Making A Luna

STRANGERS

Esme

Blaire and I had spent the morning and early afternoon resolving any issues involving preparing for Logan’s pack to arrive. I had to admit it felt good to be needed after felling so useless yesterday. Obviously I wanted the best for Blaire and I wanted her to be ready to take over as Luna but I liked being needed, being useful to her. “Thankyou Stacey, I’m sorry about the mix up we’ve just had a lot going on these last few days. The emergency delivery should be here in the next hour, there’s quite a lot of food so if you need any help let the alpha know and he will send someone to help” I finished up with the head cook Stacey, the final thing on the to do list. Blaire stood next to me smiling shyly at Stacey. “Sure thing Esme, Thankyou for sorting this” she beamed at me as she busied herself in the kitchen. “Oh and Blaire I just want you to know that I look forward to getting to work with you when you become our Luna” she added, turning her attention to Blaire. I could see the tension ease at Stacey’s words, it was the reassurance she needed to know everything was going to be okay. “T-Thankyou” she stammered. “Oh and I’m sorry for the mix up.” “Oh don’t be silly love, mistakes happen. Anyway it’s all sorted now so let’s just move past it” Stacey brushed her apology off. This was good for Blaire, building relationships with the pack members, especially Stacey. She could be hard to please at the best of times and unless you knew her well, she could come off pretty intimidating.“Anyway Stacey, me and Blaire better get off. Let us know if there are any further issues” I smiled. “Of course, Thankyou again, both of you” Stacey replied, giving us both a smile before turning around to face the stove. I turned to Blaire and gestured my head towards the door, motioning for her to follow me. “See I told you nothing is ever that bad” I said to her as we made our way out of the kitchen. “You’re right Es, I should have just come to you before it got this bad but I was ashamed” she admitted to me. Of course she had been ashamed, there was all of this pressure on her and she probably felt like she was a failure. That wasn’t the case at all, she just hadn’t had enough time. “You never need to feel like that with me okay!” I assured her, hoping she would listen. We had been friends for too long for her to feel like I would ever judge her for anything. “I know that now” she smiled at me. We continued to make our way down the hall towards the training grounds so we could get a session in. “Did you speak with Logan yet?” She changed the subject. Anything else Blaire, I would rather talk about anything else. She knew that of course, but that didn’t mean that it would stop her from asking me questions about him. “Actually I did” I replied bluntly, it wasn’t a lie. Well, I shouted a lot at him but technically that was speaking right? “And” she pushed. “And nothing. There will never be a me and Logan, no matter how I feel about him. He tried to convince me that I am his mate, like I’m so stupid I wouldn’t know” I snapped, sounding harsher than I meant to. “He did what?” Blaire exclaimed, the shock plastered all over her face. “Yeah, you heard me right.” I watched as Blaire tried to understand what I had just said. “You don’t feel a mate bond with him though, do you?” She asked me. “I feel something but it’s not the mate bond. Sometimes I feel things that I’ve heard mates do, like when he touches me I can feel the physical sparks between us. Sometimes I feel like I want to be near him, I don’t know like his presence can be reassuring to me. That just isn’t enough to convince me that he’s my mate” I confided to my best friend. “I’m not saying I don’t have feelings for him because I do. The feelings that I do feel towards him are stronger than they should be considering I had never thought of him romantically until what, like a week ago? But he is not my mate.” It actually felt good to get this off of my chest, to tell someone about the way that I had been feeling. Now that I was saying the words out loud, it dawned on me that the situation was pretty dim right now and I would probably have to attempt to speak with Logan again at some point. “What did it feel like when you met Mason? How did you know that he was your mate?” I asked her, realising that was something that we hadn’t talked about. I saw Blaire blush at my question, hesitant to answer. “Come on Blaire tell me” I insisted. “Okay well, the second I laid eyes on him, I knew. I felt myself gravitate towards him, like this need to be by his side, to let him know he was mine and I was his. My wolf was going crazy, she knew straight away. It was obvious for me, as soon as I saw him. There was no reason for me to doubt that, I knew immediately. That was just how I felt, my wolf was ecstatic. As soon as she saw him she yelled mate, as if it wasn’t obvious enough to me already” she smiled to herself as she relived meeting Mason for the first time. “Once he told me who he was my happiness turned to panic, I thought of you straight away and I felt terrible. But I also knew that I could not let him go, not once I had found him.” I could tell that Blaire still felt guilt over mating with Mason, maybe that was why she was pushing things with Logan so hard. But deep down I knew she wouldn’t want me to do anything that wasn’t right for me, she genuinely wanted what was best for me and she believed Logan was just that. “Blaire, you know I don’t hold any resentment or anger towards you or Mason for what happened. You guys belong together, I could never hate you for that” I promised, not wanting my friend to feel like she had anything to feel bad for. “Do you mean that?” She asked looking for reassurance. “Of course I do” I confirmed. Blaire beamed at me as if I had just given her great news. She must have been carrying that burden around for so long and even after reassuring her before now, she had never truly believed it. It felt good to have this heart to heart I thought to myself as we reached the training grounds. “I feel nothing but friendship for Mason now. I don’t know how but the feelings vanished so fast and as much as I hate to admit it I think Logan had something to do with that” I confided. It was strange how quickly I had gotten over Mason, but he was my best friends mate and I had known I had to move on from it. “Come on then, let’s train” I changed the subject, not wanting to think about Logan.

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“I really feel like I’m getting better” Blaire gasped as she tried to catch her breath. “You really are. That was a good session too” I replied as we walked back to the pack house. Honestly, I was exhausted after that session, Blaire was definitely improving. “Mason will be so happy when he sees how much better I am” Blaire smiled to herself as she thought about pleasing her mate. “Oh look, it’s that guy from last night” Blaire said as I spotted Brandon. “Afternoon ladies” Brandon approached us. There was something about Brandon that drew me towards him, I didn’t know why it was. Maybe it was just his good looks, or the fact someone had shown an interest in me that wasn’t Logan. “Hey Brandon. How are you finding it at our pack?” I asked politely, trying to make him feel welcome. After all, after Logan’s display yesterday I doubted he was the most comfortable here. “It’s great thankyou, everyone’s been so welcoming” he smiled at me. I heard a phone go off, grabbing Blaire’s attention. “Sorry to be rude but I’ve got to go” Blaire interrupted , looking at the time on her phone. “It was lovely seeing you again Brandon. Es, I’ll see you later” she excused herself before making her way back towards the pack house. Brandon and I watched her walk away before he turned his attention back to me. “Actually, what are you doing right now? I was about to go explore the area, but if you’re available having a tour guide would be great” Brandon continued. As I thought about it, I was torn. On one hand I wanted to get back and go shower, I was exhausted and felt disgusting. However, it would be rude of me to not at least make the effort to help everyone settle in. If I said no, it would really only be for Logan’s sake. “Yeah sure, lets do it.”