The Turmoil of The Moon Goddess (#3)

Chapter 2- Andrew

 ** 10 days after Anna wakes **

I spent one night in my brother’s house sleeping in Anna’s bed, but it was torture being amongst all her stuff. I took her shampoo and hairbrush, a pair of her fluffy pyjamas and her book and went back to our home. Its too hard being around other people that are not her, I’d rather be alone.

I can hear them all knocking on my front door and ringing my door bell and gate intercom. I can feel them trying to mindlink me. I see my phone with its countless messages, voicemails and missed calls but I do not want to answer, I have no answer for them. The only reason I have left my phone on and near to me is in case Anna needs me or suddenly remembers. However, the calls and messages are never from her.

I lose track of time, I have no idea what day or time it is how much time has passed since the world ended, and I do not really care either. I sip bottled water, but I have not eaten, washed or changed my clothes. My wolf is getting weaker, occasionally he will whimper mate, our mate but even he has given up too.

The most comforting place in the house is the little lounge with the open fire, where I made Anna mine. I lay on our rug and reread her letter and constantly roll the eternity ring I gave her in between my fingertips the tiny loop of gold, sapphire and diamond looks mockingly at me and in a fit of rage I throw the damned thing at the wall. I instantly regret my action and spend the next block of unquantifiable amount of time trying to find it again. Later on, I’m lay on our rug again rolling the ring around in my hand, its so small that it wont even fit on my pinkie. I think back to the time when Anna and I made pinkie promises, and this time when the tears start to roll, I don’t even have the energy to roar or moan anymore. I just sit there wallowing in my loss. I feel defeated.

“Did Anna write you a letter?”

My head shoots up and I’m shocked to see katy stood over me pointing at my letter, I can feel anticipation and anger rolling off her. I hand her the letter to read.

“She sent it before. Before she. When I had to leave to go to the Indigo Moon. How did you get in here?”

She raises her hand in which dangle Anna’s house keys

“She still my best friend and therefore its my duty to kick your butt while she is recovering. So I used her keys to get in because you are blocking everyone out!”

I close my eyes. Goddess her voice is going through me, my sister-in-law goes all squeaky when she is riled. She reads one line out to me from Annas letter.

“I will never ever give up on the possibility of us.” 

I feel the hurt and despair taking over me, she said she would never give up but now she doesn’t even remember me, remember us.

“Have you?” I look at Katy confused. 

“Have I what?”  I ask her.

“Have you given up on the possibility of you and Anna?” out of respect for my 2 nieces or nephews that grow in this woman’s belly I try to keep my anger under control but goddess she is irritating me now.

“She’s lost her wolf and doesn’t remember me; I don’t think there is any possibility of us anymore sister!” she growls at me! Growls at her Alpha! I find it hard to contain my surprise “did you just growl at me Katy?”

“Yes, I did! She’s not going to miraculously remember you here locked up in this house sulking and brooding like a right p***y, is she? You are going to have to win her back Andrew, help her remember or die trying! You can’t just give up... Anna never did ‘I will never ever give up on the possibility of us’ they are her words not mine... are you giving up Alpha Andrew? Are you giving up on her- your Anna, your Angel? Your true love and fated mate?”

As I rise, I feel the power returning to me. I can’t give up on my Anna because she would never give up on me, it’s just going to take time. Yes, I am broken and hurt but I am Alpha Andrew McClaren and my fated mate and true love needs me now more than ever.

“I miss her too Andrew, more than I could ever explain. I need my best friend back, but I do not think I can do this alone. She loves you more than anything in this world brother. Its going to take time and it will be an effort and pain to us… but Anna is more than worth it, think of all the things she endured for our sakes. Help me help her to remember please I can’t lose her; I refuse to lose her!”

She holds her pinkie out to me, but I shake my head as I put my hand over my heart to give my pledge instead.

“Anna’s the only one who gets pinkie promises off me sister.”

Katy takes great pleasure in telling me that I look vile which makes me laugh a little, but she looks at me all wide eyed and serious.

“No brother seriously if Anna were to knock at the door now, she would take one look at you and run away you need to have a wash and get clean clothes and a good meal. You need to get back to your duties.”

She is right so I tell her I will sort myself out and to ask Alex to be ready to meet with me in two hours. She gives me a hug before she leaves, and I feel the protective bump holding her pups pressing into me. I cannot help but feel a pang for the little one Anna and I lost.

“You are carrying extra special cargo there Katy, how are the pups doing?”

She gives me a radiant smile and allows me to touch her bump.

“They are getting big and strong and highly active; I am most definitely going to have my hands full Andrew. That is why I need Anna back, and soon. She is meant to be doing this with me, we always said we would.”

My mate’s best friend falters this time, I see the tears in her eyes and its my turn to comfort her.

“She would kill me if I let her miss this Katy, we have no option but to get Anna to remember us. We have to remind her how loved she is and how much she loves us back.”

Anna and Katy had been planning to get married and have children with their respective partners since they was 11 years old. If the incident hadn’t happened Anna would still be carrying our pup now, I have no doubt we would already me married and marked. But the incident did happen, our pup didn’t make it, and neither did Anna’s memory rendering our love and relationship kaput. At least for now anyway. I’m going to have to work at it I need her and cannot carry on like this without her.

I have a shower and a shave, I need a hair cut badly! I will get one tomorrow when I go to get my new inking. This was my idea when I was in the shower, I’m getting an Angel tattooed on my back in honour of my Angel, my Anna. I have to win her back, I have to. 

I get dressed and go to Alex’s house both him and mother are gobsmacked that I’m here but I can’t be doing with theatrics. 

“I here, I’m hurting but I need my girl back and I need you all to help me.” 

To their great credit they have been trying to help me I was too consumed by my own grief to realise it. Now though I’m not dying without fighting for what Anna and I had, could have or will have. I have to fight, I have to fight for her. Or as my sister-in-law said... die trying.

I called Gamma Mylo to get the nightly update and he couldn’t contain his shock that it was me and not Alex calling.

“How is she Mylo?” That was the most I could say, I felt like my throat had been filled with cotton wool, I couldn’t swallow and my whole mouth felt dry and my tongue felt like it had doubled in size.

Mylo tells me Anna’s mostly mute around humans but more trusting when with wolves. I ask Daphne’s permission to get Anna a puppy and feel filled with purpose when she agrees.

So with a plan for how I’m going to start getting Anna to remember me I feel more positive about the future. I need my mate back and I’ll do whatever it takes to help her come back to me and the rest of her family.

I place her eternity ring on a chain around my neck, I need to find a way to get that ring back on Anna’s finger, to get right back to where we was up to so we can start to move forward again.

I want what we had back with all heart and soul.