In the Name of the Vampire Prince

Do you feel like floating always in your life? Floating from the imaginative mind and time. If you do, then we're the same. And if you don't, well... let me explain to you how it feels. It feels like I'm drowning as I try to find the remnants of my past. Blank, it was always blank and I can't stop thinking of what has happened to me before. I don't remember any memories of when I was young. I don't remember who was even my playmates not until middle school. I plunged myself deep into the blue ocean, I can still breathe. Maybe I'm in my dream again and I didn't bother what will happen to me if this continues. Finding my true self is like doing this thing in my imagination. Slowly sinking the very deep space of nowhere, mind always in the underwater. I can even sense my clothes ripping off from my body, and all that's left is my bare skin. I feel colder and colder as the second goes by, but I didn't bother. My eyes wide open while I tried to waver my hand, and I took this chance to shed a tear because in this case? I'm desperate and in need of answers. No one would even tell me, not even my father or even my brother. Every day, I feel like giving up and just make a new chapter of my life. But how can I do that if they're still covering my background before away from me? “Who am I? And where do I belong?” I close my eyes and just let the water pull me down on the deep blue ocean when a struck of white light caught my senses to open my eyes again. Surprised that I can't even talk or even yell, and I feel too isolated in my own body. What's even happening to me? A figure is slowly forming in front of my eyes. It was only a white crystal ball, but there's also a figure forming inside that ball. Glowing and mixing on the blue waters as it takes its form. And I widen my eyes when I saw a woman curled up like a ball opened her emerald eyes, she was glowing literally and she placed her gaze on me. Her warmful yet sincere gaze caught my heart in a second. She is still curled up and her crystal ball starts to move towards me. And for a second, I felt the flourishing warmth towards her. I feel delighted— no, very happy to see her as if my mind and heart knows her. Without a second, I closed my eyes and placed my palm on the crystal sphere. And the warmth went through me and scattered around like a mist. Everything went to black in a flash and I felt myself suffocating from the sudden lurk of the darkness on me. And that's where I got myself up from the tub full of water. Panting heavily, coughing out some water lumping from my nostrils and throat. I'm suffering and I feel like dying any second because I look so pale when my eyes landed at the mirror beside me. I remembered that I had a bottle of wine yesterday evening, and it is still standing at the window sill where my long tub is also situated. I wiped my face with both of my hands, trying to convince myself that this is also a dream, yet I feel too cold, and I am in complete shock when I found myself naked in my tub full of water and rose petals! Since when did I put rose petals this much? “Dang...” I sighed and facepalmed, my voice completely hoarse, “I must've been so drunk. Gosh, Happy Birthday to me.” I stood from the tub and raised my cold feet, stepping out of the tub. “Thought that was a dream again.” Hi, I'm Sydney Heartlocke, and I'm a normal beta. Not a sub beta, not even a dom beta. Just, a normal beta of the Heartlocke pack. I rolled my body with a towel from the baby blue cabinet beside the sink before I stare myself in the mirror. And I seriously look so pale that even my lips are chapped and gray. It was a relief that I didn't die yet, or I wouldn't enjoy my added 1 year from my birthday yesterday. "A 19-year-old female beta died from drowning herself inside a tub." Doesn't suit me either. I even wish to just retain my memories, in which both of my relatives in the pack exchanged looks. I know, they are hiding something from me, I am not that dumb. But I'm still waiting for the time to come that they would tell me who am I. Back in the days that we were in the hospital, all eyes were on me. After my therapy, they said that I was in a coma for about 2 years, and I didn't even know them either. Not even my mom and dad. So they told me some little stories about myself when I was a kid, but I felt that it wasn't right. I had a gut feeling that they're fabricating it, but I just ignored it, for a thought that maybe it's a false intuition of mine. Not until someone sends a direct message to me on Twitter. Claiming that we're best friends since we're kids, and all of my mom and dad's stories aren't true made me confused as hell. And that's where I ended myself celebrating my 19th year in this world inside the tub until dawn since they told me that I can do whatever I want when we ate together for dinner. They don't want to tell it yet, so I still respect their decision. At 4 in the morning, I decided to do my daily task. Knowing the fact that I would be so lazy if I don't do it in advance. So I let myself drown in cleaning my space before the living room and the kitchen. I still remember admiring our home. As soon as I stepped in for the first time, a mixture of the wood and stone themed treehouse is here in front of my eyes. With the red textiles and the comfy atmosphere that it gives me. They say that the smell you're drawn into would be your pheromone scent, and I wish it would be wood since they're expecting that I'm an omega. Yet they can't even smell my scent when I turned 18. That's the time also that the results came, and I presented myself as a beta in the society. This means I can't have the chance to transform into a wolf, just a normal being with fangs and the ability to run at the speed of light. I am not sad about the fact that I am a beta, I am sad about the fact that my parents expected me so much. But who am I to decide? The Celestials are the ones who can give and take it away. Preparing myself a bowl of cereal and milk for breakfast, I sat comfortably on the wooden chair, raising my one foot and laying it flat on my chair while eating my cereal peacefully. I can hear the birds chirping outside. It must be a beautiful morning for them and nature today. I proceeded on grooming before I pulled out my long case in which I placed an important thing inside for later. I almost forgot to pull out my favorite black high cut shoes, pairing perfectly with my black skinny pants and a white shirt. Along with my long black case placing it on my back and I placed a small note on the countertop, saying that I'm going early for the sparring class. I stood out of our comfy home and dialed someone's number on my phone. I hope he's awake by this time... It rang twice before he received the call, and I felt a wash of relief. “Chase, you up?” “Well, yeah...” his voice was hoarse, yet you can still hear his enthusiasm. Must be the signal that's making it chappy and hoarse. “... yeah, I'm going out of my cabin. You have to prepare yourself for your daily service, Ma'am.” and he chortles. The sun rises perfectly at the valleys, and I closed my eyes as I feel the warmth of it. Our house is at the top of the hill, and Chase's cabin is at the bottom of the hill. But instead of walking or running downhill, my boy best friend Chase, who is an alpha, transforms himself into a beautiful caramel-coated mane. He climbs uphill while bringing his case (same as mine) by his mouth. As he reaches our house, I greeted him with a smile and a pat on his head of course, “How is it that you woke up so early? This is... Kinda unusual on you though.” he spoke in a matter-of-fact tone, which made me shrug my shoulders. I don't want him to know what happened to me earlier. He would be worried to guts that he may destroy my tub. “New life I guess since I'm nineteen and I have to change my life into a more, open-minded self.” I replied and he lends his case to my hand, “Also, trying not to do a poker-face whenever I lose on the sword sparring session with our coach.” which made him baffled. “Hop on—” “But wait, Chase. Did you even take your breakfast?” “Yeah, only granola bars and...” He proceeds on turning around, his back facing me, “...maybe I'll get a meal at lunch. Now, hop on!” I smiled and chuckled, as I hop into this alpha in front of me. And the journey begins! He runs downhill and his thick, long caramel mane flowing gracefully with the wind. I hold unto him since I know very well that he's a rush type of wolf. Even though we're living in modern times, Chase Becken didn't even bother on bringing me to the academy and walk me home. Even if we've turned into young adults, which I think... probably the nicest things that I would ever receive in my life and being friends with him. As we passed the lake and the green plain landscape, going into the woods is a sign that we're almost near the small academy that we both are attending for this summer. I suddenly held unto him when he fastens up his pace and he jumps high on the dead log under his feet, landing perfectly unto the earthy mesh. And now, we arrived at our small academy. Both of us are taking the same sword sparring every day, and sometimes Chase and I would-be partners. I observed that he's more gentle today than the other days, very unusual yet I just shrug off that thought for a while. And after a pretty little while, the sun sets, banking into the mountains. Since I have to buy something important in the city, I decided to let Chase return home. After all, I can return home myself, and he's getting all tired because of our spar earlier. While walking down the road, I suddenly thought of getting packed noodles at the convenience store before buying some essentials. But then, my little thought stopped as soon as I felt a bounce of dark aura into me. I roamed my eyes around, and luckily there was no one. Wait, no one? I turned around and looked around yet I can only see evergreen trees. But why is it that I can feel great energy from the dark? This is not right.