Alphas mated to a human

Chapter 9- Let's start again, shall we?

(Alpha Marks’ POV)

I feel disgusted in myself at how I treated Val back in that ballroom but when Alpha Johnny looked at her like that and then she returned the look I lost it. Deep down I knew that it was their mate bond, and I had just gone against the mood Goddess in keeping them apart. I also know that what I did was dehumanizing and disgusting but me and my wolf could not handle it, I saw that Alpha Johnny wanted her and the only way I could exert my dominance to him was to punish her. If I had gone after Alpha Johnny then I would have started a war and even I would not do that with his pack. He controls the whole of the Medway territory, normally an Alpha only has a bit of a county but he controls the whole county.

I have enjoyed having Val in my room for the past few weeks, I had not intended to scare her or control her but she never just did as I asked so I found myself screaming demands at her like some lunatic. We were starting to make progress but now we are back to where we started. I had to chain her ankle to the bed again as she kept trying to run out of the door. I don’t think she would have gone anywhere, just wanted to get away from me but I need her near me. Especially now that I know Alpha Johnny is after her.

There are guards stationed outside the door, but now instead of being there to keep her in they are there to keep Alpha Johnny and his beta out. I know they want her, they want to take her from me because of the power she holds.

I need to think of ways to convince the rest of my pack and everyone else that I still only want Val because of the power I can have with her by my side, but lately that is not all that I want her for. Although, the show last night will probably have solidified that in their minds. My thoughts are constantly going to her, and that past few weeks while she was in Alpha Xanders’ territory were the worst of my life. When Val left me that day I realized that I had started to develop feelings for her, unfortunately since a young age my feelings have only ever been shown through aggression so I knew no one could ever really love me.

I was young when I took over the role of Alpha, my parents being killed by myself when their beatings became too much for me to bare one day and I lost it. I still regret that day but I cannot seem to regret their deaths, which causes conflicting emotions to occur. When I turned 18 I was hoping to find my mate but 12 years later and I was no closer to finding her. I was then approached by Vals’ father who offered her up as payment for my protection services. I explained to him that it was not safe for her here, he told me he knew what I was and didn’t give a damn because the girl was a murderer, she had killed her mother and then tried to kill her brother. I took the girl as payment.

Thinking back I could have done it better, instead of driving her off the road and abducting her I could have just asked her to come with me and explained the situation. At first I r***d and abused her because she refused me, I had never been captivated by someone at first sight as I was with her but then her rejection of me made me angry. I do wish that I was able to control my emotions but I just saw red, and then whenever anyone in my pack saw her I could see the lust in their faces. I thought by breaking her it would make her undesirable to the pack but just like me they were captivated by her no matter what. I then thought that she was doing it deliberately, that she was blood thirsty which meant that she kept trying to hurt me, and I remembered her father telling me that she had killed her mother.

I approached Alex who claimed that his mother was alive, just his father was abusive and she had gone into hiding to get away from him, leaving her son and daughter at the mercy of her husband. Their father bullied and abused Val as she looked like her mother, which was why she kept fighting back. I must admit that I love her fighting spirit, I just wish that she wouldn’t fight me. Last night when we touched and all of the anger had gone from me I felt tingles, and I know Val did too. I wondered at first whether I was imagining it but then I realized that she was my mate and I have to contend with Xander and Johnny for her.

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I roll over as the sun’s rays are blinding, I turn to see Val lying next to me with her hair scattered all over her beautiful face. The sun catches her face just right, it pains me to think that she has to be here against her will. I heard her pleas to have her ow room but this angered me and my wolf, who has become a lot stronger since finding out she is his mate. Somehow the mate bond was suppressed but now all of the pain I inflicted on her over the past few months keeps hitting me like a wall every time she has flashbacks.

I make the decision to talk to Val today, explain that I regret what I did and then ask to start again with her, to court her and treat her like you should treat a mate. A part of me did enjoy the dominance of having her in that collar and having control over her but as time has gone on I have found myself more repulsed than pleased with the way I have been treating her. I decide now that I will change and treat her properly. Then maybe she will forgive me and we can be together. I now want her as much as I want her power.