I know it's only this time 30
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Chapter 30,
Rachel's POV:
I don't know why I'm like this. I knew this was going to happen, but why does it hurt so f*cking much? Tori was trying to make sure that I was okay. I wanted to cry, but I didn't like crying in front of her. I don't want her to feel pity for me. Then she told me he was here - she was going to give us thirty minutes. I kinda wish she would stay while he was here, but then a part of me hoped she would leave. When she left, he came into the room, shutting the door behind him. I pulled my knees to my chest, putting my head on them. I felt him sit on the bed beside me. Then he pulled me to him. Why is he doing this? All I wanted him to do was more than just hold me - make this my last time with him.
"Rachel, I can't do this. I just can't leave you like this. I love you. I'm sorry. I fell in love with you," but I didn't let him finish. I smashed my lips to his. I knew this was the only and last time I could ever have him like this. I knew, and I still did this. He didn't pull away; he deepened the kiss. Then he pulled away and looked at me.
"I want this, Rachel, but after this, we can't anymore. I'm sorry." I didn't say anything. I nodded, and then I said, "I know, but I want you. Even though I know this is the only time I still want this." I didn't say anything more when he laid me on the bed, kissing me, taking my clothes off, and then his off. We had s*x for hours. Even when Tori knocked on the door, she knew what was going on. She could probably hear us, but I didn't care. I wanted him. I wanted to feel how good he was inside of me. And trust me, this was amazing: the way he kissed my body; the way he pushed inside of me, sucking on my n*****s, biting them, and nipping at them. He lifted my leg to go in deeper. I moaned out his name, my breasts bouncing. Oh, my goddess, this was amazing. When we were finally done, we fell asleep. When I finally woke up, he was gone, but he did leave a letter.
"I'm sorry, but I had to go. I will always remember this time. Farewell,
Cord"
I knew this was the end. I hurried to the shower. Turning it on, I slid down, letting the water hit me. I started crying. Tori came into the bathroom, getting in with me. She held me while I cried. She rocked me back and forth. When I was finally done crying, she turned the water off, put a towel around me, and then walked me to the bedroom. We sat at the end of the bed. She listened to me cry and tell her what had happened.
"I loved him, Tori. I didn't think I could fall so easily, but I did. I loved him. I wanted this to happen." She sat there listening to me. She didn't judge me. She didn't say anything. When I fell asleep again, she covered me up, then let me sleep.
Tori POV
I wanted to kill that fu*king bastard, hurting my fu*king sister the way he did. I knew this was going to happen, but it still didn't make me not want to kill him. When I gave them thirty minutes, I should have stayed in the bedroom with them. But nope, I went downstairs with Bear. He held me, trying to calm me down because he was up there with her. The thirty minutes were up. I hurried upstairs, knocked on the door. I knew what was going on when I heard moaning. f*****g s**t, why was she doing this? She is just going to hurt more. But if I went in there breaking it up, it would just hurt her more. Sighing, I went back downstairs.
"Are they doing what I think they are doing?" I nodded and then said, "They love each other. This is their goodbye to one another. Just let them do this. His mate doesn't know he hasn't marked her yet. I just hope he showers before he goes back to her." He was up there for hours. When he finally came down with his hair wet, good he showered. We don't need the drama.
"I'm sorry, I know you said thirty minutes, but we needed this. We are each other's first. I loved her, Tori. Please don't hate me."
"I don't hate you, but you need to go to your mate now. It's a good thing you showered. Now go to her and be good to her, be loyal and try and love her. I know it's going to be hard, but just try." Oh, I hated this man with all my guts, but if I killed him, my sister would hate me. I watched him leave. I sat there with Bear for a few more hours, then I told him I needed to go see her.
"Go, and I will be up in our room, okay?" I nodded as I ran up to her room. Opening the door, I heard the shower going. I walked into the bathroom; she was on the floor of the shower crying, so I got in there with her while she cried. When the water got cold, I helped her dry off, get dressed, and then walked her to the bedroom. We sat on the edge of the bed while she cried and told me what had happened. She wanted this, she wanted it to happen. I sat there, and I didn't judge her. How could I judge my sister? She was a woman in love. Once she fell asleep, I covered her up and then went to my room. Sighing, I sat on the edge of the bed with tears in my eyes.
You know, I have never seen my sister like this. Yeah, she had a boyfriend in Paris, and he hurt someone. I had to protect her, lie to the police telling them she was with me the whole time. It took a while, but they finally believed us, and they only arrested him. But this, this right here, I don't know how to protect her. I don’t know how to protect her from heartbreak.
Maybe you don't have to, honey. She's going to hurt for a while, and then she will be stronger from it. Of course, she is still going to see him when he brings that girl to the pack, but I'm going to keep her busy so her heart will heal.
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