I feel like I was torn between my life and death. I now officially have a deal with Gambino as his personal pleasure needs or known as FUBU, and at the same time, if he knew what I was after for him, I'd literally be walking in a tightrope of death.
[What the f**k, Ella! You're risking your life!]
Nandito ako ngayon sa banyo ng bahay parin ni Gambino. He left ten minutes ago for his business, and he told me to wait here for a spare clothes dahil pinunit nya halos lahat ng suot ko.
Sitting on a toilet, naked, I sobbed.
"Sorry... I just had to..."
[You just had to?!]
Galit na galit ngayon si Mandy. She wanted the best for me; yet I was a hard headed and thought that I could be the hero for the day when I did it. Kasi I see opportunity ahead of the position I'm in today. I could be his fubu and I have the freedom to roam around his room. Hopefully.
[Listen, Ella, ginawa natin 'to dahil ayaw mo, hindi ba? And I'm here, helping you out to get out from your situation yet ba't mo ginawa 'yon?! It could lose your life, Ella! You know who you're f*****g with, 'di ba? The man with many connection! He would easily find your personal information in just a snap of his hands!]
Natulala na lamang ako sa card na nasa sahig sa harapan ko. A platinum card. He said I could buy anything that I want and I need.
[Sobrang tigas ng ulo mo,] ani Mandy sa kabilang linya. [Paano kung mapahamak ka sa pinaggagawa mo?]
Huminga ako nang malalim at napatingin sa pintuan ng banyo nang may kumatok nito.
"Pinapasabi po ni Sir Liam na magbihis na raw po kayo. Hinihintay ka na ng sasakyan na maghahatid sa 'yo pauwi sa labas." Isang boses ng matandang babae ang nagsalita.
"Opo," sagot ko pabalik.
Nang masiguro kong wala nang tao sa labas ng banyo, muli kong itinuon ang pansin ko sa earpiece.
"Mandy, I'm doing what's best for ACEA. Hindi sa pagiging hero o ano, but I see an opportunity to finish this mission. Please cut off the comms, lalabas na ako."
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Tinanggihan ko ang alok na ihahatid ako sa bahay gamit ang isa sa mga drivers ni Gambino. They even forced me to enter on his sportscar but I wouldn't risk anything other than my body's dignity. With Gambino's platinum card inside my bag, I walked my hell out of the subdivision and took a taxi.
Pagdating sa apartment ay dumiretso ako sa banyo matapos ipasok ang bag sa kuwarto ko. Hindi ko na tinanggal ang damit na binigay sa 'kin at binuksan ang shower upang basain lahat ng katawan ko. I started to feel the hot drops of tears streaming down my cheeks as I try to rub my body with a loofah and a body wash.
Hindi nagtagal ay humagulgol na akong napaupo sa sahig habang hinayaan ang shower na lunurin ang buo kong katawan kasama ang alaalang nabuo kanina lang.
It was traumatic, yet he enjoyed it. He savored every inch of my body. Now, I have to face the consequences for my actions. I had to continue give him the pleasure that he wants and I will get that information and handcuff him.
Nang mahimasmasan ako ay napagpasyahan kong hubarin ang buong basang suot ko at hinayaan ang hubo't hubad kong katawan na maglakad palabas. When I walk past the whole body mirror, tumigil ako't napatitig.
Staring back at my reflection on the mirror, I recall the things he did to me. The way he touched every part of my body, the way he licked it, and the way he grind on me. That first experience with him was good, though. Pero ngayon, hindi ko na alam.
Disgusted by my thoughts about how dirty I've been through, pumasok ako sa kuwarto upang magbihis. I slid in with my pair of pyjamas and lie down on my bed, cover myself with my thick blanket. Nakatulala ako sa kisame nang biglang tumunog ang keypad na nasa bag ko.
Tinatamad ko 'yong inabot at sinilip ang screen. John Gotti's name flashed on it, but I ignored the continuous vibration and ringing.
Nakakapagod ngayong araw. If it wasn't for that urgent mission, I wouldn't be in this situation I'm in right now. If did not meet him face to face that day, he wouldn't want to find me, too.
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Nakatulog ako sa lalim ng iniisip ko. I was tasked to go to the headquarters today for my mission updates pero hindi ako pumunta. I even cut off the phone to avoid getting ring at by my workmates. Lalo na si Mandy. I just needed a space kahit isang buong araw man lang.
Habang nandito sa bahay ay inabala ko ang sarili ko sa pag-ayos ng mga kagamitan at pag redecorate sa mga furniture. I even painted the whole entire living room para lang mag match sa desired minimalistic design na gusto ko. The landlord told me that I can transform this apartment into whatever I like. As long as I pay the rent and the bills.
Sunod kong pininturahan ay ang kuwarto. From old and dirty blue, I turned it into a dark gray and even repositioned the bed and other furniture like the cabinet, the small table, and the study table where I place my laptop and other documents.
I only had a ten-minute break every one hour of work. Bandang alas-sais ng gabi ay natapos ko lahat ng mga ginawa ko. Just a little sweep and final touch tomorrow, pwede ko nang pabisitahin dito ang mga kakilala ko.
"I'm so proud of you," I whispered to myself.
Living alone is a great idea. It would challenge yourself to be an independent woman and you have all the freedom that you want. Pero iba parin sa pakiramdam ang may kasama ka kada restday o uwi galing trabaho.
But anyway, I'm used to live alone. Even my step-mother and her children treats me as their personal slaves. So I literally live alone in my whole damn life.
Habang nakatungana sa bagong itsura ng apartment ko ay biglang tumunog ang doorbell. Kahit na sobrang pawis ko pa mula sa whole-day general cleaning s***h redecorating, lumapit ako sa pinto at binuksan ito. Bumungad ang mukha ni Gotti na pawis na pawis at naka-sando na kulay itim lang.
"f**k," he mumbled as he scan his eyes on me. "You made me worry. Hindi mo sinasagot yung tawag at texts ko. So I thought something happened to you that's why..."
Natulala siya sa itsura kong puro pawis at mantsa ng pintura.
"You're repainting?"
Humagikgik ako, "Yup."
"That's why you were out of reach the whole day?"
Sumandal ako sa frame ng pintuan at pinag-krus ang braso sa dibdib. "Yeah."
He ran his way through my home because he was worried?
"I was actually, uhm, came from the gym with my boss. Work related the whole morning 'til afternoon. Kaya ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng bakanteng oras."
"No need to explain, John. Ano ka ba. Kumain ka na?"
"Not yet," he made a sad pouty lip. Tumawa ako dahil do'n.
"Come in."