My Soleil Et lune

WARNING: MATURE CONTENT "You're so beautiful" he said tracing his fingers along the frame of my face and caressing my thighs. "Shouldn't we get ready? Mum and Dad would we waiting for us" I said awkwardly and to stood up from where I was currently seated, on his lap. I felt something pull me back and in the blink of an eye I was back to my previous position. I was unable to find out what because I felt a sharp pain, like a thousand tiny needles stuck in my scalp almost immediately. "Wh-" "How.Dare.You?" The cause of my pain snarled and pulled my hair through the ends of the attachment which was currently braides into the popular 'ghana weaving' style—more to make me meet his gaze making the pain multiply and streaks of tears threatening to drop. Bringing my eyes up,I was met with the familiar piercing brown eyes. His gaze always made me feel like an artist being watched by thousands of fans. Every move observed, every step watched. My boyfriend of one year looked at me with the look I've tried so much to avoid since– The last incident... "I'm sorry" I quickly said as I saw his the familiar glint in his eyes showing that he was angry. Almost immediately his eyes softened and he let go of the powerful grip that he held on my hair. "I so sorry babe. I-I didn't mean to scare you...I-I...y-you just looked so...I just got really distrac-" " It's okay babe. I know. I know. It's fine" I said while cupping his oval shaped face in my hands and wiped off the stray tear that managed to escape from his tear filled eyes. "I love you" He said and looked right into my eyes—as if expecting something back. A reply. I wanted to give it back but it felt so....so–wrong? I pondered on it for some second before I finally settled with a classic 'hmm' and stood up from his lap once again. I wasn't able to go far before his 5"11 frame towered my petite 5"4 height. I felt my body tense up as I awaited the usual argument. I felt the usual cold feeling running up my spine and the instant sweaty feeling in my palm but still managed to hold my head up high, shoulders straight to pretend like his scary demeanor didn't faze me. But every single living fibre in my body knew where this was going. "I want you to say it back" he finally spoke the words that I had been expecting as I sucked in long, painful breath. "Baby, Mum and Dad are waiting for us down-" " I. Want. You. To. Say. It. Back" he said again, this time emphasising on each word like his last breath depended on the way he pronounced each syllable. "I-I lov-" I tried to say but it felt like each word were stuck unto the braces laced on the surface of my teeth. The words clung to my tongue like the cocklebur plant catching unto its next fabric prey. "Say. It. Back. Anita" He growled again and in a second pinning my neck to the nearest wall,depriving me of all the little oxygen I already tried to gather since I was approaching the all familiar panic attack. "Please-" I croaked out due to my deprivation of air as I felt wetness,run down my face,stopping slightly at my lips before continuing it's journey and finally dropping from my face, to wherever it's destination was headed. I opened my mouth in a futile attempt to catch some oxygen–even though just a little as I felt my conciuousness slip away by every passing second. All I managed to get was a drop of the coward tear that clung unto my lips earlier as I felt the salty taste on my tongue. He finally let go of his grip on my neck and by reflex action,I sucked in as much oxygen I could in the dime second I had before my body was thrown against the bed like a magician flipping a coin for his next trick. Almost immediately I felt his powerful frame envelope mine as he joined me on the bed,restricting any movement I currently had as I tried to escape. After some struggling and muffled screams as his hand covered my mouth firmly, almost too violently, to my not-so-much of a surprise, he won as I felt the restricting feeling every time I tried to move my wrists. I tried some more, hoping that an almost impossible miracle could happen. I promise to run away this time O Lord! Please don't let this happen again. I chanted the words in my head over and over again, hoping for an angel, guardian– anybody to save me from my living hell. As usual, no one came as I felt the familiar piercing feeling transport through my system, making me feel the pain almost everywhere. "f**k you're still so tight" he grunted as he forcefully pushed into me once again. I tried to free myself but which each forceful movement I made with my wrists,I felt the stinging pain of the cuffs piercing into my skin. I screamed but all my screams were muffled and turned into incoherent words with the gag previously out on my by my abuser. "Shut it would you now? We don't want my dear parents hearing what sort of a bad girl their future daughter in law was" he said as he continued to thrust into me, painfully, never ending as I felt my body go numb. I couldn't feel anything else but the excruciating pain in my core as freshly gathered tears started to pour freely. "f**k I love you...You love me too right?" He asked as I just nodded, not proving stubborn this time. " Hmmm...That's my sweet sweet girl. I f*****g love you" he continued to whisper sweet profanities that only came out of his mouth during situations like this as I kept on counting. Counting the seconds like I always do. 1080 1081 1082 1083 I kept on counting until I felt his thrusts getting stronger and powerful also not denienlly painful—showing he was coming close to his release. "Fuuuuuuuccckkk" he grunted as he came inside and pulled out as I felt the familiar warm liquid pour out of my core. He uncuffed me and removed the gag on my mouth and kisses my sloppily before standing up from the bed. I heard the door of the bathroom open and heard the shower go on while I just stayed there staring at the ceiling with no thought running in my head. Void. That's all I could feel. After some minutes I heard the shower go off and heard his footsteps approaching the bed. "Baby" he cood and kissed my all over my neck making sure to leave the usual love bites which were usually obvious because of my fair complexion. "I'm sorry I had to do that baby" he finally stopped after some minutes of 'claiming his property' like what he was normal call his reason for giving me those live bites. "I just got so angry that you wouldn't still say you love me. It's been one f*****g year baby. Just say it already" he said,taking his seat on the bed as he facing below my abdomen. I felt something cold on my core making me realize he was cleaning the mess he made with baby wipes like he always did. "You love me baby don't you?" He said purposely applying pressure on my now very sore v****a causing me to immediately wince. "I do" I let out in a croaked voice that almost screamed 'i surrender' "That's my baby girl" he said finally removing his hands from between my legs and I let out a breath. I heard some shuffling signalling he was getting dressed back as I sat up from my lying position on the bed trying to fix my red dress which was currently showing my breast on display due to how he shoved my breasts out of the neck line during his 'acts'. "Oh no no no baby. Don't do that. You're too sore right now. I don't want you limping in front of my parents and letting them know I just f****d you senseless. You just rest here and I'll tell them you were feeling under the weather. That's why I came out so late. Okay?" He said while embracing me and putting my head in his shoulder while he rested his on mine as he stroked my hair. You could actually think he was a loving boyfriend just by this view "Okay baby? You answer me when I talk to you" he said snapping me out of my trance as I nodded my head to reply him "Good girl" he whispered into my hair. "Are you still on the pill?" He asked me and I nodded no as I already stopped the pill like he ordered me the last time when he saw a pregnant woman on i********:. He said pregnancy would look good on me too and told me to stop the pill so I'll get pregnant. He was drunk and high that day and knew he didn't mean it but I still wouldn't dare to go against him since I knew the... consequences. "Fuck...I totally forgot" he said before stretching to the bedside to retrieve something. "Take this" he said, throwing the pill to me which I used right in front of him. "Mum and Dad would come visit you before they leave. You had a very intense stomach cramp right?" " Yes" I replied " Good girl. I love you" He said giving me one of his sloppy kisses " I love you too" I replied as I already knew better. Once I heard the familiar click signalling he'd already left the room, I finally let the tears that had been threatening to fall, flow freely as I cried my self into sleep that night.