I hate that I love him

The more I have, the more I want

I have been home all day sorting and arranging furniture, some of which I was not pleased with and sent back.

The dining table arrives and its truly beautiful, The table itself is black glass and it has 10 matching chairs with soft cream velvet seats.

The refrigerator arrives to replace the temporary one we were using, its sleek and modern with state of the art technology installed into the door, you can order food, or play music from anywhere in the apartment, its crazy.

After lunch the new sofa arrives and I’m super happy with it, even if it does look lost in the room with no other furniture or accessories.

I hear Aiden walk through the front door just after seven in the evening.

He is on the phone and doesn’t see me sitting on the new sofa reading a book.

In fact he pays me no attention all evening, he is in and out of the kitchen talking to whoever is on the other end of the phone.

He seems stressed and I hear him raise his voice more than twice.

In the end I head up to bed, if he wants to come and see me he will, and if he doesn’t I will talk with him tomorrow.

When I get up the next day Aiden has already left, so I get myself sorted and head into town.

My mission for today to buy accessories for the lounge in the form of cushions, paintings and vases.

I’m lost in my own little world when I shop, I can buy anything I want right now, and it sort of scares me.

I see three painting that will look perfect in the lounge so without looking at the price I buy them.

I also look at my own bank account and nearly fall over, I never earned this much money in 6 months let alone one single month.

With the car filled to the brim we head home.

Again I busy myself organising and moving things around, the decorators have finally finished and I must say the apartment looks warm and inviting with the soft pastel colours I have chosen.

Aiden gets home late and walks straight upstairs to his room, he slams the door and it lets me know he is not to be disturbed.

I play some music through the speaker system as I lay on the sofa looking up at the plain white ceiling.

Natalie Taylor sings angelic in my ears, my sister would have loved this apartment, she would have decorated it a lot different than me and this makes me smile.

Looks like another night alone for me.

Friday evening I have just eaten a fresh chicken salad and cleaned up my mess when Aiden walks in, I turn to see him put his coat on one of the dining chairs and walk towards me.

“Hello Demi” he says as if he hasn’t just spent the last few days ignoring me.

I turn to face him and shake my head in disbelief, what the hell am I supposed to do with a Hello Demi.

I walk off towards the lounge and lay down on the sofa with my book.

He follows me just as quick.

“I said hello Demi” he has his hands in his pockets standing before me.

“I know” I reply not looking up from my book.

“Well its polite to say hello back” he smiles looking at me amused.

“It’s also polite to not ignore the people you live with”, I continue reading when he sits down next to my feet.

“Your seriously having a tantrum over being ignored” he is finding this way to funny, and the fact I don’t find it funny at all is making me mad.

“I’m not having a tantrum Aiden” I swing my feet away from him and sit up.

“So what is it then” he asks, “Demi I cant give you all of my attention all of the time” he reaches over to touch me but I move away.

“Seriously” he smiles again as I shoot him a disgusted look.

“You have ignored me for three days”; “I have hardly seen or spoken to you” I slam my book down in front of him.

“Sorry Demi I was busy isn’t gonna cut it Aiden” I stand up from the sofa, I need to get away from him because he has made me mad.

He grabs my waist and pulls me so I am now sitting on his lap.

“Get off me Aiden” I yell while struggling, but he does not let me go.

He throws me down beside him and he pounces on top of me.

“Please don’t be mad at me” he says looking at me with those gorgeous eyes.

I wiggle my way from under him but he pulls me back and pins both of my hands above my head.

“Aiden please” I let out a long sigh.

I continue to wiggle and pull my self free from his grasp but in doing so I give him full access to my pyjama pants and now he is pulling at them down to get them off me.

“Don’t you f*****g dare” I yell getting more angry at him.

“Oh you know I love a good dare Demi” is his reply still yanking at my pants and succeeding to pull them down as I make it to the other end of the sofa.

I stand and make my getaway, but he is quick to grab me again.

I scream and cry out telling him to get off me, but he is on a mission now.

He throws me over his shoulder and I bang my fist on his shoulders over and over.”Aiden put me down” I cry, he is so infuriating.

He throws me on the sofa with a lump.

He then rips his shirt from his body letting me know what comes next.

“Aiden This isn’t fair” I cry trying to get up again, and when I do he grabs me again this time bringing me down to face him on his lap with my legs either side of him.

He removes my top and throws it away.

“Please” I say looking at his beautiful face.

“Kiss me” he demands still holding me by my waist.

“No” I shake my head, “you cant bully me into having s*x with you” I fold my arms as if to make a statement.

He unclips my bra and smiles his best smile.

“Can’t I” he replies pulling me forward towards his face.

I put my hands either side of his head to stop myself hitting him.

“Just kiss me and then I will let you go” he looks at me with what seems like love, but I soon dismiss those thoughts.

I kiss him once, not long enough for him to enjoy but long enough for me to relax a little.

When I pull back from him he instantly pulls me in for another, I don’t resist because I couldn’t resist him if I tried.

He removes my bra and throws it away, he now has full access to my breasts and he is in heaven.

He takes them one at a time into his mouth and sucks gently making me roll my head backwards.

His tongue feels amazing on my skin.

I reach down and undo his pants, he watches me with an amused look, like he knows I cant resist and he has won, again.

He rips my underwear from my body, making me gasp, snapping the fabric like it was nothing and throwing them behind him.

I release him from his pants and grip his long hard member in my hand, using long strokes from base to tip I see he likes it.

He rests his head on the back of the sofa and closes his eyes, it turns me on seeing him with so much pleasure on his face.

When he looks at me its with pure lust, he moves me forward and up so he can enter me slowly.

He feels amazing deep inside me.

I start to move, slow at first, seeing him suck on his bottom lip and closing his eyes again.

He grabs my hips and encourages me to go faster, my own pleasure building like a volcano ready to erupt.

He takes my breasts in his mouth again sending me into a frenzy of want and need.

I kiss him with all that I am, our breathing sounding more like panting, we match each other, like we fit together.

He wraps his arms around me and pulls me close to his body.

I run my hands in his hair and scrape my nails down the back of his neck.

We explode with pleasure, both letting go at the same time, my cry’s of ecstasy matching his deep growls against my collar.

Once we settle our breathing we look at each other with foreheads touching.

“I’m sorry” he breaths leaning up to kiss me, “I have been so busy I forgot how to be a decent human being”, he looks so sad when he says it.

“I forgive you” I kiss him tenderly, “just please don’t do it again” I tell him grabbing his chin playfully.

“I promise” is all he says before kissing me deeply.

“Now how the hell am I going to get off this sofa” I say looking down, “I mean I don’t want to ruin it” I add looking back at him smiling like its all a funny joke.

He stands up and takes me with him, I squeal in shock, his trousers are now around his ankles making me laugh.

He kicks off his pants and carries me all the way up the stairs and into my bathroom, he turns on the shower and then puts me down inside.

The water feels amazing against my skin. Aiden wraps his arms around me and kisses my shoulder.

I turn to face him and pull him down for a long kiss, our tongues dancing with one and other.

He reaches down and between my legs making me jump.

He strokes my sweet spot placing a finger inside my now swollen lips, he rubs my hard aching bud then places a finger back inside me.

He does this movement over and over again bringing me close to the edge of exploding.

He kisses me deeply then moves his mouth to my breasts, I run my fingers through his wet hair and tug gently, my moans getting louder.

“Aiden” is all I can say as my orgasm rips through my body making me cry out under the hot water.

He lifts me up and slides himself inside, taking the last shakes of my never ending pleasure, he moves his hips around and around, he is strong and relentless.

My back is pushed hard against the cold tiles of the shower, Aiden is breathing hard in my neck as he lets go for the second time groaning loudly, a sound I love to hear.

We stay in the shower for quite some time, sitting on the floor with me between Aidens legs, I feel safe here, like nothing could ever hurt me, like this is where I was always meant to be.

Once we are settled in my bed and Aiden is wrapped around me like a security blanket, I ask him who he has spent so much time on the phone talking to.

“My sister, my secretary, just anyone who needs to know that I’m still around”,; “I feel my time has been taken a lot lately, by a beautiful brunette with killer legs and a perfect smile” he yarns when he says the last part.

I turn in bed to face him.

“Aiden:” I whisper stroking his hair.

“Mmmm” he groans not speaking, “sleep Demi” he adds pulling me tighter towards his body.

I kiss him one last time as he is already sound asleep.

When I wake the next morning Aiden is still wrapped around me, as much as I don’t want to move, I am starting to feel very hot.

I slide out from under his arm and head for the bathroom.

I brush my teeth and throw on an old top to cover my nudity.

Aiden appears from behind me and wraps me in a warm hug, we sway on the spot for a few minutes just being in the moment.

“Don’t forget we have dinner with my sister tonight” he says kissing my neck.

“Oh crap” I reply turning around to face him.

“Can we not say anything about us” he looks at me awkwardly.

“Why not” I ask trying to get my head clear.

“Because I don’t want my sister knowing my business, she would be measuring you for a wedding dress” he laughs and lets me go.

“And would that be a bad thing” I ask folding my arms.

“No” he replies dragging out the word, “but I’m not ready for marriage Demi” he adds walking over to the bed and sitting down.

“Well I’m not either Aiden” I say walking over to him.

“Look I don’t want to fight”,; “lets just spend the day together, and have a lovely evening with the lovely Lillian” he stands up and comes towards me.

I let him wrap me in his arms and kiss me tenderly.

How can I keep letting this man make me feel this way, I don’t want to be his dirty little secret.