VOW SERIES 1: THE VOWS WE MADE

Kabanata 19

My eyes met Zon's the moment I felt his weight on top of me. Pinagmasdan niya ako nang maihiga niya ako sa kama, sa mga mata niya ay wala akong ibang mabakas kun'di ang pagmamahal niya para sa akin. It was like despite him feeling the effects of me distancing myself from him, he never thought about looking for warmth on another woman's arms.

His lips curved for a contented smile as he tucked my hair towards the back of my ear. "I love you, Audrey. I don't know what I will do without you."

Gumanti ako ng ngiti kahit na tila manhid pa rin ang puso ko. Not that I don't love him anymore. It's just that the pain was too much that it overpowered all of my other emotions.

"I love you, too," I said before kissing him.

Nadama ko ang saya ng asawa ko habang malumanay akong hinahalikan. Nang tuluyang sumuot ang mainit niyang palad sa ilalim ng pantulog ko, hinayaan ko siyang gawin ano man ang nais niya.

He slowly got rid of our clothes before he gave me trails of kisses from my lips, to my jaw, to my neck, and down to my shoulders. He was taking his time as if he's savoring the moment, like we're newly-weds who's on a honeymoon.

"I missed you, Audrey..." he uttered before sucking my hardened n****e, my fingers clutched his hair as my body writhed in pleasure. Hindi ko magawang sumagot. I was so high with the sensation I haven't felt in a long time, and with the way my husband is setting my body on fire, I was lost in total bliss.

"Zon..." tawag ko nang maglakbay ang kanyang mga labi pababa ng aking tiyan. His hot breath caressed my heated skin, and as my husband parted my legs to welcome himself, I did my best to open my eyes so I could see him pleasure me with his mouth.

His eyes shut when his tongue licked me from the base of my slit up to my throbbing c**t. It was like he's savoring my flesh like his favorite dessert. Halos umarko naman ang aking likod nang paulit-ulit niya iyong ginawa. My breathing became deeper as the sensation hit my core, every fiber in my body felt so alive.

"Hmm..." Nakagat ko ang ibaba kong labi nang madama ang paghaplos ng kanyang mga daliri. He teased my folds while planting kisses on my inner thigh, his now wild eyes stared at me like a feral beast.

I gasped when he finally inserted his fingers. His tongue flicked my c**t as he thrusted his fingers inside me, hitting the spot I was sensitive the most.

"Moan, baby. I missed hearing you moan for me..." he said with darkened expression as if he's having a hard time controlling his own desires. Ngunit kilala ko ang asawa ko. He loves pleasuring me and seeing me hit my orgasm twice or thrice before he sates himself, at iyon nga ang ginawa niya.

After I hit my first climax, he let me relax a bit before he continued pleasuring me with his mouth. His hand even cupped my boobs, rolling my hardened n****e between his rough fingers. Jesus, he knows my body so well. He knew how to touch me in the right places and which positions make me finish with a mindblowing orgasm. Dahil nang matapos akong muli ay isinampay niya ang aking mga binti sa kanyang balikat saka niya ako hinawakan sa aking batok kasabay ng kanyang pag-ulos.

I moaned while staring into his darkened eyes when I felt him fill me. He didn't move at first as if he's savoring the moment of us being one. God, he's huge that up until now, I still feel so stretched whenever he's inside me. Kaya nang magsimula siyang umulos habang hinahalikan ako ay halos mapalakas ang bawat ungol ko.

"Oh, Zon!"

My moans made him feel more aroused. He lowered his head and started pleasuring my boobs with his mouth, his tongue soothed my tips after he sucked it like a hungry beast.

"I f*****g missed you, baby. God, I f*****g missed owning this beautiful body," he uttered right in front of my ear before he sucked the soft part, right below my earlobe. Tanging ungol lamang naman ang aking naitugon bago niya hinugot ang sarili at iniba ang posisyon.

He guided me to straddle him. Kumapit ako sa kanyang balikat at muli siyang hinalikan habang hawak niya ako sa baywang. He guided my hips in a slow rhythm, making me feel so stretched as his crotch filled me deeply.

Nang kusang gumalaw ang aking balakang ay muli siyang nagpala sa aking dibdib. I threw my head back and held onto his nape as he sucked my boobs one after the other, his tongue swirling around my aroused n*****s to heighten the heat seeping through my skin.

Napakapit ako nang mahigpit sa kanyang braso habang nagtataas-baba ang aking balakang, at nang maramdaman niya ang panginginig ng aking katawan, niyakap niya ako saka siya nahiga. He claimed my lips in a wild way while he's holding my ass cheeks, and when he started thrusting inside me in that position, my soul almost left my body.

He sucked my tongue and explored my mouth like a territory he will never let anyone else conquer, his shaft rammed inside me in a senseless way until I convulsed on top of him. Humigpit naman ang pagkakahawak niya sa aking pang-upo. His jaw clenched tightly as his breathing became sharper, and when he finally reached his own climax, he hugged me tightly while kissing me deeply.

Halos wala na akong lakas pa upang imulat ang mga mata ko pagtapos. Bumagsak ako sa kanyang tabi at niyakap siya habang nakasandal ang aking ulo sa kanyang dibdib. Nadinig ko naman ang pagsinghot niya nang akala niya ay nakatulog na ako, at nang iangat ko ang aking ulo kasabay ng pagmulat ko ng mga mata, napansin ko ang namumuong luha sa mga mata niya.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

Zon drew in a sharp breath before he forced a smile. "I just missed feeling the weight of your head on my chest. Matagal na kasi mula no'ng... no'ng natulog tayo nang ganito. You're always facing the other way as if you're so pissed to lay next to me so I... I can't help but wonder if you still love me, baby. I'm scared that you'd rather sleep on your own or... with someone else..."

Parang may pumiga sa aking dibdib dahil sa kanyang sinabi, ngunit bago pa mabasag ang pader na hindi ko naman sinasadyang buuin para protektahan ang puso ko mula sa sakit na dulot ng pagkawala ni Zed, muling namayani ang pride ko.

Napahugot ako ng hininga at malamig siyang tinignan. "Hindi ba pwedeng pagod lang ako sa trabaho, Zon? Kailangan bang may iba kaagad?"

"That's not what I meant--"

"Iyon din 'yon, Zon. Pasensya na. Nakahanap ka ng asawang workaholic at hindi kayang makipag-s*x sayo gabi-gabi."

Gumalaw ang panga niya. "s*x gabi-gabi? Gano'n ba kababaw ang tingin mo sa pagmamahal ko, Audrey? You know what--" He pursed his lips and looked away before he drew in a sharp breath as if his words hurt him more. Mayamaya ay isinara niya ang mga mata niya at niyakap ako. "I'm sorry. You're probably tired at hindi lang tayo magkakaintindihan ngayon. I don't want to ruin our anniversary night, baby. I'm so sorry." Pinatakan niya ng halik ang aking ulo saka siya suminghot. "I love you."

I swallowed the lump in my throat and refused to answer him because I was still mad and my pride was Lording over me.

If only I realized that I'm breaking my husband's heart whenever I don't say I love him, too...