Making A Luna

BROTHER

Esme

I watched a broken Rosie crumpled on the bathroom floor in front of me trying to catch her breath. This, what she was going through was every werewolf's worst nightmare, losing their mate. That one person that was made just for them, the one they were destined to spend their lives with, their best friend and lover in one. I may be grieving the loss of my friend right now but the pain that I am feeling is nothing compared to what she must be feeling right now. Her whole world has been flipped and broken in front of her. I looked over to Mason stood in the bedroom staring down at the floor, not saying a word. The loss of Miles was going to be a big hit to the pack, to everyone who knew him. This was just the beginning, this news was going to cause panic and fear to spread throughout the whole pack. None of this made any sense to me, why we were being hit by so may rogue attacks, why they were going to the trouble of using wolfsbane. It was as if they were trying to weaken the pack, lower our numbers. It didn't seem like they were just attacking because they were frustrated or had nothing better to do. "Mason?" I called trying to get his attention. There was no use in him being here if he couldn't keep himself together for Rosie, he would be better off being anywhere else. When I received no response I decided to mind link him. “Mason go, maybe find Roman.” From what Mason had told me, Roman wasn't taking the death of his friend very well, which wasn't a surprise considering their friendship. Growing up Roman and Mason hadn't been as close as they had been over the recent years, Miles and Hudson had been his closest friends. We hadn't suffered a loss in a long time, our men were so well trained and up until recently rogue attacks were rare. It just wasn't enough anymore. "I can't just leave" Mason protested, finally turning to look towards where Rosie and I were in the bathroom. "Go!" I demanded. Right now Rosie had to be the priority regardless of how much I wanted to be by Mason's side comforting him, telling him that it was all going to be okay. Was it going to be okay? I didn't know anymore. I didn't need his distraction. Mason gave me a slight nod before walking towards Rosie and I. "Rosie, I- I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, Miles was an great guy and I know how much he loved you. If you need anything, anything at all please let me know" he spoke before turning to leave. I watched as Mason walked out of the door, closing it behind him. Rosie was still leaning over the toilet as I held her hair back in case she was sick again. She was now alone in a pack she hadn't known just a few months ago, her mate was gone. "Esme" she groaned, pulling her head away from over the toilet. "I'm pregnant."

-

I looked at my watch as I made my way down the hall towards my bedroom. It had been a long evening and I hadn't left Rosie's side until now. The poor girl looked so broken, like she didn't know what to do with her life anymore. Not only had she lost her mate, she was now faced with the task of raising a pup on her own. Rosie was going to need as much support as she could get whether that was by staying in this pack or returning home to her original pack. I couldn't help but to think of Logan as I had comforted her, trying to assure her that everything would be okay and work out the way it was meant to. In the end there had been nothing more for me to do for her so I had called my mother and Luna Calliope who were now with Rosie. There was only so much that I could do, I didn't even have a mate so there was no way that I could even begin to try and understand how she felt. A month ago I would have said losing Mason may have done that to me, but now I wasn't so sure. As much as I still cared for him, he was my best friend and could never be anything more. If anything, I was grateful that Mason had not been my mate, that I didn't have to deal with having an alpha as a mate who would constantly be in danger. All I could hope for now was that when I met my mate I would be lucky enough to never have to go through the pain of losing them, or at least not for a long time. The only problem that I had was Logan. With him around, I didn't know if I necessarily wanted to meet my mate. Even though my feelings for him were new and unresolved, some part of me felt like it was right. After all, not everyone ended up with their mate, some went on to live happy lives with others that weren't their mate but they chose that person despite the mate bond. Maybe that was something that Logan and I could have. Being around Logan, I almost felt like I would rather have whatever this is going on between us instead of finding my mate. The way he made me feel whenever we touched, the way he made me feel I was the only girl regardless of the fact that I was not his mate. However, that could all change when he met his mate, how would I know that wouldn't be the case. I was scared, letting him in could break me. "Hey Esme" I heard Blaire call my name from behind me and I turned around towards her. "Blaire. Have you spoken to Mason?" I responded, realising that she had probably been left out of the loop. "I was just going to find him now actually, I haven't seen him all day. I heard there was another rogue attack, do you know anything about it?" She questioned now. That confirmed my suspicions. "Blaire, go find Mason, he will tell you everything. I've got to go, I'm shattered and I just want my bed." Blaire looked at me, confused but I didn't have the energy to explain everything to her. Without another word I turned away and continued walking towards my room. That was enough for today.

Logan

"I know it's not ideal Jack but I really feel like this is the only choice we have right now. I can't leave her now, not now I know but I can't be away from you and the pack. Please don't fight me on this you know I wouldn't have chosen this if I didn't think that it was the best thing" I pleaded with my beta as I paced my room. It wasn't that I didn't understand his concerns because I did, I didn't have a choice but to do this. When my father had suggested it I was reluctant to uproot my pack and bring them here but if it meant that I could keep Esme safe without neglecting my pack then I would do it. "Fine Logan. Just don't expect everyone to be happy about this, I am only not fighting you on this because of Esme. Do you really think this is best though?" he questioned me. "I do. Let's face it right now if we are hit by any more attacks we might not be able to handle them. At least here the risk is less and we can work with my father's pack, maybe even get some training in to make us stronger for when it's time to return home" I suggested, hoping that this would be enough to convince him that this was the right thing. "I guess you're right and if your fathers suspicions are true then it isn't safe here for us right now. I'll inform the pack and we will make the arrangements to come to you. Let's not wait until Monday though we need to do this as soon as possible. Can you speak with your father and see if the day after tomorrow works?" He was right and the sooner I had my pack here with me the better I would feel about everything that was going on. "How did I get so lucky to have a beta like you? Right, go speak to the pack, I will make sure that everything is ready for your arrival." I was sure that we could have things ready in time, I was eager to get them here. "Oh and Jack, be careful coming here" I added, wanting to make sure everyone made it here in one piece. "Of course Logan. I can't wait to finally meet this mate of yours. Speak later" He ended the call. I had a good feeling about this, I couldn't wait. Now I just had to figure out how I was going to protect Esme without being suspicious, especially after last night. I needed to speak with her, to explain myself but I didn't think now was the right time. The temptation to tell her that she was my mate was growing stronger and I didn't know how much longer I could resist it.

Roman

"Are you sure that you're going to be okay? I can come with you for support if you'd like" my mate asked me as she rested her head on my shoulder. I caressed her small bump that was carrying my pup, my heart swelling with love. Being around Delilah had instantly eased my pain at losing my friend, it may not have been much but it had certainly helped. "You need to rest my love. No matter what, I want to keep you and our pup safe and if that means you taking it easy for the next six weeks then so be it" I replied, placing a gentle kiss on her lips. This woman was astounding, she was carrying a beautiful life inside her that was half me and half her. I had to go to this pack meeting, to discuss what changes were to come, to tell everyone about the loss of Miles. None of this seemed fair, Miles didn't deserve this. If I was going to make it through this then I was going to have to pull myself together, no matter how hard it would be. "I'm not going to break Roman, I'm pregnant not dying!" she protested, pouting her lips at me. "I never said that, I just want what is best for you and our pup." I should have known that there would be disagreements, Delilah was not one to just take things easy. "I've got to go" I moaned before leaning down to kiss her on the cheek. "I will be back before you know it baby. I love you." Delilah rolled her eyes at me "I love you too." I made my way out of our room, turning around to take another look at my beautiful mate. I would keep that image in my mind to get me through this I decided as I made my way to the dining hall. The stairs were madness as pack members flooded to get to the dining hall, eager to find out why this meeting had been called. As I walked into the dining hall I spotted the alpha and his beta, my father, stood at the far end, accompanied by Mason, Blaire and the Luna. I made my way over to stand with them so that we could all address the pack. Deep breaths Roman, Deep breaths. You can do this.

Mason

This meeting was an absolute nightmare, I couldn't wait for this to be over. "What are you going to do about this?" "Clearly something is wrong with the system!" "How could you let this happen?" Everyone's voices came shouting out. Everyone was angry and upset about the situation, nobody was trying to hide this. We were getting completely bombarded by the pack members and I was beginning to feel completely overwhelmed. So many questions, so few answers. "Look everyone, I know that this is a bad situation. I can understand that you are angry, confused and scared but we cannot let this turn us against each other. We need to stay strong as a pack more now than ever" My father tried to get their attention as he addressed the room. "Now with all of this in mind we need to make sure that we are welcoming to the pack joining us tomorrow. They will be helping us with patrols in return for our hospitality so this should put us in a better position. We will be doubling patrols once I am satisfied that they are all trained to the right standards" he continued and I could see that his words had managed to calm people down, at least a bit. The shouting had stopped and the people were now listening to my father intently. "I also have some other news. Some of you may be aware that my son Logan is currently staying here after being injured in a rogue attack a few days ago. After heavy discussion we have decided that his pack will be coming to join us in two days time and will be staying with us for the foreseeable future. Now the moon valley pack may not be as big or strong as we are but they are a highly skilled pack and I believe having them here will only make us stronger." So Logan's pack was going to be coming here, my father had failed to tell me about this and I was blindsided. I loved my brother but I just hoped that he would be gone by the time I took over as alpha, the last thing I needed was him over shadowing me. I felt Blaire's grip tighten around my arm, bringing my attention back to the room. "Right everyone, thankyou for attending today, go and get some rest as tomorrow I expect everyone to be helping the new pack with their transition" My father finished. "Dad, you didn't tell me that Logan was going to be staying" I pulled him to the side as everyone dispersed from the room. My father sighed as he looked at me. "Mason, you are not alpha yet so I do not need to consult with you. I made the decision that I thought was best for your brother and the pack. You should be happy that you will get to spend some time with him. Anyway he has to stay for Esme." What did Esme have to do with any of this? "What do you mean because of Esme?" I questioned, confused as to what she could possibly have to do with Logan staying. "Go and speak with your brother, I have already said too much. You need to know but I don't think it is my place to tell you." Fine, if that was how it was going to be then I would go and speak with Logan. Now.

-

I couldn't believe anything that I had just heard. Esme was Logan's mate and she was in danger. He had known this whole time that Esme would not be my mate but he had failed to tell me. I didn't know how to feel. On one hand I was angry I had not ben warned that she was not my mate, angry that my parents had known and not told me, just let me get my hopes up. Then there was the fear that Esme could be in serious danger and I didn't know what I could do to help her. I couldn't get over the fact that my brother was Esme's mate, couldn't tell whether that was a good or a bad thing. "Look Mason, I know what you are thinking and I am really sorry you didn't know any of this. Right now, I don't know how much danger Esme is in but I know that we need to protect her from whatever might be coming her way. She might not be your mate but she is still your best friend" Logan spoke after we had sat in silence for what had felt like an eternity. I hated to admit he was right but in this case he was. I would do whatever it took to keep Esme safe just like she had always protected me over the years. "Of course I will, I just can't believe she hasn't told me about any of this. The fact that she is in danger and you are her mate just seem like very big secrets for her to keep from me. I know we haven't exactly been close since I met Blaire but I thought that she would have told me this" I said, feeling hurt now. Things may not have been easy for us since Blaire and maybe to some degree I could understand why she hadn't told me. " Mason, she doesn't know about any of this" Logan spoke, catching my attention. "What do you mean she doesn't know?" I questioned my brother. How could Esme not know about this? She had a right to know she was in danger and she would be upset if she knew her mate was keeping such a big secret from her. "Mason, Esme is my mate. She just doesn't know it yet." "What do you mean she doesn't know that she is your mate?" I probed, even more confused than before. "She doesn't feel the mate bond but I do, that's how I know. But Mason, she can't know about any of this. You can't speak a word of what you know to her" Logan pleaded. "And you can't tell Blaire either."