Poems From The Heart and Soul

Selfish Lover

Wonder why I feel so distant

Wonder why I feel the way I do

Different wants

Different needs

But

I am the selfish one

Never any pleasure unless brought up

Broken promises

Insecurities

Too hormonal

Just too much too deal with

When a problem is brought up all you do is

Blam

Blam

Blam

Everything is always my fault

Just remind me how anyone can fill your needs.

Never wanna be close

You took away the intimacy

Just do it for a fix

Fuck pleasure

Just get your fix

Forgot others needs

Make them feel worthless

Don't worry one day I won't feel anything

Anymore.

I'm just your selfish lover

Push my body for things I don't wanna do

Belittle me until I give in.

Pushing me further and further away

But

I'm the selfish lover

Belittle me more and more

Make me feel bad about my body

Make feel like a failure

Never felt so disgusted with myself

Force me to do but never return

Power is what I miss

But

Remember I'm a selfish lover

Because I don't bow down to you

Until you betrayed me

Belittle me

Threaten to leave

All Because I didn't want to do something

So disgusting

I am a woman

I never felt less

Take away my power

Strip me of my rights

Just so you cam feel like a man

Destroy the man I know

I don't need anyone but you

I wish you were the same

I will never forgive you

But

I will always love you.

You have really changed

I can say the same to myself

But

Hurt changes you

I wish you can feel this pain

That I feel everyday

Comparing me to everyone

Below on your list.

But

Whatever f**k my feeling

They don't matter

Just your own

I'm just your selfish lover.