Never To Be His

Daciana’s Point Of View “How could you be so careless?” Alexander barked at me as I handed him the test results. He looked so off today, his demeanor uneasy, as if he was rushing off to some place. “It was not my intention” I said, my eyes bearing a tale of honest regret. “ I took all the necessary precautions but I guess the moon goddess had other plans for us” I rubbed my tummy and he just snarled at me. “You just had to ruin everything Daci, one simple instruction, you still couldn't keep” Alexander placed his hands on his temple, he looked frustrated and angry. Pools of sweet drops continued to gather on his face. Aside from the sudden news of the pregnancy, something else was biting at him and I can clearly tell. Since Alexander and I found out we were mates, he decided that we should keep it a secret until he was made Alpha. His dad had planned an elaborate feast to mark his ascension to the position of Alpha in our pack. “I promise not to say a word to anyone until you are ready to mark me and let everyone know we are mates” I said hoping to calm him down but it seems each word I said further infuriated him and he just couldn't hold back anymore. “Yeah Daciana like you can hide your protruding tummy from everyone or make them all automatically go blind?” Alexander said in a sarcastic tone but I did not find it funny. It's true that anyone bearing the alpha's child is expected to start showing fast because they grow faster than others in all areas right from conception. “There is a bright side to all this Alex, if you would just allow me” he cut me short before I could finish explaining myself. Alexander yelled and it felt like my spirit almost left my body. “I am out of here Daciana, better find a lasting solution to that “thing” you are carrying. I have no intentions of becoming a father now. Not now that everything is so close and….” Alexander paused, his fist clenched and I looked at him waiting for what was so important than our child. “Look Daci” he yelled again, this time he had a hint of concern on his face. “There is just too much at stake now and I can't have you messing it up for me. This is on you and I want no part of it” His deep blue eyes that looked like an ocean of water had become red like a lava mountain waiting to erupt. He pushed the door open, walking out on me. My eyes widened in shock, my breath became ten times faster and my blood ran cold, every strand of hair on my body standing firm. How could he? I knew he would be angry but not to the point of calling my child, our child a thing!!!! I ran out behind him to try and persuade him one more time. Aside from the pregnancy, I couldn't afford to lose Alex. He was the only part of my life that made sense. But unfortunately when I got outside he was gone like the wind. I was unable to trail his scent or even fathom which way he went. Heartbroken, I turned and saw my reflection on the glass of the window. How big and misshapen I looked. if I did not look this way like an inflated balloon, maybe Alexander wouldn't have been so ashamed of me. He would not have to hide me. I looked at myself again, My arms large, my tummy sagging, almost touching my thighs and even my huge boobs didn't look inviting. My chubby body has been the reason why everyone made me a laughing stock and the fact that I was an omega did not make it any easier. Some people said I swallowed my wolf, while others said I was not worthy of living among them, that I was better off in the zoo. Growing up was hard, I was bullied and called mean names like Daciana the pig. It branded me and gave me low self esteem which made me unable to defend myself or respond when I was abused by my pack members. The shock when I found out Richmond, the next alpha of our pack was my mate was not describable. It was the only good thing that had happened to me, except for this miracle that the moon goddess has blessed me with. Alexander hid the affair because situations like this could tarnish his image and cost him his position, so I understood him when he said we could only see each other in a secret house far in the woods. The fact that he did not deny the mate pull and he was planning to mark me on his ascension day gave me assurance that he loved me and it was all I needed to keep me moving. I turned back to head into the house and pick up my phone so I could find my way home but the door became stuck and I couldn't open it. I hissed as I picked up a stick on the floor to forcefully open the door. One side of the stick stuck in the door while the other side was in my hand, unfortunately I applied too much force. Instead of the door opening up, the stick broke and I flew into the air, landing face flat on the cold muddy floor. “Ahhhh” I screamed. But I was far away from where anyone could help me or even hear my voice. I was in so much pain, my head ached and my sight became blurry. I had hit my head so hard on the ground, it felt like a hammer was used to hit a nail into my skull. But I couldn't just stay here and wait for the worst to happen, I had to find my way back to the pack and get help. If not for my sake but for the sake of the innocent one inside me. I dragged myself on the floor and with all the strength in me, I stood up and began to find my way home. The first set of people I met were male wolves who were rushing towards the palace. I tried to speak but words failed me as I opened my mouth and none came out. They were so much in a rush that they couldn't wait to find out what was wrong with me. I continued to walk towards my house, and a couple of young female wolves my age also came running towards the palace again. One of them looked familiar. It was Yala, she is my friend. “ What is going on? Why is everyone running towards the palace?” I asked her pretending nothing was wrong with me. “The king is officially making his son alpha and he is going to get married to his mate after that. It's a double celebration, all in one night” Yala said, smiling sheepishly. I couldn't comprehend her words before the other girls started talking among themselves. “The Alpha’s mate is so lucky. His cold demeanor makes him hot and the way he rolls his eyes makes me shiver, ” one of them said, fanning herself with her hands. “He is devilishly handsome and irresistible. Oh I wish he was mine” the other one said. “What are you talking about?” I asked Yala, my words barely above a whisper. “The king had planned it as a surprise gift for the alpha since he refused to pick a mate and get married. It's essential, otherwise the elders would question his ascension” Yala said. “But what's up with you? Why are you looking like a bunny caught in a trap?” Yala asked jokingly. “Nothing, I just came back from the forest where I went for a run” I smiled wearily and told them to go, because they were looking so eager to leave. My eyes could no longer hold back the tears and the pain in my heart hurt much more than the one I felt in my body. It all made sense now, Alexander was rushing to go back to the palace because his wedding was today? Why did he not tell me? The ascension ceremony was not even supposed to be today? What was really going on? A million and one questions ran through my mind and none was I able to answer. I was just left with regret and pain. I dragged myself home but there was no one around. It was a relief because the people I called parents hated me like every other person in the pack. They said I brought them shame and reproach since I did not get my wolf like every other normal girl and my size was not helping matters. Bringing back an unwanted pregnancy would only complicate things and bring more pain to me. It was better I left before they came back. I packed a few of my things and headed out, not as if I knew where I was going but I couldn't spend another second there again. I would suffocate and choke on my own tears. I got to the crossroads, lost in thoughts and without looking, I barged into the road. The lights that flashed my eyes were so bright almost blinding me that I fell down. The loud sound of metals crashing, the dysgeusia that filled my mouth and the sharp pain that pierced my side was the last thing I remembered before giving into the darkness lurking around me.