Broken Girl

Breaking Free

Sliding my bag into the seat next to me I sat down in the middle of the bus and slipped my head phones into my ears and listened as the music said what my heart was begging me to say. Your probally wandering who I am, my story in this world and why I've decided to run, why this girl is running from her friends, her family and everything she ever knew. Tears began rolling down my cheeks as I realized how alone I was going to be. What choice did I have now I had already made my choice. I did what I should have done my entire life. I always wanted to get away to live a life for me not for the people I called my family. My faather was well known in our town, my mother was the outgoing friendly happy go lucky socialite, they atteneded church like it was the end of the world. There I was, the disgrace, the failure in a family so keen to keep everything towards traditon, I was the black sheep. In all fairness to them it wasnt their fault they tried to accept me but if your child did what I did Im sure youd be upset as they are. Im not like them. I tried to be I tried to pretend. Does that not count?

I didnt mean to be a disapoinment, I couldnt stop the dreams. I couldnt stop the messages or how I knew they were there even if no one could see them. Looking out the window on this gray hound bus I seen trees, woods, the place i felt wanted needed. inhaling a skaey breath I bit my lip and tried to control my feelings, my emotions, somedays I felt like a hurricane or a tornado my emotions were always at war just like my heart and head was. I was always strugling it seemed struggling with the person I was and the person I tried to be to please them, to please everyone.

One town sign, two,three. I feel the bus coming to a stop. Looking up at the sign I realize it must have been hours. I must have fell asleep deep in thought. Exhaling I stand up bite my lip grab my backs and place my cell into my pocket leaving my head phones in because I felt like I needed to escape. I walk down the aisle of the half way empty bus and get off. The cash I have should be enough until I can find a good or decent job and should be enough to rent a cheap place. I begin walking towards down, yeah the bus didnt stop in town it stopped at a diner a little over a mile outside of town. The road seemms empty I guess since they burned the witches they dont have alot of visitors here. Maybe this will be quiet. My converse were now begingint o actually hurt my feet, and my bag was actually feeling heavy. I stopped justt to breathe and took in the time of day the sun was now setting and dusk was begining which meant Id be safer now, now that Im fully aware of what and who I am. I piiick my bag up and begin again. Finally reahing town I find a cheap hotel just to shower and sleep. Laughing outloud as I read the sign, ''Crow's Nest'' I whisper mentally slapping my self I shrug and head into the main lobby to grab a key. As soon as I enter I noticed a pentegram above the woman dressed in a long skirt hanging on the wall. ''hmmm....'' I bite my lip and finally ask for a key. Her smile was beaming. She was close to my age but she had crows feet at the corner of her eyes. ''How may I help you Miss?'' Her voice was too sweet. ''Yes I need a room. Can you just put it under Hale?'' My voice broke I didnt want people to connect me here or atleast not yet.