my mate & me

new me

4 months ago I started with the medicines and now I'm a completely new person. I'm skinny and I work out a lot. I finally have a clear skin and my hair reaches my waist now. I look in the mirror. "We are so beautiful..." I whisper to my wolf. I can feel her smiling. "Bella!! We are going out for some shoppingggggggggg are you also coming?" Max screams from downstairs while I hear his boyfriend giggle. Max has found his mate but they didn't made it official yet. When you and your mate want to make it official your mate has to mark you. "Yeah! I'm coming!" f**k where did I leave my shoes... "Max? do you know where my shoes are?" "They are standing here in the hallway you silly" uhg ofcourse... why can't I just remember for once where I leave my stuff. I grab my wallet and run downstairs. "I'm ready!"

"Goodmorning sunshine" Jeremy gives me a kiss on my head. "Goodmorning Jer, You and Max had a nice night or not?" I wink and I see Jeremy turning red. "Oh oh baby what did she say to make you turn as red as a tomato?" Max laughs. "no nothing baby" Jeremy gives Max a kiss. They are so adorable together. It does make me miss Jace although he ripped my heart into a million pieces... "Okay let's go I need new clothes because everything is way to big since I lost so much weight." I run out of the door and jump into the car.

I'm in the fitting room trying on a tight highwaist black jeans and a black lace bralette. Finally I can wear these kind of things and look good. I turn around and look satisfied with what I see. You can see my beautiful abs, My trained legs and my perfect booty. As I open the curtain to show Max and Jeremy I see Jennifer and a few of her minions walking in the back of the store. My heart stops. f**k what are they doing here?! She walks passed me and she doesn't seem to regonize me. She turns around and looks me straight in the eye. sweat starts to break out as she does a couple of steps towards me. "Look if you don't look good like she does we are not friends anymore." She talks to her minions as she looks at me. "Ehh thanks? I guess" "Don't thank me and hun you should buy that outfit! You look fire in it." and she walks away. What the f**k did just happen? Did Jennifer just gave me a compliment?? I turn around just to see Max staring with an open mouth. "Max! Max!" Jeremy is waving his hands in front of his face. "That was... that... Jennifer.. The f**k" He blurds out. Okay yes ofcourse I showed Max the pictures of everybody. "Uhuh... What the f**k did just happen." Jeremy looks confused. "Okay you two. explain!" "Well Jennifer used to bully me before I ran away and started to live at Max his place. "Oh... that was her?" I nod. "Well sis! She is ugly so don't worry." "Thanks Jer. But tell that to my mate who only has eye for her..." "Okay do you know what you need... ICECREAM!" Max and Jeremy scream both. I look for a few more outfits and pay them. "Okay now it's time for Icecream." I giggle. 

 We sat down with our Icecream in the sun. "Just what I needed." Max sighs releaved. 

"I want to starts a YouTube channel." I blurted out all of the sudden. I look to Max and Jeremy and I see 2 confused faces staring back at me." "You want what?" Max gasps. "Honey are you sure you want that?" "Yes I'm sure." I say determinded. "That are a lot of big changes in a short amount of time." Max laughs. "We should celebrate this!" Jeremy screams. The tree of us are staring at eachother. "COCKTAILS!!" We scream at the same time. One Ice cream and two cocktails later we are on our way home. 

As soon as we arrive home I run upstairs. I quickly glance in the mirror. okay maybe I should redo my make up and fix my hair a bit. I had never expected that in me was a true make-up artist. I look in the mirror and my long dark brown wavy hair is shining and hanging beautifully on my waist. My make up looks perfect. I take my phone and press record. 

"Hi peepz! Welcome to my very FIRST vlog!"

a little while later, I switch off my phone.

well that was fun! But I'll have to watch it before uploading. 

I'm watching the vlog I recorded earlier on my phone. I don't sound that bad. And I look pretty cut too! But should I post it... Maybe it's safer if I don't draw too much attention to myself.

So is this how my life is going to be...? I don't even know what I want to do with my life!! Especially since Jace... All I know is that I want to stand out. I want to make a change... I want to live an... exiting life! And if I don't upload this, it'll bug the the crap out of me... Okay... I'm going to close my eyes and press upload. 

I press upload, then share... then bury your head in your pillow. "Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeekk! I did it." I mean no one will even watch an unknown girl somewhere in a small town. 

Full of bravado I climb into my bed and lie in the dark. Determinded not to give a s**t what anyone thinks of all your thoughts now set free on the internet.

I mean, so what if one or two people look at it? Okay, maybe I should check if there are any views? "Or better yet... maybe we should delete it." "Shut up... Can you be quiet for once if it's about making important decisions?! I'm not in the mood to listen to you anymore. You"re so exhausting! Goodnight." I say to my wolf and I turn the lights off. What will be will be. Sweet dreams.