THE NEW MAN

“there's a time that comes after you, the time for the mistakes you did in your past. it hits you hard and you are left alone. when that time comes you will wish you never existed. deep inside you fell anxious, the anxiety to really do something, something that you don’t know what it is. you feel pain yet you cant cry, anger and laughter at that point becomes one thing, you exclude yourself from the rest, you spend hours indoors trying to figure out what it is that you are needed to do, you live like a convict.

people try to reach you but they cant, no phone, never online some even think that you disappeared, and those who has the privilege to see you think you are mad. Family Forgets you, they start seeing you as a liability not because you are sick but because you have wronged them once or more and they now want you gone. Gone to where they don’t know, they keep suggesting things that they themselves don’t know if its possible or doable.

Tears sometimes fill your eyes, when you remember the things you have done in life, you finally conclude that its true you are a liability even to nature. The debts, uncountable money bills that were unpaid the lies, maybe even an abortion you paid for or did, the defiance to parents, the girls or boys that you spoilt, some even dropped school because of you to work for you as garden boys and bedtime partner too or even due to early pregnancy for the girls.

All these not forgetting the money you squandered ment for other businesses, not forgetting the businesses you tried and failed, the good things you tried to do and failed, the friends that left you when