He called me Pudako

The matter that I can't understand

"Damn woi! Why are you sound asleep like that? You’re heavy like a cow!"  

I complain to the sleeping mad cow here while I'm helping him get to the bed.

What an stupid bastard. He drank too much when he knew he couldn't handle alcohol. Now he rolls on the floor. If I'm not a good friend, I'll let him roll all he wants there till morning until he'll catch a cold. 

He just grinned and said something incomprehensible and mumble.

" I truly love Krisan yah know." he said it for the 20th time now.  

"Err... Your quite stupid too."

Damn! This man is really heavy! I know compared to me and Mark, Mond is the tallest. Not exactly the biggest, he almost looks all height but skinny. But lifting him now, makes me regret approaching him a few hours ago and agree to both drink and have a talk.

"But I do!" he said then laughed.

"Do love...."

"Errr.... you do if you do. whatever."

We finally reach the bed. I just drop him off on it making a loud *Tud* sound. I tacked him in then after making him comfortable, Then I gave him a good kick. He groans but never complains. 

Sometimes I do not understand both Mond and Mark. They both love her but for some reason they choose not to tell. Making Krisan misunderstood the love that they have for her. Mark being interpreted to be nothing but a loyal friend. And Mond being an insensitive and unloving Lover. In w/c both are the exact opposite. 

Mond shared  about the thing between him and Krissan while we were having a drink a few moments ago. 

It all started when Krisan stated that she is ready to admit to the world about their relationship. Apparently Mond being a big dumb arse that he is, give it a hard 'NO'. 

No explanation, no nothing. He just said plain hard NO. W/c causes Krisan to be upset. To top the icing to the cake, just a few moments after that, Krisan saw Mond hanging out with Jen. The Face of our store and quite known and rumored to date almost every men in K2,the annex of our store. Located right across our store. (our store has a code of K1). 

Mond is a very honest person but a really dense one. He surely did nothing wrong but he failed to see how jealous and disappointed Krisan is. Krisan on the other hand also failed to see how faithful her lover is. 

Mond have a point there. They don't have much financially speaking. And as I've mentioned before, if the management of our store discovers about them being together, they're both out. No explanation needed. 

Krisan is working to help her parents earn a living. So with Mond. They're both afraid to try their luck in other place, and finding a job in our place is really a tough one. You can find another job, yes, but the workload is too much and the salary is less than 50% off the minimum wage. With their situation right now, they both can't afford to lose the job.

Practically they don't have much problem at all. It's just that they both fail to deliver their point across.

"You have all the time in the world to fix this matter. Why don't you do anything?"

Mond let out a sigh. 

"I just...If I do, it all sounds like an excuse even to my own ears." 

He groaned in frustration again.

 "Woi!! What should I do na?" 

I scratch the back of my head looking at him. I really can't believe they went this big over a silly thing.

 "Have you ever tried punching a wall? You can hit it as much as you can. Give it all in each blow. Pour everything out. May it be your mind, your heart and your soul. But it is still a wall. Standing straight. It won't move. You can only hurt your hand. Mark it with your blood in the process. But the only odd there is, it won't budge. Unless it will." 

I said then I faced him.

 He is looking at me all confused.

"Ai'stupid Mond! You can just tell her everything. She will understand." 

I finally went out of his room and headed home. Mond and Krisan were unhappy. Making Mark unhappy too. This is why I don't understand them. Why go through all this hurt when they can just climb and cross that wall? 

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