Alphas mated to a human

Chapter 2- The past starts to be told

**** Contains reference to abuse****

I was awoken by the feeling of a hand on my forehead. I slowly open my eyes and look straight into the eyes of a young lady; her eyes were a captivating emerald green with strawberry blonde hair and a fair complexion. At first I was curious as to why she would be attending to me until I realized that she was a nurse. Her face changed from a scowl to a soft smile when she looked down and realized that I was awake.

“Glad to see you’re finally awake”

“What do you mean? I’ve only been asleep for a few hours” I respond, confused.

“Oh no my dear, you have been asleep for two days. It appears that your body had a reaction to the sedative and you slept for longer than you should have” the response shocks me, I felt like I had only been sleeping for a few hours. The nurse continues to do her checks and monitor me. After a while she leaves and Xander walks in straight away.

“Sorry little one, I would have been here but the nurse demanded I leave while she checks on you. About right, the one time I leave the room and you wake up” Xander says with a small laugh. He then comes and sits beside me, “how do you feel?”

“I feel really good, I don’t feel any pain at all. Can I be released now? I really want to go outside and go to town or the seaside or something” I respond, whining and pouting.

Xander chuckles, “trust you to get bored five minutes after waking up from a two day sleep. I’ll have a word with the doctor or nurse when they come back, at the moment I don’t want to leave your side.”

We then spend the next few hours just sitting there getting to know each other, such as favorite colors, places, memories etc. I discovered that Xander is 28 and has been looking for his mate for 10 years, and even though he has remained mate less for that long he did not give into the darkness of being mate less, instead he focused all of his efforts onto the pack, it was then I realized that Xander is the alpha of the pack. “WHAT! You’re the Alpha?? But then how are you able to spend so much time here with me? Won’t your pack be angry that you are spending so much time with me instead of them? What if….” I am silenced by Xanders’ lips coming crashing down onto mine. At first I resisted for two seconds then gave in as the feeling of electricity ran through my body. The kiss was amazing, Xander was soft and attentive but also a feel of his dominance came through in his kiss, which I found rather hot. We only broke away when we needed to breathe.

“Sorry little one but I couldn’t think of any other way to calm you down babe.” Xander looks as me worriedly while I sit there dazed, taking in what just happened.

“Xander….. That was an amazing kiss” My hand reaches up and gently touches my lips where Xanders’ mouth just was.

“That was the best kiss I’ve ever had. It was my first kiss actually” Xander looks down, a blush appearing on his cheeks.

I burst out laughing, wincing as pain starts in my ribs but unable to stop laughing. “No way! Someone like you, never been kissed before? Xander, I find that hard to believe”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, look at you” I then motion to the whole of him with my hand.

“What’s wrong with me?” All of a sudden all of his confidence is gone and he looks at me with a vulnerable look on his face and his eyes look like he is about to start crying. I am taken aback, how can this man, this God, be effected by what my words said? After all, in comparison I am nothing to him.

“You are amazing, perfect. Well-toned, handsome, your eyes are so beautiful that I could get lost in them and never want to stop staring and you have a wonderful personality. I am sure you have had loads of people throw themselves at you.”

“I have, but that does not mean that I have taken them seriously. I watched all of my friends fool around with others and then when they found their mates they were ashamed and I never wanted that, nor did I want my mate to feel like they were not enough for me or that I would be unfaithful. Therefore I kept myself from taking up all of the advances given to me.” Xander holds my hands as he says this, pulling me into his chest which helps to relieve the pain in my ribs.

“Damn, handsome, fun, amazing personality, alpha and now the perfect gentleman. I do not deserve you babe.” I hang my head as I know that the next question is going to spoil the fun mood, my first kiss was not fun. My first everything which should have been special was taken from me, I will be unable to feel the pride and pleasure in being able to wait for my perfect partner like Xander had done. All of a sudden I feel ashamed of myself, I am not good enough for anyone. I was once, but I am no longer worthy anymore.

“What about you? When was your first kiss?” Xander looks so excited, probably expecting a lovey dovey tale of wonder and love. Instead he will get a nightmare.

“Are you sure you want to know?” I hang my head, not able to look at him.

“I want to know everything about you, the good, the bad, the perfect and the damaged. Please little one?”

I take a deep breathe. I am sure he will not want me after this. But I also feel like it is time to get it off my chest, even if it is only a little bit of my past. “My first kiss…. I had always dreamed it would be magical. I would meet someone, we would click and then when we kissed it would be like there was nothing else in the world except for the two of us. However, fate is cruel. My first kiss was just over five months ago, it was the second night I was in Alpha Marks’ territory. Alex had successfully kept the alpha away from me on my first night and all of the day but then he was tricked into going on a mission or something, he was well out of the way by the time it got dark and Alpha Mark came to visit me. I was cuffed to the bed, unable to move, being fed which was really degrading when Alpha Mark stormed in and demanded the lady to leave. At first I thought he might be able to tell me the rules and then release me from the restraints like he had been promising. Instead he told me that as I was his mate I had a role and expectations to fulfill if I was to stay. I said that if that is all it took for me to stay then I will leave and he could find someone better suited for him. Alpha Mark went mental at this.

“He then stomped over to me, grabbed my face and looked into my eyes. I tried so hard to pull my face away, tears streaming down my face as I saw that his eyes were now completely black. He then forced his lips onto mine and kissed me with so much force. By the time he pulled away I had almost passed out from lack of breathe. At first I thought that was it, but then he told me that I was never to deny him again and that due to my little act of rebellion I was to be punished. Next thing I know I am laying on the bed with my clothes in shreds, Alpha Mark had torn all of my clothes, leaving me exposed. I tried to get him to stop, I begged him to do anything else, leave me restrained, chuck me in the dungeon, and even torture me. Anything but what I knew he was going to do…..” I my voice cracks as I break down sobbing.

“Xander….. He…. He….”

“You don’t need to tell me. I know that this is…..” Xander began but I knew I had to tell someone, “He r***d me. Repeatedly. That first time I ended up bruised, cut and with a broken wrist and a punch to the jaw. However, it turns out that my first kiss and first time was gentle in comparison to what he would go on to do to me. Over the next five months I was abused and r***d to the point where I would black out from the pain and wake up to Alpha Mark standing or sitting near me waiting for me so that he could continue. I am ruined, I am broken, destroyed beyond repair and I am no longer pure.” I break down, the stress, fear, pain and abuse from the past five months are finally starting to make themselves known. I don’t know how people survive this, I have read stories, news articles and heard things people have gone through and yet they come out of it strong. Instead I am a crying and broken mess.

Xander wraps me up in his arms and rocks me like a baby while rubbing my back and saying soothing words to me. After a while I hear the door to the room open but Xander sends them away, telling them he will mind link them when I am in a better state. After what seems like hours my sobs start to subside and I can finally open my eyes. Xander continues to hold me, neither of us wanting to move or knowing what to say.

“I am sorry, I should not have broken down like that. I understand if after learning that you don’t want me anymore. After all, your pure and perfect whereas I am ruined and destroyed.”

“Little one, you are not ruined or destroyed. You may be broken but do you know what is amazing about being broken?” I shake my head, still unable to look up. Xander places his fingers under my chin and raises my head up, “they can be fixed and when they are they are stronger and more beautiful than before. And that is what you will be. I may not be able to always help you as I do not know what you have been through, but anytime I or a situation becomes too much then tell me or walk away and later we will talk about it. Talking may help you heal as you will be able to get it all out there and heal.”

“You are amazing, how can you be so positive in the light of what I have told you?” I ask in wonder.

“Easy, you are full of darkness at the moment and I will be your light, guiding you out of the bad place you are in and into the light. I may not know what you have been through, and wont unless you want to talk about it, but I am here for you. If you don’t want to talk to me then I can find someone who will be able to help you.”

“NO!” I shout, surprising both of us. “I will tell you, and only you but in my time if that’s ok? You can tell others if you want or if it is too much for you to bare and I will not judge, but I cannot tell anyone else.”

Xander smiles at me, then wraps me back up in his arms. “I am honoured little one. I will never tell another unless it is for your own wellbeing, only then will I tell them what they need to know. If they need to know it all then I will tell you that I have told them. This I promise.” Xander then kisses my head. I find myself relaxing and falling asleep in his arms as he continues to rock me.