. or did I make a mistake coming here?? Is he even for real? What kind of man gets in this type of position with a stunning woman like myself and acts this way? 

Wait! I bat my eye lashes.. as if I just found a missing piece to the puzzle..  Is his manhood malfunctioning? And doesn’t want me to find out? But I saw a bulge! Heck! I even touched and felt it.

Okay, At this point I’m not responsible for the thoughts that are creeping in my head.. TED has left me with no choice but to think about worse case scenarios. 

As I’m sitting up with the covers wrapped all over my body and my head in my hands.. thinking of a thousand reason that could be the problem.. 

TED walks back to bed, Sits in front of me and  tips my head upwards gently.. Looking me straight in the eyes.. 

He looked at me wordlessly like he was searching through my soul.. finally he blurted the words.. 

“I need you to have a baby for me”.. 

I pause for a second.. waiting for the point where he’ll say Oh My God! I got you! But he looked darn serious.. with the question sinking in.. and realizing that he meant every word? I respond!

“What”? I looked up at him startled and in utmost confusion!! 

“What”? I asked again?? 

“Lilian, I know this sounds weird and to some extent absurd but I need you to have a baby for me.. he repeats . I’m sorry but I just couldn’t find a more subtle way to put it to you.. still looking at me with the most serious face..

I try to make sense of what I just heard? This is by far the last thing I expected to be the reason for his behavior.. I honestly didn’t expect him to be thinking of or even saying this  to me.. 

“Baby”? Like a life baby? A real  life baby”? Why? How? I stammer.. 

He then went ahead to tell me that he wants something to bind us together.. 

“You know before your arrival, I have been thinking of something that will keep you forever” I have wanted this for the longest time and I struggled to tell you about it” 

I respond.. “I know that people cross paths, become friends and lovers eventually.. date.. you know like an actual relationship for a while.. meet each other’s families and then decide to get married and be together forever before the baby comes.. as a proof of their love and companionship” so in my opinion, this is not the appropriate time to be talking about a baby.. TED.. I mean we just met! 

He objects immediately.. “No we have been together for a while now.. we only happen to be seeing Each other for the first  time now.. but we have known each other all this while” He says holding my hand.. 

“Look He continues,  I know you already feel upset about this but trust me a child is going to bind us together and give me a new reason to live” 

“Give you a new reason to live? Where’s this coming from”? I snap at him! And who told you a baby is the only way to bind us together? What makes you think we would automatically be together Forever  just because we have a child together? I mean I have seen several couple part ways even after having tons of children between them”

He doesn’t respond but looks sad and distant and gradually rises to his feet.. walking away and towards the window.. opening it and looking out in the night! 

A lot of thoughts come flushing into my head.. why are we having this conversation on the first night of seeing and being with each other??! Why can’t we just enjoy the moment?? It’s obvious that he isn’t telling me all there is to be said.. 

But how did I get me self into this? I’m sure that I don’t want a baby right now.. so I’m lost at how to handle this situation the best possible way without ruining things.. 

I get up and walk up towards him.. touching him gently on his bare back.. 

“TED” I call out to him.. 

Is there something wrong? Is there another reason  why you want a baby? You know you can tell me whatever is bothering you.. 

He doesn't respond or turn back to me.. he just kept starring out the window.. 

“Baby” I continue...

I want you to understand that I want to be here for you when you are having problems.. I don’t just want to be around for the good and happy times only.. I want to share your problems.. I want to be a part of it.. i know there’s a lot on your mind.. so whatever it is.. please let me in.. I’m here and I’ll promise I’ll listen to it all.. 

He turns around and I notice a little tear drop in his eyes.. alarmed, I call out to him.. touching his bare chest.. 

“TED” What is going on.. 

“I want you to have a baby for me please.. that’s all i want.. that is all I ask.. and I cannot bring myself to touch you until you consent to it please”.. 

Iam at a place in my life where the only thing i crave desperately is to have an offspring of my own with the woman I’m drawn to the most” 

“I understand “ I tell him.. but “How about we do it the right way I suggest in a whisper” but he tilts his head downwards.. 

Not wanting to watch him and his emotions on a rollercoaster this beautiful night..

 with a deep sigh.. and eager to get over this topic.. I lift his face up to meet my gaze.. “I’ll have your baby”

His face brighten up immediately and he pulls  me close.. kissing me yet again softly and then with intensifying passion..