Give Me My Alpha

RUTH'S POV I felt dizzy. I felt like I was in a crazy dream and it was going to take a lot of time and efforts to wake me up. The ache in my skull increased and flowed like a cold tide as I looked around my surroundings while my head was pounding. Why did I have to drink so much? An electric current flew through my spine. I couldn't recognize where I was. I was in a room. My eyes adjusted to the dimly lit room. I was wondering where the f**k I was. I couldn't remember. I don't remember coming to this room. I groaned and wiped the sweat off my face. The alcohol was still burning in my system. I moved and felt a hot breath at the back of my neck. An enormous hand was wrapped around my waist and I could feel it so strongly that it was hard for me to resist. I tried not to think of the hand, but it was hard for me to avoid the thoughts of it. I closed my eyes, hoping it was my father, and then my gaze was drawn to a naked man sleeping beside me. Not just any man. This man was Tom Lang. He was the ruthless alpha of a pack I knew and fear gripped me as I saw him. I couldn't move. "f**k!" I whispered, careful not to wake him up. I grabbed my golden mask from the nightstand and put it on. The magenta feathers accentuated my blonde hair. I just lost my virginity to Tom. My mother is going to kill me when she finds out. I couldn't help but notice his unique phoenix hair, and I stared at it. It was beautiful. I wanted to touch it. My hand moved towards his hair on its own accord and he wrinkled his nose. I stared at him with my heart in hand. His eyebrows rose and fell. I couldn't bear him seeing me. I reached for the nightstand and grabbed the nightlamp and smashed the lamp on his head out of panic. I didn't remember how I ended up in bed with him last night, but I know I was attracted to him in a strange way and I feel he felt the same. I tried to put my s**t together and look on the bright side of things, but I couldn't do that because I couldn't undo what I had done. Everything was a mess. Me having s*x with Tom Lang was a mess. My phone started ringing. I looked around the room and saw it on the floor along with our clothes that were scattered on the floor. I jumped out of bed naked and grabbed my phone from the floor. It was my mother calling. I couldn't pick up the call. My hands were trembling. Out of fear, I switched off my phone, grabbed my clothes from the floor, and ran into the bathroom. I was washing my face in the bathroom sink resting my hand on the stall. I had just given my virginity to an alpha who wasn't my mate. My head was still spinning. I heard the sound of the door opening. I took a deep breath and dashed out of the bathroom, running towards the door without stealing a glance at the man I really liked. I couldn't let my crush see me like this. Derek was my crush. He has been my crush since I set my eyes on him, but I just had a one-night stand with his alpha and he wasn't going to be pleased if he found out. "Hey! Wait up! Hello! Who are you?" Derek yelled. Why doesn't he want to give up? Does he have to talk to me? I hired a taxi home, where I met my dad, who was scolding me after paying the taxi fare. My father never scolds me. This is strange. I was looking at the floor, avoiding his gaze as I tried to think of a comfortable lie. "Look at me when I am talking to you. Where have you been?" He asked in a harsh tone. I gulped and looked up at him. I couldn't say a word to him. "Don't tell me you are coming from that place!" He ranted. "That is where I am coming from," I said. "I was so drunk last night I couldn't find you, so an alpha booked a room in the hotel for me to stay." I lied, hoping he would believe me. He gave me a cold glare before walking closer to me. He lifted my chin and sniffed me. "You smell funny, almost like a male's fragrance. Don't tell me you slept with one of the alphas," he said. His words pierced right through my heart and I felt wounded because I forgot to shower. "I didn't," I said, with a straight face. "Make me believe you!" "How will I do that?" "I don't know." I shook my head and left my father standing. I didn't know what else to say. * The cold was not funny, but I knew it was comfortable to be dealing with the cold than to be dealing with what was going on in my mind. One year have passed, and I couldn't stop thinking about that night I slept with the alpha, and I also couldn't stop thinking about what I did three months ago when I slept with the alpha for the second time in my life. I have become a bit bigger and I now feel the need to eat a lot, sometimes even throw up. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I feel like I am not myself anymore. Things just feels different to me now, and I am trying to figure it out, but I don't know what is wrong with me. "Hello!" My mother tried to draw my attention to what she was doing. "Your father told me something." "What is it?" I asked, gazing into her eyes.